Christ_empowered
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I mean -from- me, towards The Lord and the people He's placed (or kept) in my life.
I posted a big, long, whiny thing about another round of "the mental patient blues." thing is...
I'm not in jail. I never went to prison, but I could have, easily. I'm not in a mental hospital or on the streets. I don't even live in what I'd consider "real" poverty. Not that I"m "too good" for poverty, but...as much as people 'round here love oppressing me, if I lived in real poverty, I'd probably get beat up or something. true story.
As is, I live in a comfy, nice place my parents were able to buy outright, not mortgage. I'm not bragging...its a big deal for them, too; I think it makes them feel better, having an investment outside of the stock market, plus no mortgage. good times. anyway...
from my perspective, its all about security. i don't know if there is such a thing as 'schizophrenia,' or if i even have this thing, if its real. im pretty sure i was poor and low status and kept in bondage and oppression....
but no longer, not in Christ! I may never have a j-o-b again. I never was all that keen on a family, anyway, what with the years of homogay and all. Church, volunteer work...that's about what I think I can handle, honestly.
I"m blessed to be on disability. I'm blessed to be alive, healthy, surprisingly intelligent, more and more reconciled to my parents, living in safety+comfort, and...
I"m blessed that The Lord spared me until He dealt with my heart and brought me out of darkness. --big deal-- right there....most important moment of my (new) life.
OK. Thanks.
I posted a big, long, whiny thing about another round of "the mental patient blues." thing is...
I'm not in jail. I never went to prison, but I could have, easily. I'm not in a mental hospital or on the streets. I don't even live in what I'd consider "real" poverty. Not that I"m "too good" for poverty, but...as much as people 'round here love oppressing me, if I lived in real poverty, I'd probably get beat up or something. true story.
As is, I live in a comfy, nice place my parents were able to buy outright, not mortgage. I'm not bragging...its a big deal for them, too; I think it makes them feel better, having an investment outside of the stock market, plus no mortgage. good times. anyway...
from my perspective, its all about security. i don't know if there is such a thing as 'schizophrenia,' or if i even have this thing, if its real. im pretty sure i was poor and low status and kept in bondage and oppression....
but no longer, not in Christ! I may never have a j-o-b again. I never was all that keen on a family, anyway, what with the years of homogay and all. Church, volunteer work...that's about what I think I can handle, honestly.
I"m blessed to be on disability. I'm blessed to be alive, healthy, surprisingly intelligent, more and more reconciled to my parents, living in safety+comfort, and...
I"m blessed that The Lord spared me until He dealt with my heart and brought me out of darkness. --big deal-- right there....most important moment of my (new) life.
OK. Thanks.