Steve76
Member
Hi everyone... 
I am six months into my walk with the Lord, getting Baptized this Sunday, found this site and really enjoy learning and sharing on here, so firstly, I'd like to thank the owners of the site for creating this great portal for believers to communicate through, and for unbelievers to come to for discussion which I think is very important and can be helpful for them as they may never get to see/read the Word of God and the Gospel of Jesus Christ where they are..
I've been on here for a few weeks now and have learnt a great deal of scripture and I have had some major encouragement which I appreciate greatly! THANK YOU ALL!!
I have a very special Testimony. I wrote it all down, printed it out (155 pages!), photocopied it and recently sent it to all my relatives around the world. I have created a blog to share in cyberspace and I plan to do so much more with my Testimony. The feedback I have had from people who have read it so far has been a mix. My Dad who is a bit of an evolutionist said that he can see that I have passion for Christ my Saviour and that He has been a positive experience for me but he said for him to put his faith in Christ without something even minutely similar to what happened to me happening to him, is going to be difficult, although he did say 'who knows what the future will bring..?' I would love for him to be God fearing and I pray for him often..
My Mother who was a Catholic, read my Testimony and called me to meet up. I witnessed to her and then she called out to Christ and seems to realise now the truth in the Bible. Although, my Mother is hard work and has a lot of baggage, I am sure the Lord will help her through her difficult times she is experiencing..
My Wife, seeing the change in me has also put her faith in Christ. She was Buddhist and now she attends Church with me, reads the Bible and we pray together. She is coming on well with her faith but not as wild as me! My other relatives who have read my Testimony haven't been in touch. My friends....I do not see them anymore! Apart from one, but he seems to stay away for reasons I am still unsure about.. :gah I think he is battling with my amazing conversion and knows that we cannot be the way we were anymore with drugs and all that!
So, here is my Testimony and I will keep it short and blunt. If you would like to read the full one, it is on my blog below, although it is loooong because I just kept writing and writing and writing!! :o
Hope you enjoy, and I give all glory and thanks to the Lord Jesus Christ for what He has done and will keep doing in my life, thank you Lord, I love you!
April this year my life changed dramatically. Here's a quick rundown of my life leading up to April..
(I am 33yrs old now..)
Born in Italy, christened a Catholic. Came to Wales, UK to live since I was two. I was a naughty nagging little boy and always wanted my way. When I was twelve I got sexually abused by my best friend's Dad. After a few years I managed to stop it. Between 14yrs and 18yrs I had overdosed and just went off the rails with drink and drugs. When I was 18yrs old I told my family about my abuse and abuser. The police did not prosecute him, I went worse and worse..I also felt I was made out to be a liar and had problems living in my area because my abuser was popular and had a large family.
When I was 25 yrs old I tried to kill my abuser but he got away and signed himself into a mental hospital. I had some justice here and felt better because I managed to release a lot of bad feelings that had built up, but I could not get rid of the remorse I had from hurting my family.
I had to get away, so I trained as an English Language Teacher and travelled to S.E Asia to
'Find Myself'. I found myself alright! I became a terrible alcoholic and just not a nice person to be around in drink. I met my Wife (girlfriend at the time) and became a bit abusive to her so I stopped drinking. One night, not long after I stopped drinking I could not sleep. I was in my bed and I could hear a voice getting louder and louder. I felt pressure in my forehead. The next thing, a shape formed above me and this was my first experience with a demon!
It screamed and would hit me and laugh! It said it was going to kill me. I thought I was going mad.
It drove me mad! I tried everything to get rid of it but the best thing was to get drunk so I would sleep and block it out! I met it many times, questioned it, and wrote everything down.
My Wife could not see or hear it but when it flew around the room sometimes it would go through the TV and bottles and they would make a clonking sound. I would say to my Wife 'there, did you hear that?' and she would hear it!
Anyway, we got married and our plan was to come back to the UK to settle down. I had got use to this demon like it was just one of those things you live with. I did not or could not talk to anyone about it. We came back here in 2004 and not once did I see or hear from it until....April 2009 - this year!
My Grandparents had passed away tragically and then my Sister got diagnosed with terminal cancer!
They gave her 1 - 5 years to live, she is 37yrs old and has three little ones!
I got angry! I got terribly drunk! I wanted to die instead of her..
I upset my family so much and during the time that they needed me to be strong. In fact, I actually made matters a lot more worse for them because they had enough problems to deal with regarding my Sister. In April, on the 27th, I decided to commit suicide. I got some painkillers and some wine.
Just as I was going to go ahead my body stopped moving! I remember something strange had just happened but did not understand it. The first things I noticed were my dog in his bed and then a photo of my Wife and I on our honeymoon. I cried and cried and shouted and screamed! I stopped drinking! And for some reason....I mocked God! strange...as I did not believe in Him!
That night I went to bed and could not sleep. The demon came back and said "You are going to die this year!! HAHAHAHAHA!!!"
It was pressing my heart and I just couldn't believe it. It was back, and right after I had managed to stop drinking! I told it to leave me alone but it was relentless. I pulled the pillow over my head and tried to block it out. The next day, my Wife went to work and I went on the internet and searched about demons. I came to a site about demons, it is a link on my blog. I read and read and realised that what they were on about was what I was experiencing.. :o
On one part of the website there was a prayer to Jesus Christ. Above the prayer it mentioned that 'you must be sincere when praying this to Jesus'. I had read up on Jesus and God in the past but was confused about it all. I actually thought that it was all made up and that we were here, we die, and then that is it.
But, it said that Jesus casted demons out of people and this is what got me. I really wanted help and this site told me I could get it....from Jesus Christ!
I thought it was worth a shot. I prayed sincerely with absolute faith, and I wept and wept for quite sometime. That night, I went to bed and could not sleep. The demon came back and he was strong. Stronger than before. He was pressing my heart, telling me I'm going to die! After about 30 seconds and just as I thought that my prayer had not worked, the most amazing thing that has and I think ever will happen in my life happened!!!!! :rolling
A figure started forming and it got between me and the demon. The figure grew and grew in intensity, the colour was golden silver and it was shimmering and sparkling! My Wife was snoring her head off, the demon shut up and then.....
"Hi Steve, do you want to be saved?"
It was Jesus Christ! My jaw dropped and I stuttered.."Y.Y..YES!"
He was majestic! I could see from His chest upwards. He had long hair that came down to His shoulders. I could see His features and He was GLOWING! Beautiful colours but the glow did not light up the room..
When I said yes, Jesus replied.."Ok, now, follow me and watch.."
Then the demon screamed.."NOOOooooooooooo! He's mine!!!"
Jesus then said "Will you come with me..?"
I remember thinking 'is He talking to me?'
then I realised He was and I replied "Yes!"..
As I said yes my forehead felt strange like something had happened inside and then a pressure lifted and the demon screamed in agony!
Jesus kept repeating.."Will you come with me?"
And I kept saying "Yes!"
Each time this happened, the pressure was lifting out of me. The best way I can describe this is like it was being peeled out of me. It went down my face, that took about 10 mins..
Then my neck and chest and my organs like my liver and kidneys. When it came to my stomach it rumbled like I was hungry! After about 30mins of saying this it went down to my legs and out of my feet!
When it came out of my feet the demon screamed "NOOOOoooo, LET ME BACK IN!! HE'S MINE!! HE'S MINE!!" and it shot off and disappeared! I could not hear it anymore...
Then Jesus said "It is done and he is out, now don't drink again and be good Steve..I have to go now as there is much work to be done.."
I was in absolute shock and awe! And my reaction was to keep Jesus there, not let Him go! so I said.."Wait Jesus, wait..." and He did! then I had to think of something to ask Him..lol!
"Jesus, how is my Sister doing?" I was worried about her and we were not in touch..
Jesus said "She is doing well, very well, we are helping her Steve, she loves you, she loves you, she loves you.."
I said.."Did she get ill because of me?" I truly thought that I had caused her cancer because I thought the demon may have been affecting her because of me!
Jesus replied.."No Steve, not because of you.."
Then I said.."Can I still go to heaven?" I thought that I would not be forgiven I suppose..
Jesus said.."Yes! Now don't drink Steve, don't drink, I have to go..."
I said.."Thank you Jesus, I won't drink, I promise you, thank you!!!!"
And He went..
My chains fell off! I got up, ran downstairs and wrote it all down..
Since then, I have been on an amazing journey and it has only just started! Unfortunately, I got drunk twice and I felt terrible because of it....spiritually detached I should imagine..
I have had demon attacks, spiritual and physical. I have commanded them to be still in the name of Jesus Christ and they have.
I have seen deliverance, manifestation, and how the light that shines through me penetrates the darkness...it is all real and I am humbled!
The second time I got drunk was because I was remorseful. Due to me upsetting my family so much and that they do not trust me! I felt like I had a cure for all the diseases in the world but no-one believed me, especially my family! It hurt!
I got terribly drunk in August just before I sent my Testimony because my Sister was still not talking to me. I had alcohol poisoning and lost a lot of weight. I was a mess but stopped after 3 days. The night I stopped, I went to bed and something amazing happened! I was lying in bed, repenting, crying, and asking for forgiveness when I felt an energy come over me..Holy Spirit? I still do not know to this day but it communicated with me and said..
"Don't drink Steve, we are helping you!!!".. It had urgency in it's voice..
I said "I'm sorry, please, believe in me.." and it replied "You're not believing in us! Stop drinking! Something absolutely amazing is going to happen in your life! Just you watch, just you watch!"..
It touched me all over my aching body, it was beautiful!
I haven't drank any alcohol since then. I have drank twice in 6 months which is the best I have been in 8 years! I do not want to drink but my flesh misses it!
It is a war for me now, a war against the flesh, and a spiritual war where I have found my side, my team, my family, my Lord and my Father who is in Heaven!
Praise the Lord!
I hope you enjoyed my Testimony! I sure enjoyed meeting the Lord and I feel totally humbled to have had this opportunity..why me? a wretch like me!???
You know, the demon was right though! I am going to die this year.......die to myself!
Please, pray for my Baptism, that it draws a crowd and that they see the Lord's Glory, through me!
I am six months into my walk with the Lord, getting Baptized this Sunday, found this site and really enjoy learning and sharing on here, so firstly, I'd like to thank the owners of the site for creating this great portal for believers to communicate through, and for unbelievers to come to for discussion which I think is very important and can be helpful for them as they may never get to see/read the Word of God and the Gospel of Jesus Christ where they are..
I've been on here for a few weeks now and have learnt a great deal of scripture and I have had some major encouragement which I appreciate greatly! THANK YOU ALL!!
I have a very special Testimony. I wrote it all down, printed it out (155 pages!), photocopied it and recently sent it to all my relatives around the world. I have created a blog to share in cyberspace and I plan to do so much more with my Testimony. The feedback I have had from people who have read it so far has been a mix. My Dad who is a bit of an evolutionist said that he can see that I have passion for Christ my Saviour and that He has been a positive experience for me but he said for him to put his faith in Christ without something even minutely similar to what happened to me happening to him, is going to be difficult, although he did say 'who knows what the future will bring..?' I would love for him to be God fearing and I pray for him often..
My Mother who was a Catholic, read my Testimony and called me to meet up. I witnessed to her and then she called out to Christ and seems to realise now the truth in the Bible. Although, my Mother is hard work and has a lot of baggage, I am sure the Lord will help her through her difficult times she is experiencing..
My Wife, seeing the change in me has also put her faith in Christ. She was Buddhist and now she attends Church with me, reads the Bible and we pray together. She is coming on well with her faith but not as wild as me! My other relatives who have read my Testimony haven't been in touch. My friends....I do not see them anymore! Apart from one, but he seems to stay away for reasons I am still unsure about.. :gah I think he is battling with my amazing conversion and knows that we cannot be the way we were anymore with drugs and all that!
So, here is my Testimony and I will keep it short and blunt. If you would like to read the full one, it is on my blog below, although it is loooong because I just kept writing and writing and writing!! :o
Hope you enjoy, and I give all glory and thanks to the Lord Jesus Christ for what He has done and will keep doing in my life, thank you Lord, I love you!
April this year my life changed dramatically. Here's a quick rundown of my life leading up to April..
(I am 33yrs old now..)
Born in Italy, christened a Catholic. Came to Wales, UK to live since I was two. I was a naughty nagging little boy and always wanted my way. When I was twelve I got sexually abused by my best friend's Dad. After a few years I managed to stop it. Between 14yrs and 18yrs I had overdosed and just went off the rails with drink and drugs. When I was 18yrs old I told my family about my abuse and abuser. The police did not prosecute him, I went worse and worse..I also felt I was made out to be a liar and had problems living in my area because my abuser was popular and had a large family.
When I was 25 yrs old I tried to kill my abuser but he got away and signed himself into a mental hospital. I had some justice here and felt better because I managed to release a lot of bad feelings that had built up, but I could not get rid of the remorse I had from hurting my family.
I had to get away, so I trained as an English Language Teacher and travelled to S.E Asia to
'Find Myself'. I found myself alright! I became a terrible alcoholic and just not a nice person to be around in drink. I met my Wife (girlfriend at the time) and became a bit abusive to her so I stopped drinking. One night, not long after I stopped drinking I could not sleep. I was in my bed and I could hear a voice getting louder and louder. I felt pressure in my forehead. The next thing, a shape formed above me and this was my first experience with a demon!
It screamed and would hit me and laugh! It said it was going to kill me. I thought I was going mad.
It drove me mad! I tried everything to get rid of it but the best thing was to get drunk so I would sleep and block it out! I met it many times, questioned it, and wrote everything down.
My Wife could not see or hear it but when it flew around the room sometimes it would go through the TV and bottles and they would make a clonking sound. I would say to my Wife 'there, did you hear that?' and she would hear it!
Anyway, we got married and our plan was to come back to the UK to settle down. I had got use to this demon like it was just one of those things you live with. I did not or could not talk to anyone about it. We came back here in 2004 and not once did I see or hear from it until....April 2009 - this year!
My Grandparents had passed away tragically and then my Sister got diagnosed with terminal cancer!
They gave her 1 - 5 years to live, she is 37yrs old and has three little ones!
I got angry! I got terribly drunk! I wanted to die instead of her..
I upset my family so much and during the time that they needed me to be strong. In fact, I actually made matters a lot more worse for them because they had enough problems to deal with regarding my Sister. In April, on the 27th, I decided to commit suicide. I got some painkillers and some wine.
Just as I was going to go ahead my body stopped moving! I remember something strange had just happened but did not understand it. The first things I noticed were my dog in his bed and then a photo of my Wife and I on our honeymoon. I cried and cried and shouted and screamed! I stopped drinking! And for some reason....I mocked God! strange...as I did not believe in Him!
That night I went to bed and could not sleep. The demon came back and said "You are going to die this year!! HAHAHAHAHA!!!"
It was pressing my heart and I just couldn't believe it. It was back, and right after I had managed to stop drinking! I told it to leave me alone but it was relentless. I pulled the pillow over my head and tried to block it out. The next day, my Wife went to work and I went on the internet and searched about demons. I came to a site about demons, it is a link on my blog. I read and read and realised that what they were on about was what I was experiencing.. :o
On one part of the website there was a prayer to Jesus Christ. Above the prayer it mentioned that 'you must be sincere when praying this to Jesus'. I had read up on Jesus and God in the past but was confused about it all. I actually thought that it was all made up and that we were here, we die, and then that is it.
But, it said that Jesus casted demons out of people and this is what got me. I really wanted help and this site told me I could get it....from Jesus Christ!
I thought it was worth a shot. I prayed sincerely with absolute faith, and I wept and wept for quite sometime. That night, I went to bed and could not sleep. The demon came back and he was strong. Stronger than before. He was pressing my heart, telling me I'm going to die! After about 30 seconds and just as I thought that my prayer had not worked, the most amazing thing that has and I think ever will happen in my life happened!!!!! :rolling
A figure started forming and it got between me and the demon. The figure grew and grew in intensity, the colour was golden silver and it was shimmering and sparkling! My Wife was snoring her head off, the demon shut up and then.....
"Hi Steve, do you want to be saved?"
It was Jesus Christ! My jaw dropped and I stuttered.."Y.Y..YES!"
He was majestic! I could see from His chest upwards. He had long hair that came down to His shoulders. I could see His features and He was GLOWING! Beautiful colours but the glow did not light up the room..
When I said yes, Jesus replied.."Ok, now, follow me and watch.."
Then the demon screamed.."NOOOooooooooooo! He's mine!!!"
Jesus then said "Will you come with me..?"
I remember thinking 'is He talking to me?'
then I realised He was and I replied "Yes!"..
As I said yes my forehead felt strange like something had happened inside and then a pressure lifted and the demon screamed in agony!
Jesus kept repeating.."Will you come with me?"
And I kept saying "Yes!"
Each time this happened, the pressure was lifting out of me. The best way I can describe this is like it was being peeled out of me. It went down my face, that took about 10 mins..
Then my neck and chest and my organs like my liver and kidneys. When it came to my stomach it rumbled like I was hungry! After about 30mins of saying this it went down to my legs and out of my feet!
When it came out of my feet the demon screamed "NOOOOoooo, LET ME BACK IN!! HE'S MINE!! HE'S MINE!!" and it shot off and disappeared! I could not hear it anymore...
Then Jesus said "It is done and he is out, now don't drink again and be good Steve..I have to go now as there is much work to be done.."
I was in absolute shock and awe! And my reaction was to keep Jesus there, not let Him go! so I said.."Wait Jesus, wait..." and He did! then I had to think of something to ask Him..lol!
"Jesus, how is my Sister doing?" I was worried about her and we were not in touch..
Jesus said "She is doing well, very well, we are helping her Steve, she loves you, she loves you, she loves you.."
I said.."Did she get ill because of me?" I truly thought that I had caused her cancer because I thought the demon may have been affecting her because of me!
Jesus replied.."No Steve, not because of you.."
Then I said.."Can I still go to heaven?" I thought that I would not be forgiven I suppose..
Jesus said.."Yes! Now don't drink Steve, don't drink, I have to go..."
I said.."Thank you Jesus, I won't drink, I promise you, thank you!!!!"
And He went..
My chains fell off! I got up, ran downstairs and wrote it all down..
Since then, I have been on an amazing journey and it has only just started! Unfortunately, I got drunk twice and I felt terrible because of it....spiritually detached I should imagine..
I have had demon attacks, spiritual and physical. I have commanded them to be still in the name of Jesus Christ and they have.
I have seen deliverance, manifestation, and how the light that shines through me penetrates the darkness...it is all real and I am humbled!
The second time I got drunk was because I was remorseful. Due to me upsetting my family so much and that they do not trust me! I felt like I had a cure for all the diseases in the world but no-one believed me, especially my family! It hurt!
I got terribly drunk in August just before I sent my Testimony because my Sister was still not talking to me. I had alcohol poisoning and lost a lot of weight. I was a mess but stopped after 3 days. The night I stopped, I went to bed and something amazing happened! I was lying in bed, repenting, crying, and asking for forgiveness when I felt an energy come over me..Holy Spirit? I still do not know to this day but it communicated with me and said..
"Don't drink Steve, we are helping you!!!".. It had urgency in it's voice..
I said "I'm sorry, please, believe in me.." and it replied "You're not believing in us! Stop drinking! Something absolutely amazing is going to happen in your life! Just you watch, just you watch!"..
It touched me all over my aching body, it was beautiful!
I haven't drank any alcohol since then. I have drank twice in 6 months which is the best I have been in 8 years! I do not want to drink but my flesh misses it!
It is a war for me now, a war against the flesh, and a spiritual war where I have found my side, my team, my family, my Lord and my Father who is in Heaven!
Praise the Lord!
I hope you enjoyed my Testimony! I sure enjoyed meeting the Lord and I feel totally humbled to have had this opportunity..why me? a wretch like me!???
You know, the demon was right though! I am going to die this year.......die to myself!
Please, pray for my Baptism, that it draws a crowd and that they see the Lord's Glory, through me!
