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Hi
AngelsAmongstUs, and welcome back. I think there was a problem with our Two-Step verification, and I for one no longer use it. I'm sorry to hear of your continuing problems where you live. Is it your country's lack of employment for its many citizens? Otherwise you're very young and could possibly work two jobs of lesser pay to get you back on your feet; I had to do that for years.
You speak of struggling and our model of a certified Christian walk is that of the Apostle Paul, and he said in 1 Cor 11:1, Be ye followers of me, even as I also am of Christ. Should we expect more? I know there are many out there telling us how easy it should be, but if we didn't have a need, we might not seek the Lord for His help either.
Here is Paul's testimony:
2Co 11:23 Are they ministers of Christ? (I speak as a fool) I am more; in labours more abundant, in stripes above measure, in prisons more frequent, in deaths oft.
2Co 11:24 Of the Jews five times received I forty stripes save one.
2Co 11:25 Thrice was I beaten with rods, once was I stoned, thrice I suffered shipwreck, a night and a day I have been in the deep;
2Co 11:26 In journeyings often, in perils of waters, in perils of robbers, in perils by mine own countrymen, in perils by the heathen, in perils in the city, in perils in the wilderness, in perils in the sea, in perils among false brethren;
2Co 11:27 In weariness and painfulness, in watchings often, in hunger and thirst, in fastings often, in cold and nakedness.
2Co 11:28 Beside those things that are without, that which cometh upon me daily, the care of all the churches.
2Co 11:29 Who is weak, and I am not weak? who is offended, and I burn not?
2Co 11:30 If I must needs glory, I will glory of the things which concern mine infirmities.
2Co 12:7 And lest I should be exalted above measure through the abundance of the revelations, there was given to me a thorn in the flesh, the messenger of Satan to buffet me, lest I should be exalted above measure.
2Co 12:8 For this thing I besought the Lord thrice, that it might depart from me.
2Co 12:9 And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
2Co 12:10 Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for
when I am weak, then am I strong.
The following pamphlet I wrote may be of help in your trial at this time.
Christian Sufferings
http://www.christianforums.net/Fellowship/index.php?threads/christian-sufferings.52898/
Blessings in Christ Jesus, and I will certainly be in prayer for you