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MaryKate
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Thank you :'-)i am --so-- sorry. reading this really gets to me.
i know there are lawyers for ssdi. i would think/assume there are some for ssi, as well. i had no idea they could just cut off checks like that. i mean, its the gov't, and they...do.not.care, so I believe you, but...wow. that's hardcore.
when i was reivewed, the info sheet they sent out at the beginning of the review mentioned that i could file an appeal. can you (or an advocate, lawyer...somebody...) do that in this situation?
i dont think you're pathetic and/or whiney or anything. please feel free to come here and vent and such, as often as you need to (I certainly do, clearly).
I'll keep you and your family up in prayer.
The above thank you was meant for you but I can't figure out how to delete it since I wasn't quite sure how to directly reply...
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MaryKate
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So I've decided, even if no one reads this or replies, it's a blessing to have a place to come and, like I've said before, vent out the toxic emotions and get my situation down in front of me so maybe I can find another way forward...I was so worthless yesterday, another fever spike and my stomach was killing me, I couldn't even get out of bed unless it was to run to the bathroom to throw up, & when I finally "came to" enough to sit up and take a bath and talk to my mom, when I walked into her room she was sitting on the bed crying, and if you knew my mom at all you'd know why that was SO shattering to me...she never cries..well, very seldom does she cry. So instantly that reverted me back to a little kid, cuddling up to her and crying myself asking her what's wrong (what is it this time :-( ) & she says we have $5 left to our name right now and I HAVE to have gas to get to work tomorrow and also we HAVE to buy dog food...anyone who has dogs knows how expensive dog food is and that $5 for both if those things just isnt gonna cut it and even then what do we do after the $5 is gone? So we did the only thing we could do, which is pray pray pray...this morning when I woke up I was sick with anxiety, pacing around the house, ended up looking for a pair of pliers or a wrench or something in one of the junk drawers where I found an old scratch off lottery ticket I have no memory of where it came from, worth $20! It made me tear up and say thank you thank you thank you Lord, & reminded me once again that we just gotta take this one day at a time..& you have no idea how good it felt to call my mom at her work & let her know I found twenty bucks for her to pick up on her lunch break. she said what are the odds of that? See, He always takes care of us...
I read this quote the other day,I can't remember where, as I'm pretty much constantly reading whenever I can, but it really struck me, as someone who suffers from anxiety..it was something like; "DO NOT worry....worrying is like praying for something you Don't want!" Im paraphrasing, but yeah, I have been repeating that to myself and to my mom on a regular basis these last couple days..If anyone reads this I hope they have a blessed day and I hope they try not to worry <3<3 I'm trying really hard
she said what are the odds of that? See, He always takes care of us...I read this quote the other day,I can't remember where, as I'm pretty much constantly reading whenever I can, but it really struck me, as someone who suffers from anxiety..it was something like; "DO NOT worry....worrying is like praying for something you Don't want!" Im paraphrasing, but yeah, I have been repeating that to myself and to my mom on a regular basis these last couple days..If anyone reads this I hope they have a blessed day and I hope they try not to worry <3<3 I'm trying really hard
Christ_empowered
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hi. me again.
i hope you stick around at CFnet. Not all Christians understand everybody--we're all still human, afterall--but a lot of Christians --do-- genuinely care, definitely more than the vast majority of people who are in and of the world, on the broad road, etc. Trust me on this one...I didn't get the least bit of compassion or...anything genuinely helpful, good, etc....until I was sent off to a Pentecostal rehab facility (long story...). I had been raised kinda sorta Christian, in a mainline Protestant, "respectable" kinda way, but...not a whole lot of actual teaching, explanation, etc. Odd, now that I think about it.
I hope+pray The Lord will move in your situation in a big, big way. Its crazy, to me...how now, especially since the economy has tanked, there's a lot of poor people, a lot more struggling to get by, and yet...more and more, there's this straight up --hatred-- towards poor people and "losers," etc. Trust me; I "get" that. In my life (thanks for reading and "liking" some of my posts, btw...), I'm now supported by my (recently) "well-to-do" (apparently...) parents and SSI. Ideal? No, but then again...my whole existence, before Jesus saved me, people went out of their way to "teach me a lesson," "make an example" out of me, "keep me in line," etc. I dunno. Part what "mental patients" go through, part social class issues, part homophobia...at the end of the day, it all adds up: bondage and oppression.
Good news is...he whom The Son has set free is set free, indeed. Of course, that plays out differently in each Christian's life. In my life, at this point it means a life in which I've been spared jail, prison, a state hospital, all that jazz...I live in a comfortable home, I'm safe, etc...but I'm also slathered in labels and stigma.
I pray that The Lord will set you+your family free from bondage and oppression. Its weird to me, how so many church people in my area talk about Scripture, etc., but they use The Bible to cut people down, "keep people in line," etc. Even in the Old Testament, God was all about breaking the bonds of oppression for His people, and punishing those who kept on oppressing the weak. Look at Sodom and Gomorrah. Around here, a lot of the church people focus on the sodomy (it --was-- a big factor, of course...), but they ignore the fact that all that sexual stuff grew out of a sick, sinful culture in which the rich hoarded wealth and oppressed and punished the poor.
OK. Once again, I've rambled. I'm honestly, truly glad you're here, posting, opening up to us about your life, struggles, etc. I wish I had a solid, definite answer for you, but...clearly, I don't. I keep you up in prayer, and I'll do my best to listen and respond in constructive, good ways.
i hope you stick around at CFnet. Not all Christians understand everybody--we're all still human, afterall--but a lot of Christians --do-- genuinely care, definitely more than the vast majority of people who are in and of the world, on the broad road, etc. Trust me on this one...I didn't get the least bit of compassion or...anything genuinely helpful, good, etc....until I was sent off to a Pentecostal rehab facility (long story...). I had been raised kinda sorta Christian, in a mainline Protestant, "respectable" kinda way, but...not a whole lot of actual teaching, explanation, etc. Odd, now that I think about it.
I hope+pray The Lord will move in your situation in a big, big way. Its crazy, to me...how now, especially since the economy has tanked, there's a lot of poor people, a lot more struggling to get by, and yet...more and more, there's this straight up --hatred-- towards poor people and "losers," etc. Trust me; I "get" that. In my life (thanks for reading and "liking" some of my posts, btw...), I'm now supported by my (recently) "well-to-do" (apparently...) parents and SSI. Ideal? No, but then again...my whole existence, before Jesus saved me, people went out of their way to "teach me a lesson," "make an example" out of me, "keep me in line," etc. I dunno. Part what "mental patients" go through, part social class issues, part homophobia...at the end of the day, it all adds up: bondage and oppression.
Good news is...he whom The Son has set free is set free, indeed. Of course, that plays out differently in each Christian's life. In my life, at this point it means a life in which I've been spared jail, prison, a state hospital, all that jazz...I live in a comfortable home, I'm safe, etc...but I'm also slathered in labels and stigma.
I pray that The Lord will set you+your family free from bondage and oppression. Its weird to me, how so many church people in my area talk about Scripture, etc., but they use The Bible to cut people down, "keep people in line," etc. Even in the Old Testament, God was all about breaking the bonds of oppression for His people, and punishing those who kept on oppressing the weak. Look at Sodom and Gomorrah. Around here, a lot of the church people focus on the sodomy (it --was-- a big factor, of course...), but they ignore the fact that all that sexual stuff grew out of a sick, sinful culture in which the rich hoarded wealth and oppressed and punished the poor.
OK. Once again, I've rambled. I'm honestly, truly glad you're here, posting, opening up to us about your life, struggles, etc. I wish I had a solid, definite answer for you, but...clearly, I don't. I keep you up in prayer, and I'll do my best to listen and respond in constructive, good ways.
MaryKate
Member
Thank you ,once again.:'-) & no, thanks for rambling, it makes me feel better about my own rambling,lol. I plan to stick around, what's crazy is this is the first and only forum I have ever posted to, I've always been a 'lurker' but this site kind of fell into my lap and called my name for some reason, and you are right, the compassion I've received has been a huge comfort and a surprise,and so desperately needed. From the posts of yours that I have read, it hurts my heart to hear about the unfairness and ignorance and small minded-ness you've come head to head to in your life and I'm very glad God has been there to help you cope with your battles...it makes me sick how many people claim to be good Christians but still revel in stigma and judgement and think they are somehow "better than" when how can 'we are all created equal' be any clearer..much love to you and thanks again
Christ_empowered
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thanks. I'm glad you're here at CFnet. Your latest reply brightened my day a good bit, so...thanks.