[__ Prayer __] New apt., new life

[Christ_empowered]

Tomorrow, I'll see my new apt. I praise God for His goodness! It even has 2 bedrooms, so my parents will be able to stay while having work done on their house. So...

Once again, I ask that you pray for my parents and me, too. I must make good of things, this time around. Very, very little room for mistakes in this situation.

Thanks!

 

[Pegasus]

This is wonderful news CE! I'm proud to hear this. I must have missed the original story. When did you decide to kick out to your own pad?

 

[Christ_empowered]

Saw the apt. Today. God is good! It's in a quiet, somewhat older community in an established, safe, relatively quiet part of town. I am thankful!

It's more than enough room for me. Moving day is tomorrow. God is good!

 

[for_his_glory]

God is good and pray for the adjustments you will make living on your own. Praise the Lord He has blessed you with loving parents.

 

[Tessa]

You must be feeling excited CE. Well done. Praying for a smooth move for you tomorrow.

 

[Christ_empowered]

I am excited. This time around, I'll do it right, by Gods grace.

 

[lisa-in-FL]

Hope the move in goes well tomorrow and praying for you as you adjust to your new home!

 

[Tessa]

Let us know all about today CE when you get chance
Praying for you

 

[Christ_empowered]

yay! my (loving, hard-working, long suffering, kind) parents -just- left. The extra bedroom will probably be their's, while they have some work done to their house. and...

God is good! Its not a fancy place, but its more than enough space, clean, quiet area, lots of trees, and...no craziness. LOL. I mean, I can tell by looking around, I can tell by reading over the extensive lease....they have 0 tolerance for out of control nonsense, LOL. And...

I'm glad. I really am.

Its like...as who I am now, I have "severe mental illness," but The Lord has blessed me with lots of stuff, anyway...while (for whatever reason...) leaving the...err...."affliction." LOL. So, today, it dawned on me; I'm not whiny, bratty, out of control, effeminate, drug addled, or...any of that....

but I am now a "high functioning, high-er IQ 'Schizophrenic' ," or...something. I don't know, honestly. My mama is especially kind to me. My dad...I think he's much nicer than 99.xyz% of dads would be, but still its like...oh man, my son is pretty, queer, and schizophrenic. awesome. LOL. And yet...

everything went quite nicely. Most of the place is set up, I have food, I even have coffee and spices. Yes! And I both love and appreciate my parents -now- much more than before, because....wow. It finally dawned on me...they worked hard, their whole lives, especially my mama. My dad did too, but mama grew up poor and all that jazz. And...

"put aside what is behind and press forward." God is good! Instead of moping or being afraid, I decided to do something constructive and take the Abilify (and the vitamins, of course), and...surprise, surprise....

life goes on, thanks to Christ. The place is awesome, my dad chatted up an older lady next door (she's been renting here for 28 years!!!!), and...yeah. Good parents, good place, good day, good...

good, good, good; all around, just...good, hi-quality time. I Praise God for His kindness, love, mercy, and compassion.

 

[Tessa]

Really pleased for you CE. Glad it all went smoothly. Sounds a nice place. Congrats!

 

[Christ_empowered]

me, yet again. LOL. God is good! God is also...surprisingly merciful, compassionate, and kind. I'm thankful.

OK. Mama and I are spending some time together, tomorrow. She talked to me at length on the phone, and...I think this is part of God's work in our lives. I get to grow up and grow in Christ...they get to have a surprisingly "high functioning" son who is also (gasp...) NOT : on drugs, promiscuous, miserable, wretched, unrepentant, etc., and (more importantly...) IS:

Born Again, washed+made clean, appreciative, suprisingly intelligent, miraculously healthy, etc.

I made my 1st pot of coffee in the new place, in my new coffee machine. I even got some flavored creamer, cuz...you know...I'm a kid when it comes to coffee, lol. Thing is...

I don't know if I was "severely mentally ill" from a young age or what, but fear, even paranoia, were a part of my existence. Now...somehow...I have the "high(er) IQ," the labels, disability (huge blessing, btw), and...

by God's grace, I don't have the same spirit of fear and an un-sound mind that plagued me for so long. The tranquilizer helps, of course, but...you can throw all the Abilify in the whole wide world at wretched people, they'll still be wretched and miserable. Jesus saves...why not me?

Thanks again, everyone.

 

[Razeontherock]

What a change! Sounds like your parents needing to be there for a bit might help you make the transition?

 

[Christ_empowered]

i'll always want to be close to my parents. as a practical matter, i certainly do -need- them much more than most 34 year olds. happens, sometimes.

when mama talked on the phone, she seemed...so, so happy. and she talked a bit about me needing to build my own social life and how they'll honor my boundaries. me? im blessed to have them in my life, despite my past...well, who i was...and my ongoing flaws, problems, sins and sin patterns, my need for them and....

well, a lot of parents in capitalist countries these days would look me up and down and send me packing. i guess in some more 'progressive' areas, they'd use the state hospital (?), but...

my parents are genuinely kind. they -want- and -need- me to have the best life possible, for me, within reason. 'life with limits,' basically.

im left wondering about things that most people dont think about....better to try working or just roll with disability? lazy as it sounds to not work, its something of a gamble to work, especially in my situation, and...i dunno. i'll pray on it, definitely.

other things...church? which one? im still oddly fascinated by the rcc. maybe its because the pope somehow manages to rub everyone the wrong way, at some point? anti-trump...awesome. oh, wait...he also despises abortion. and drugs. and same sex marriage. i guess no one in the secular realm really 'wins' with the pope, now do they?

rambling....

"not everyone works, you know." a lady who lived her whole life in poverty in the deep south told me that, years ago, when i was living out of state. at least i have my parents and disability, a place of my own....

thinking/writing outloud, i guess. thanks for the replies, support, prayers, etc.

 

[Razeontherock]

I think the previous suggestions of Church and volunteer service are right up your alley! Low pressure, go at your own pace, take time to adjust ... it's the relationships that will matter most.

No rush