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OK. Maybe...5 years ago, or so...just before I really, actually got saved...
...stuff happened, I said Jesus had healed me. Yes, mental illness --is-- an issue in my life. There's also...well, lots of "unusual" things going on there. At that point, I was a barely patched up burn out, 28 or so, horrible, wasted life, lots of (obvious...) brain damage. So, word got out, and lots of people found it wildly amusing. I mean, dudes were saying stuff under their breath in the local megachurch, even.
And...now? Well, funny you should. I look younger now than I did 5 years ago. Nothing freakish, just...I'm remarkably, truly, genuinely--gasp--healthy, for once. Keep in mind; I not only popped some questionable pills in my time (mostly uppers and downers, by prescription...), I was also: given heavy shock treatments (not voluntary, not that it really matters...), bashed on the head with a pipe during an attack, and I survived a near fatal sleeping pill OD in a private, for profit, hell hole of a mental hospital, w/o --any-- treatment. Clearly, God saw fit to spare me, even when I was living in unrepentant sin and the resulting darkness. Oh, and...I may have had cancer (long, long story...) that was never treated, and I also tested + for HIV over 12 years ago. Again, no treatment. I'm now...
...remarkably healthy! And...I'm "rubbing people the wrong way," or so it seems. People say I've had plastic surgery, cuz I'm no longer homely. People say I get chemical peels and such cuz I'm healthy and look a tad younger than my age. My follicles were mostly destroyed (scalp problems, hair pulling from agitation and ocd, heavy-handed use of peroxide...), and now I have loads of hair, which...of course...people say I get dyed at some high dollar salon.
This is largely a vent, yet again. Its also...a Praise Report! Healing takes many different forms. I'm not who I was, not now, thanks to Christ. Have I been "healed" ? Well, I no longer qualify for a diagnosis of full on narcissism (NPD), so...there's that. More importantly...a lot of the grit and grime I brought to The Cross seems to have been taken from me. I am, of course, very (very...very...) much a work-in-progress, but...whoa! Jesus came thru for me, and for my family!
So...yeah. Praise Report, a lil venting, and..."all the good things come from The Lord," so I am increasingly thankful, for the good things in my heart and life, my family, my health, the forgiveness I have from Christ (these are all in no particular order, btw...).
I just...don't know, sometimes. I'm starting to "toughen up," at long last. God is good! People...often, not so much. It is what it is. I was once just as lost as a lot of the people who taunt me, not so long ago, and getting saved required a miracle for me. So, I can't judge or anything, but...I do get frustrated, obviously.
OK. Thanks.
...stuff happened, I said Jesus had healed me. Yes, mental illness --is-- an issue in my life. There's also...well, lots of "unusual" things going on there. At that point, I was a barely patched up burn out, 28 or so, horrible, wasted life, lots of (obvious...) brain damage. So, word got out, and lots of people found it wildly amusing. I mean, dudes were saying stuff under their breath in the local megachurch, even.
And...now? Well, funny you should. I look younger now than I did 5 years ago. Nothing freakish, just...I'm remarkably, truly, genuinely--gasp--healthy, for once. Keep in mind; I not only popped some questionable pills in my time (mostly uppers and downers, by prescription...), I was also: given heavy shock treatments (not voluntary, not that it really matters...), bashed on the head with a pipe during an attack, and I survived a near fatal sleeping pill OD in a private, for profit, hell hole of a mental hospital, w/o --any-- treatment. Clearly, God saw fit to spare me, even when I was living in unrepentant sin and the resulting darkness. Oh, and...I may have had cancer (long, long story...) that was never treated, and I also tested + for HIV over 12 years ago. Again, no treatment. I'm now...
...remarkably healthy! And...I'm "rubbing people the wrong way," or so it seems. People say I've had plastic surgery, cuz I'm no longer homely. People say I get chemical peels and such cuz I'm healthy and look a tad younger than my age. My follicles were mostly destroyed (scalp problems, hair pulling from agitation and ocd, heavy-handed use of peroxide...), and now I have loads of hair, which...of course...people say I get dyed at some high dollar salon.
This is largely a vent, yet again. Its also...a Praise Report! Healing takes many different forms. I'm not who I was, not now, thanks to Christ. Have I been "healed" ? Well, I no longer qualify for a diagnosis of full on narcissism (NPD), so...there's that. More importantly...a lot of the grit and grime I brought to The Cross seems to have been taken from me. I am, of course, very (very...very...) much a work-in-progress, but...whoa! Jesus came thru for me, and for my family!
So...yeah. Praise Report, a lil venting, and..."all the good things come from The Lord," so I am increasingly thankful, for the good things in my heart and life, my family, my health, the forgiveness I have from Christ (these are all in no particular order, btw...).
I just...don't know, sometimes. I'm starting to "toughen up," at long last. God is good! People...often, not so much. It is what it is. I was once just as lost as a lot of the people who taunt me, not so long ago, and getting saved required a miracle for me. So, I can't judge or anything, but...I do get frustrated, obviously.
OK. Thanks.