I've been a Christian since I was six years old, and I truly do believe in Jesus and want to follow God's will for my life. When I was in high school and the early part of my college years, I began rebelling from God and have been gradually coming back to him in the latter part of my college years. Now I am in the position where I am going to be graduating soon and making employment decisions and other major life decisions. At this point I'm so scared I'm going to make the wrong decision in a lot of areas.
Over the past few years I have felt God call me to minister to Hispanic people in some way, shape, or form. I grew up in a very diverse area with a large Hispanic population, and I myself am part Hispanic--although my parents do not speak Spanish. I dedicated so much time and effort since I was in middle school working to speak Spanish as a native speaker, and now thanks to God I can speak fluently. I am currently about to graduate with a degree to teach ESOL. I feel that God guided me to choose this career so that I would be able to minister to immigrants to the United States, particularly Hispanic students, and also to be able to have the opportunity to go overseas and teach there. Part of me feels kind of guilty because I deep down feel that I only desire to teach Hispanics and no other ethnic groups. Is there something wrong with this? I really do love and appreciate all people in the world and its diversity, but for some reason I just feel called to Hispanics. How do I know that this is God calling me to Hispanic people, or just my own desire to teach them? I don't want to make this passion an idol in my life.
Additionally, I feel so confused because I am currently dating a Korean guy who is a student at my university--and when I say Korean, I mean straight from Korea, not Korean-American. He wants to think about our future together, and I don't know what to do when faced with so many decisions. He has a great heart and desire to serve God, but I know that he doesn't feel called to Hispanic people and might not even be able to stay in the United States. He will have to go back to Korea at some point in the next few years and complete his military service for two years, so the only way I could even see him during this time would be to live there. And I know that there are many, many teaching opportunities in Korea, but I can't imagine myself doing that because I have never seen myself teaching Koreans, only Hispanics or a diverse group of students. I just don't know what to do because I really do love him and want things to work out between us, but I am worried that because of what I feel to be my calling we are not compatible. Also, before I met him I always felt that I would only be happy with a Hispanic man as my husband, or at least someone who would share or even understand my passion for Hispanics and be able to speak the language that I love. But I couldn't help it and we fell in love, even though he is so different from people who I typically would picture myself with and have dated in the past.
Is it wrong of me to feel that I will only be happy working with Hispanics? Even in regards to church, I just feel so at home in the Spanish church that I attend, even more so than in many American churches. I feel like I belong among Hispanics more than any other people group, and I really do not know what to do about my current situation. Of course I know that I need to seek the Lord about this, but I am just in need of diverse opinions to take into consideration as well.
How can I separate my own desires from God's will for my life? What if I make the wrong decisions? Do I need to break up with my boyfriend because he doesn't share the same specific passion? Should I wait for God to bring me someone with the same passion that I have? Is it wrong of me to feel that I'll only be happy with a Hispanic man and only happy working with Hispanics?
Over the past few years I have felt God call me to minister to Hispanic people in some way, shape, or form. I grew up in a very diverse area with a large Hispanic population, and I myself am part Hispanic--although my parents do not speak Spanish. I dedicated so much time and effort since I was in middle school working to speak Spanish as a native speaker, and now thanks to God I can speak fluently. I am currently about to graduate with a degree to teach ESOL. I feel that God guided me to choose this career so that I would be able to minister to immigrants to the United States, particularly Hispanic students, and also to be able to have the opportunity to go overseas and teach there. Part of me feels kind of guilty because I deep down feel that I only desire to teach Hispanics and no other ethnic groups. Is there something wrong with this? I really do love and appreciate all people in the world and its diversity, but for some reason I just feel called to Hispanics. How do I know that this is God calling me to Hispanic people, or just my own desire to teach them? I don't want to make this passion an idol in my life.
Additionally, I feel so confused because I am currently dating a Korean guy who is a student at my university--and when I say Korean, I mean straight from Korea, not Korean-American. He wants to think about our future together, and I don't know what to do when faced with so many decisions. He has a great heart and desire to serve God, but I know that he doesn't feel called to Hispanic people and might not even be able to stay in the United States. He will have to go back to Korea at some point in the next few years and complete his military service for two years, so the only way I could even see him during this time would be to live there. And I know that there are many, many teaching opportunities in Korea, but I can't imagine myself doing that because I have never seen myself teaching Koreans, only Hispanics or a diverse group of students. I just don't know what to do because I really do love him and want things to work out between us, but I am worried that because of what I feel to be my calling we are not compatible. Also, before I met him I always felt that I would only be happy with a Hispanic man as my husband, or at least someone who would share or even understand my passion for Hispanics and be able to speak the language that I love. But I couldn't help it and we fell in love, even though he is so different from people who I typically would picture myself with and have dated in the past.
Is it wrong of me to feel that I will only be happy working with Hispanics? Even in regards to church, I just feel so at home in the Spanish church that I attend, even more so than in many American churches. I feel like I belong among Hispanics more than any other people group, and I really do not know what to do about my current situation. Of course I know that I need to seek the Lord about this, but I am just in need of diverse opinions to take into consideration as well.
How can I separate my own desires from God's will for my life? What if I make the wrong decisions? Do I need to break up with my boyfriend because he doesn't share the same specific passion? Should I wait for God to bring me someone with the same passion that I have? Is it wrong of me to feel that I'll only be happy with a Hispanic man and only happy working with Hispanics?
