ugh. still more talk, now and then, of "jail," "prison," "warrants," etc. I've talked to my counselor about it. He (rightly) pointed out that my parents got me a lawyer for that legal trouble I got into, and I was released from probation early, based on compliance/good behavior. I also ended up with a serious ("Class A") misdemeanor, not a felony, so...that definitely helps put my mind at ease (sometimes...). I...don't know...what to do, honestly. My counselor acts as if its all "illness"-based. My parents tell me to ignore it if its real, although they've been talking more and more about my "Schizophrenia" (actual diagnosis: severe Bipolar I, prone to psychosis), so...yeah. There's that, too. While I was talking to myself, I suddenly said "maybe its self-condemnation," and he smiled. He's a Christian, too; masters of divinity, even. So...yeah...there's that, too. I've prayed now and then that God will provide what I need to accept His forgiveness. ugh. Verna says to keep taking the meds, but also realize that satan is real and very active, especially when God is at work in a believer's life. OK. Makes sense to me. I'm now healthy, remarkably normal...I even have a higher IQ estimate than I started with, which...generally...doesn't happen, lol. God is good! I don't know what to do, honestly. They don't let people off probation early w/ warrants, I get that. I've been off probation for nearly 1 year now, and the "warrants," etc. talk seems to wax and wane. There's also...well, not to sound snotty, but...consider the source. I won't go deep into that, but...yeah. Good thing for me to think of, right? Right. Anyway, if you feel like it, please pray. I don't know what this is all about, and I'm definitely not a member of the community, so no one will talk --to-- me. The situation is much better than it was before I got saved, and really...until fairly recently...but, especially in my neighborhood, people yell things and such, but no one talks to or with me. Could be worse, of course, but it is a tad crazy-making. thanks.