Jesusfreak97
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Ok....so my uh...human love life is in absolute ruins and my heart is pretty much shattered and I am so confused and mad and I don't know what to doooo!
So here's the story:
Met this really cute, really sweet, really odd guy. We dated for a month and a half and then we broke up.... Well we broke up on Easter, go figure. So his friends are trying to get us back together and his one friend, (let's call him Sam) Sam acts as a in-between guy for me and my ex. Well me and my ex never got back together but Sam and I hit it off quite nicely. Here's what happened with that, I was crying on the phone because he was the only one I could really talk to and he offered to give me someone else's number for some reason I was really really really scared to take it because I thought back to how many other people have tried to "help" and be comforting but really all they did was give me a psychologial kick in the rear and I never really felt better. Well I should have taken it. Anyway we were talking and I was crying then we got on the subject of God and I immediatly went from
to 
so it turned in to him comforting me to "God isawesomeyou'refuntotalktoIlove Jesus!" 
<--- I love that little icon. anyway 
. Ok so we talked all night and so did the conversation. It went from Jesus and God to...um....well he apparently found me VERY attractive let's put it that way. Ehm. Well it was late and both of our minds were in dirty mode and we ended up falling asleep on the phone together (aaawww cute right?). any ways...the next day I had come to my senses and the two of us did a Bible study over skype, and he had some really good questions about scripture. So I answered them as best I could. Then that night....it was late and something happened (get your mind out of the gutter not that!) but something that hurt me a lot did happen. I don't want to talk about it. anyway I pretty much flipped out and went to bed. Then the next day i tried to ignore him. I sent him an encouraging email cuz I was very infatuated with him and I wanted him to be ok but my anxiety and depression just sky rocketed so I ended up calling him and explained why I flipped out and I could tell in his voice that he had changed so much for the better. like SO much and it made me REALLY happy to hear. I asked him if he still wanted to talk after this and he said, "it's not what I want, it's what God wants. I don't have the answer. I know that you need to trust God with your relationships. Maybe God will give us the answer in ten minutes or ten years or we go our seperate ways."
Ok so everything he was saying was Biblical and correct and stuff but there was one problem: I was being rejected...AGAIN! True fact I have not had one person that I can call a close friend...ever. So I was rejected by my ex and now Sam. I'm honestly just on this forum well 1) to get some advice but also 2) to pass the time so I can just to sleep and shut off.
As for my trusting God with relationships. I know He'll do what's best. I know He will. He has my best interest in mind and even if I don't get married then that just means that I get to devote more time to the Lord.
I think right now I am just tired of being rejected over and over and over and over. I know God accepts me. I know that very well and it is a great comfort to me. In fact if I didn't know Jesus....well who knows where I would be. God didn't create us to be alone. So can anyone make any sense of this? Or maybe you'll see something that I'm not seeing? Or maybe God just wants to speak through you. I'll be happy with any one of those. Anyway....thanks for reading....
So here's the story:
Met this really cute, really sweet, really odd guy. We dated for a month and a half and then we broke up.... Well we broke up on Easter, go figure. So his friends are trying to get us back together and his one friend, (let's call him Sam) Sam acts as a in-between guy for me and my ex. Well me and my ex never got back together but Sam and I hit it off quite nicely. Here's what happened with that, I was crying on the phone because he was the only one I could really talk to and he offered to give me someone else's number for some reason I was really really really scared to take it because I thought back to how many other people have tried to "help" and be comforting but really all they did was give me a psychologial kick in the rear and I never really felt better. Well I should have taken it. Anyway we were talking and I was crying then we got on the subject of God and I immediatly went from
to so it turned in to him comforting me to "God isawesomeyou'refuntotalktoIlove Jesus!" <--- I love that little icon. anyway . Ok so we talked all night and so did the conversation. It went from Jesus and God to...um....well he apparently found me VERY attractive let's put it that way. Ehm. Well it was late and both of our minds were in dirty mode and we ended up falling asleep on the phone together (aaawww cute right?). any ways...the next day I had come to my senses and the two of us did a Bible study over skype, and he had some really good questions about scripture. So I answered them as best I could. Then that night....it was late and something happened (get your mind out of the gutter not that!) but something that hurt me a lot did happen. I don't want to talk about it. anyway I pretty much flipped out and went to bed. Then the next day i tried to ignore him. I sent him an encouraging email cuz I was very infatuated with him and I wanted him to be ok but my anxiety and depression just sky rocketed so I ended up calling him and explained why I flipped out and I could tell in his voice that he had changed so much for the better. like SO much and it made me REALLY happy to hear. I asked him if he still wanted to talk after this and he said, "it's not what I want, it's what God wants. I don't have the answer. I know that you need to trust God with your relationships. Maybe God will give us the answer in ten minutes or ten years or we go our seperate ways."Ok so everything he was saying was Biblical and correct and stuff but there was one problem: I was being rejected...AGAIN! True fact I have not had one person that I can call a close friend...ever. So I was rejected by my ex and now Sam. I'm honestly just on this forum well 1) to get some advice but also 2) to pass the time so I can just to sleep and shut off.
As for my trusting God with relationships. I know He'll do what's best. I know He will. He has my best interest in mind and even if I don't get married then that just means that I get to devote more time to the Lord.
I think right now I am just tired of being rejected over and over and over and over. I know God accepts me. I know that very well and it is a great comfort to me. In fact if I didn't know Jesus....well who knows where I would be. God didn't create us to be alone. So can anyone make any sense of this? Or maybe you'll see something that I'm not seeing? Or maybe God just wants to speak through you. I'll be happy with any one of those. Anyway....thanks for reading....
