[ Testimony ] I have witnessed the work he has done inside me.

[Samson T Bessus]

i don't know where this testimony will bring me, and i will try to be as honest as i can.

i have written many books about my darker days. not at all to harp on these people, but ultimately use these experiences as the lesson that God has put me through in his work on my own life.

as gloomy and unholy as they may seem to start out as, most of my words that i used have been my acknowledgement of the lesson God has taught me.

second to last chapter i wrote in my 420 Shades of Violet.

"and you have been visited by God on multiple occasions.
you reach out for another sign
hoping to find something God will tell you that he wouldn't tell anyone else.
all this time you thought you were alone
all this time you were on stage with your charismatic acts of passions from a life that lead you where you are today.
do you cut old scars to remember who you are?
do you descend into bouts of insanity over your past?
or ultimately, do you realize who your enemies are for a rare moment?
you know what is being advertised in the world around you
and you have an uncomfortable choice to make.
this chapter is behind me and all i got is an idea.
it's all part of the grand illusion, we are taking the bait as planned, all in search for a friend that no one else has.
in the end, our only real friend is the Lord, and we should be humble enough to know he is there for us".

this is but one of the acknowledgments i have made to God in my writings.

the testimony i share to you here is of only a rough journey that God has tested my will upon to find him.

and i did, i have seemed to have gotten into a new art that i have been given to as a blessing onto me by God.
my mind is clear today, i welcome God's holy spirit into my life these days. i don't necessarily have the ability to actually go to church, my parents would never allow it. but i still find his meaning in my life.

the hard work I've done this year has made me feel better in God's heart, my best saying in my writings in my trials i have declared that he who seeks God will find God. as my faith grows for the love so needed for me to share to other people. i close my post with Faith, Hope, and Love, for anyone who needs it.

 

[Eugene]

The use of abject hopelessness of my past is not a testimony of God’s dealing with me, but that of Satan. To attempt to explain the many works of Lucifer brings rebirth of that sin to us, regardless of the reasoning we put forth to justify why we did something. I.e., quoting you: “You truly have not lived until you’ve lived as if you were one with the world. My life’s choices were decided before the beginning of time.”

What is God doing in you today? Telling you that all have sinned and come short of the glory of God (Rom 3:23) is relevant to us all. Dear friend, if you’re still seeing effigies our Brother Chopper has given you good advice. Not writing books, but seeking deliverance by God can give you the peace you may seek.

http://christianforums.net/Fellowship/index.php?threads/a-legitable-concern.64370/#post-1194476

 

[Samson T Bessus]

there was a near death experience i had in my past, when i was young in middle school. what happened that day while i was unconscious i met a figure of a man in a dark black cowboy style hat. it took me long enough to remember the reason prior to when i was at the hospital.

i was young and reckless in my childhood at school.

when the Discovery Channel aired the show about the bible, i started to get the means inside me to read the bible on my own.

if there is an online church for this sanctum online i will thank you for messaging me with it.
i understand now, and i will tell you this as truthfully as i can, i kicked this demon out of my life,

this event on the bridge down the road i live on, i could have simply died right there in the woods.
tell you truthfully how i feel, i believe i am not supposed to be alive right now.

the learning experience came to me after i was reading the Bible to myself.

the story about the crow in the parking lot. at that moment in my life, i had changed dramatically.

i tell you a secret about my life right now, i am mentally challenged with schizophrenia.

there were many statistics in my life. statistics that told me to end my life in vain. i refused to follow it.
i don't let the devil challenge my life based on labels. i chose to seek God on my own.

don't get me wrong, i have and i mean this to its fullest intent, have cast this demon out of me on my own.

if this church you tell me about can save my soul in some way i must be made to see this church through what means i have in front of me. i live with my parents and i have no car or transportation out of this house. and above that, i don't know any of these churches in my immediate area.

what would you have done if you said this in the way i am said it that night. i indeed have hope in my life, i think if anyone would take it into consideration, what would they do if they had to live the way i did in these stories.

with all the violence in the large cities here in America, the words in this book work with any perception will have made you think that not that of Satan, but as of your own free will be thinking onto your consciousnesses this world is in need of a savior today. the world must not end by the work of the devil himself, but be saved so that not just me or you but every person who believes in Christ, this world be saved by our trust in him.

we are in dangerous times right now. all of the people in this world right now need a miracle, and i hopefully trust that God to this day gives us one.

 

[Eugene]

if there is an online church for this sanctum online i will thank you for messaging me with it.

Not being able to leave home certainly does present a problem. As a Christian forum we have no formal church assembly, as we are of many different churches with different doctrines, and I suppose I would describe us as a Christian fellowship of the one Church; the body of Christ. (Col 1:24).

With your interest renewed, learn of God's word, forget those things which are behind, and reach forth unto those things which are before. Dear Samson, there's a life available to you if you will that has a peace that passes understanding, and that not dependent on worldly experience or joy. (Php 3:13).

Have you searched the TV ministries, or different church services on the Webb? Choose one that presents the bible so that you can grow in grace and knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. I truthfully think that if you determine to remain with us, and it makes you dig into the Bible to seek whether what we are saying is true, you will benefit. There are what I consider cults such as Jehovah Witnesses & Mormonism to avoid. I for one can no longer attend a local church assembly, but do feed myself in spiritual things as we debate and/or discuss our different understandings of God's word.

You mention having schizophrenia, and we have many among us suffering with that, but overcoming the world through faith; you can also. May you be blessed among us in Jesus' name.

 

[Samson T Bessus]

you mention these other two doctrines, i believe this people are working against us. seeing all the events between 2012 - 2013 i look at the state across the lake, and i fear what these people preach is also against God's children. we must bring these sinful lies into the full review of all of those of Abraham's God.

i play petty games in my room sometimes, i kept getting this same number in my score brackets. 11 11. sometimes when i look at the clock on the other side of the futon i sleep on. i have also seen this number.

normally at this time in the night, i have this thing i call, insanity hour. my thoughts pored into the mesh of the elites watching me as i disclose my problems to intentionally see how they react. i looked this number up on google.

there is this song on YouTube i keep listening to. i am 100% sure it was written by Mormons.

this is not the God of grace i remember learning about, the front image of this song is that of an Egyptian eye. facing to the right.

when i looked these numbers on my search, i found a black and white eye, but this time the eye was pointed to the left.

i began to ravel in the concept of a message to me. the God i know will never desert his children, thus why our Jesus make water into wine for to share amongst us if God does not want us to have pleasure under the guilt of drinking alcohol?

i understand the concept of moderation, i know this because i too have known my God of grace lets us participate in his gifts of joy to us by giving us Jesus. this is and was always his purpose.

so now i judge my life based on these sinful addictions i have. i lay my problems at the feet of my God of grace.

i understand your bias of these doctrines and understand we are the leaders of our own destiny.

the devil; wants you to feel miserable, he wants you to forget about God's grace, make you feel as if there is no hope for you.

this is what he said in his own words, and thus his plan is.. i know in the end my God will indeed never desert his children. so tonight in my final understanding of my God of truth, fills all of his children with his grace forever and ever.

my God is the God of love and of vindication and redemption.

 

[turnorburn]

You say you can't leave the place where your staying.. You have a bicycle don't you?

 

[Douglas Summers]

Faith, Hope, and Love, for anyone who needs it.

Hi Samson, We all need it, some just don't know it yet. Like you and I before the Lord found us. I say that the Lord found us, not ,"we found the Lord'"because we were the ones that were lost.....not the Lord.

In Christ
Douglas Summers

 

[K2CHRIST]

"and you have been visited by God on multiple occasions.
you reach out for another sign
hoping to find something God will tell you that he wouldn't tell anyone else.
all this time you thought you were alone
all this time you were on stage with your charismatic acts of passions from a life that lead you where you are today.
do you cut old scars to remember who you are?
do you descend into bouts of insanity over your past?
or ultimately, do you realize who your enemies are for a rare moment?
you know what is being advertised in the world around you
and you have an uncomfortable choice to make.
this chapter is behind me and all i got is an idea.
it's all part of the grand illusion, we are taking the bait as planned, all in search for a friend that no one else has.
in the end, our only real friend is the Lord, and we should be humble enough to know he is there for us".

this is but one of the acknowledgments i have made to God in my writings.

I appreciate the testimony. It shows a lot

We have battles. Not with flesh and blood, but powers and principalities. And thanks be to God, for His work and help in us.

I see that Samson wrote that the above was one of the acknowledgment he made to God, but when I read it I think it seems more like the Holy Spirit trying draw Samson to Jesus Christ. Not that it does not read, "I reached out for another sign", but rather "you reach out for another sign". So it seems someone was talking to somebody that was not God. And that somebody was saying, "our only real friend is the Lord, and we should be humble enough to know he is there for us." Now that sounds like the Holy Spirit, who is always trying to draw us to our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.

Of course, it is not actually said the Jesus Christ is Lord, so the spirit should be checked. We know the Holy Spirit tells us Jesus Christ is Lord. (1 Cor 12:3) Yet what we see later is "my God is the God of love and of vindication and redemption." which points to Jesus (God's Salvation). So we have victory in Jesus Christ!