[__ Prayer __] "he got too old"

[Christ_empowered]

I'll soon be 34. That's what people say about me, and its...odd...

I cannot figure it all out. I also need to stop trying. Its a status issue...I -was- poor, wretched, lobotomized, had HIV/AIDS, all kindsa stuff...

and now I'm healthy, well taken care of, smart, and its Christ's work in my life, and I'm thankful.

I do get kinda scared, at times. Less than before, but its still there, now and then. It wasn't just the shrink or the other gay dudes...it was the whole wide world. Now, by God's grace, I'm "in the world, but not of it," and...

He's moved mightily in my life! I think its on my mind because I'm pretty sure my records have been shared with people. I'm also fairly certain people think+assume I have far more on my record than I do (1 misdemeanor, in reality). Not a big deal, I guess, but I was attacked in years past, probably while dealing with AIDS (just kinda...'suspend your disbelief' for a moment, LOL), so...I do sometimes think back, and my -physical- safety is something that comes to my mind, but...

everybdoy's gotta live somewhere. This apartment is what my parents are willing and able to get me, and I"m thankful. God is good!

Sorry to keep rambling. I was an easy target for a lot of people, before The Lord saved me...and not all evil people hang out on the streets. Some have MDs and make $$$$ destroying people. I see that now. And...

I dunno. now, I've been blessed beyond measure...transformed, even...God is good! People? NO. LOL. Psychiatry is often evil because its an evil world's way of dealing with problems, sins, inability to keep up with the rat race, etc. "nothing personal." OK then...

anyway, I know a lot of y'all pray for my family+me, anyway. I'm thankful. I had just woken up when I heard someone in the complex saying "he got too old," and...ugh. not even 5 AM yet!!!

thanks again.

 

[Luminous_Rose]

Always sending prayers =]

 

[Christ_empowered]

thanks. you know, I realize -now-...I was a wretched, unrepentant sinner, and a weakling. The world is horribly un-forgiving, cruel, full of lies and deception...and I feel for stuff, hook line+sinker. True story.

5 1/2 years ago, I got genuinely saved. Now...I'm healthy, smart, and...I have Jesus, which is a -big- deal to me now, as a Christian who is "in the world, but not of it."

I have a lot to be thankful for, I really do. My parents are kind to me, despite...everything (mostly me, before Jesus). I even have my own place...I cooked today, it was awesome. Anyway...

I can't look to the world around me for a whole lot, never could, anyway. Now that I'm a Christian, I've got to put aside the self-inspection psychobabble and the lies of the world, etc. etc. etc. I've repented of the lies I listen to and hold on to, repented of clinging to worldly wisdom, and...

The Lord is changing me, day by day, bit by bit. God is good!

 

[Michael74]

God is good.

Forgive the shrinks and concentrate on doing what the Lord says to.

Pray for health, and notice all improvements daily. Give God all the glory.