Hello friends. Today I just ask you all to pray for me. I’ve got a real problem with humility sometimes. I’d rather not go to deep into details because I’m not exactly comfortable doing so online, but there is a certain group of people of whom I love to fight with. Often times I deliberately start fights with these people because I know that I can eviscerate them on both an intellectual level and most likely in a real fight. I do so because they look at themselves as more superior than me because I’m a Bible believing Christian. Frankly I love to watch them squirm and get triggered. It’s even funnier to watch them tuck their tail between their legs and run when it looks like they might have to back their threats up.
However the Holy Spirit really convicted me hard today. I know God does not want me doing this and He wants me to see them as He sees them. It’s really tough because I genuinely see these people as traces of filth and the lowest form of life.
Anyways, there’s no way I could ever win over anyone to the Lord if they can clearly tell I don’t like them. I’m praying that God will change my heart. I ask for His forgiveness, and I do genuinely hope that sooner than later this mean spirited part of me will die.
However the Holy Spirit really convicted me hard today. I know God does not want me doing this and He wants me to see them as He sees them. It’s really tough because I genuinely see these people as traces of filth and the lowest form of life.
Anyways, there’s no way I could ever win over anyone to the Lord if they can clearly tell I don’t like them. I’m praying that God will change my heart. I ask for His forgiveness, and I do genuinely hope that sooner than later this mean spirited part of me will die.
