I grew up in a very religious family. Most of my life I have had questions regarding God, Jesus and the bible. Every time I try to ask these questions I am met with the same response, "You just have to have faith". How can I have faith when I have little to base it on. I look at it like a foundation for a house, you have to start somewhere and it needs to be sturdy otherwise anything built on it will not be stable. A few years back I was able to reset my thinking and live a life of spirituality having a close relationship with God. My ability to view God, Jesus and the holy spirit through this new way of thinking gave me a way to address some of my concerns with regards to religion and denomination. I truly felt a direct connection with God and could pray and talk to him regularly. I had peace and could feel him working in my life. After attending a few church sessions and going to a few bible study meetings I was no longer able to continue my relationship with God (which was very strong at that time) due to the guilt, fear and confusion that I now have. For once I was able to have a relationship with God based on love and peace versus fear of going to hell and confusion but since then I have become bitter and have tried unsuccessfully to reestablish a connection with God. The thing that scares me is that I just don't feel like my prayers go anywhere and the connection I had is completely gone. How can you have a relationship when I feel like I am talking or praying to air and when I can't feel anything? I have spent the last couple of hours online looking up prayers and ways to reconnect to God. How do I rebuild a relationship with God without the fear of going to hell? I need to find a denomination that allows me to believe God, Jesus and the holy spirit are one and the same but three separate parts? I have asked for forgiveness and to be saved. I am unable to accept the bible as is. There are passages that are literal and passages that are figurative. I believe there are many parables within the bible that are used to teach a moral or illustrate a point. I just can't believe in Jonah and the whale literally. I prefer to see this as a parable or figuratively speaking. I also have difficulty with the bible being written and rewritten/reinterpreted by "man", many many years after Jesus's death. It is hard for me to believe that things weren't removed, added or misinterpreted throughout the years. When I bring this up I am told I have to believe in the bible completely and literally and if I don't then I'll go to hell. Please help me find a denomination that allows me to view God the father, Jesus the son and the holy spirit as three parts of the same being/whole/one, I am able to interpret the bible to the best of my ability based on what God directs or reveals to me and where I can have a direct relationship with God without the oppression of the church.