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Yes, yes; me, yet again, talkin' bout mental health stuff.
I saw my counselor today. He's got a masters of divinity, solid Christian. its a public/community mental health clinic, so there's a real limit to religious talk. He talked more about his faith today (because of where I took the convo--he wasn't forcing his beliefs on me...) than ever before. It was awesome.
OK. So, the definite diagnosis--I mean, as definite as any diagnosis is in Mental Health, Inc.--is Bipolar I. I take Abilify and Lamictal (a seizure drug that helps w/ recurrent depression). He thinks some of what looks like psychosis is a strong OCD-type element adding a whole new level of fun to the mix, lol. But seriously...
I"m thankful for proper treatment,I really am. 2 psych drugs, moderate doses, no addictive/controlled substances, and my treatment providers are professional, but not so distant and detached that it bothers me. Good balance, which...I'm beginning to see now...is difficult to achieve.
Mama and dad are happy I'm getting proper treatment, too. They're doing well, btw. Dad brought home a big ole box of Bojangles (cuz the billboard says we're now a "Bo-town," y'all!), plus the iced tea (oh man...get it...just.do.it.). Mama went on a sudden grocery store run while hungry. I now have ample snacks and my own container of chocolate gelato. Mmmm....gelato....
But, seriously; as much as I write about the horrors of mental health, inc., God has made a way for this to work for my betterment. Proper treatment, disability, my parents' support, plus...although I"m trying -not- to think "I AM Bipolar I," etc., I -am- thankful for a diagnosis that helps guide treatment. I am -not- an illness, malady, affliction, etc., but I do better on this treatment--a tranquilizer plus a mood drug--than I did on anything else. Certainly beats electroshock, that's for sure.
So, I offer up praises to The Most High God for His infinite goodness. Its not just comfy living, good health, and proper treatment; its forgiveness, being washed and made clean, and...He is "the God of yet another undeserved chance," after all. I am increasingly thankful.
I also ask for guidance, for both my shrink and for me. See, OCD stuff is usually treated with antidepressants. Usually the SSRI drugs, sometimes the SSNRI drugs, less commonly the tricyclics. Problem is...although mania is not a constant problem for me (thank God!), my manic episodes were off the charts, and involved psychosis, hence the shock treatments and jail time. Antidepressants can trigger mania, hypomania, overall mood instability, now and then psychosis. Plus, factor in drug-drug interactions, and...ugh. gets tricksy, it seems.
So I really don't know if I want -more- psych drugs, but my mind loops around stuff a lot, more than I'd like. I think its been an ongoing thing since childhood. I had little bald patches when I was a kid, up until the 1st major manic episode in my early 20s, from pulling my hair. Some people have extensive patches; for me, it was less severe, and more out of agitation and -intense- loops in my thought processes. And so...
yeah. Treat it? Let it be? More supplements? It doesn't help that I'm not a huge SSRI fan. The last time I took one, I appreciated simmering down...6 months in, I was feeling very tranquilized, flat, apathetic, etc., so I dropped it.
OK. SO...another Praise Report (God is good!) and prayer request, cuz I really do need Him to guide my path.
Thanks.
I saw my counselor today. He's got a masters of divinity, solid Christian. its a public/community mental health clinic, so there's a real limit to religious talk. He talked more about his faith today (because of where I took the convo--he wasn't forcing his beliefs on me...) than ever before. It was awesome.
OK. So, the definite diagnosis--I mean, as definite as any diagnosis is in Mental Health, Inc.--is Bipolar I. I take Abilify and Lamictal (a seizure drug that helps w/ recurrent depression). He thinks some of what looks like psychosis is a strong OCD-type element adding a whole new level of fun to the mix, lol. But seriously...
I"m thankful for proper treatment,I really am. 2 psych drugs, moderate doses, no addictive/controlled substances, and my treatment providers are professional, but not so distant and detached that it bothers me. Good balance, which...I'm beginning to see now...is difficult to achieve.
Mama and dad are happy I'm getting proper treatment, too. They're doing well, btw. Dad brought home a big ole box of Bojangles (cuz the billboard says we're now a "Bo-town," y'all!), plus the iced tea (oh man...get it...just.do.it.). Mama went on a sudden grocery store run while hungry. I now have ample snacks and my own container of chocolate gelato. Mmmm....gelato....
But, seriously; as much as I write about the horrors of mental health, inc., God has made a way for this to work for my betterment. Proper treatment, disability, my parents' support, plus...although I"m trying -not- to think "I AM Bipolar I," etc., I -am- thankful for a diagnosis that helps guide treatment. I am -not- an illness, malady, affliction, etc., but I do better on this treatment--a tranquilizer plus a mood drug--than I did on anything else. Certainly beats electroshock, that's for sure.
So, I offer up praises to The Most High God for His infinite goodness. Its not just comfy living, good health, and proper treatment; its forgiveness, being washed and made clean, and...He is "the God of yet another undeserved chance," after all. I am increasingly thankful.
I also ask for guidance, for both my shrink and for me. See, OCD stuff is usually treated with antidepressants. Usually the SSRI drugs, sometimes the SSNRI drugs, less commonly the tricyclics. Problem is...although mania is not a constant problem for me (thank God!), my manic episodes were off the charts, and involved psychosis, hence the shock treatments and jail time. Antidepressants can trigger mania, hypomania, overall mood instability, now and then psychosis. Plus, factor in drug-drug interactions, and...ugh. gets tricksy, it seems.
So I really don't know if I want -more- psych drugs, but my mind loops around stuff a lot, more than I'd like. I think its been an ongoing thing since childhood. I had little bald patches when I was a kid, up until the 1st major manic episode in my early 20s, from pulling my hair. Some people have extensive patches; for me, it was less severe, and more out of agitation and -intense- loops in my thought processes. And so...
yeah. Treat it? Let it be? More supplements? It doesn't help that I'm not a huge SSRI fan. The last time I took one, I appreciated simmering down...6 months in, I was feeling very tranquilized, flat, apathetic, etc., so I dropped it.
OK. SO...another Praise Report (God is good!) and prayer request, cuz I really do need Him to guide my path.
Thanks.