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I have a girlfriend currently and she has been great. I think of her all the time, she's beautiful, and most importantly she loves Jesus. I'm having an issue though, and I'm really struggling with my self esteem within the relationship. I feel like I haven't been leading the relationship particularly well. Not intentionally; I am trying so hard to make her feel like I am loving her and always want her to know I care. But there are issues that keep coming up that I just can't figure out. She "tells" me what I can do to fix them, but telling me and it happening are different. A lot of them, I'm not sure exactly what I'm doing wrong. I don't know, this is a very much like a vent more than anything. I just feel like my self esteem is EXTREMELY low within the relationship. She will occassionally thank me for being Jesus for her, as a whole, and in specific situations. But then an issue comes up that is linked to one of the bigger issues, and I basically feel like I have done nothing beneficial to shape our relationship. I know this isn't true, but when the person who I am in relationship with says that....it kills me. I would never call my girlfriend a mean person; she is genuinely feeling hurt by what is going on...BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I'm trying to listen, I'm trying to change, but I just seem to do nothing right. This isn't even a post that I expect very much, but almost needed to get it out there and see what people thought. Thanks.