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Me, yet again.
This time, its a pure, unadulterated...Praise Report! A --long-- overdue one, at that.
OK. It dawned on me today, while I was driving around, running some errands, etc., that I'm not at all the same person now, thanks to Christ...inside or out. God is good!
Its...interesting, I guess. Now, my IQ estimate is "high" or whatever, but I see now that IQ is, at best, a very flawed guess-timate of what someone is working with. Having said that, I'd rather have a "high" IQ estimate than what I had after intensive shock "treatment" (read: low normal IQ estimate, plus obvious brain damage...not fun...).
I have more memories now, which is...unexpected, to say the least. A lot of who I was, before Jesus saved me, was predictable. "Working class loser," not wanted in 8th grade Honors classes, etc. etc. etc..yeah, you're not gonna get to have much a life, kiddo. Happens.
But...a bit over 4 1/2 years ago, The Lord moved on my heart, and I got genuinely, truly, saved+forgiven, washed+made clean! --big-- deal, for me and for my family, too.
So...now...the Mental Health, Inc. people call this "recovery," as if...you know...people with low normal IQs following heavy shock "treatment" and everything else often end up with "high IQ" estimates. Yeah...OK. Miracles clearly --do-- happen. Guess what? "In the world, but not of it." Low status, despised, pathetic, wretched human being gets a miracle from Christ? Great for me, great for my family...don't expect a ticker tape parade, especially 'round here.
At this point, I'm blessed beyond measure, and I --am-- increasingly thankful. I'm also remarkably healthy now, to the point that instead of having all kindsa premature aging (some of mine may have been beyond my control...long story...), I now look a bit younger than many dudes in their 30s. I also now know how to eat properly, take proper care of myself, etc...basic stuff that everyone needs to know, and if you don't know by a certain age...good luck, basically.
We live in a fallen, cruel, often harsh+unforgiving world. I see that now. I don't need to retreat into a fairyland or whatever...thanks to Christ, as who I am now and who I am becoming in Christ, I can increasingly...gasp...understand and face --reality--, Praise God!
The whole "Schizophrenia" label...ugh...I dunno. My tranquilizer dose has been reduced, thank goodness. Maybe I won't need it in a few years, maybe I'll always need it...I really do not know at this point. Right now, with the "alternative" stuff on board (yes, Orthomolecular), I find that I tolerate the tranquilizer well and I don't have major problems from it, plus whatever one chooses to call this..."affliction...", it seems that I do well w/ relatively little medication on board. God is good!
I Praise God for His love, mercy, compassion, goodness...in all likelihood, straight up pity. Right now, I'm getting along well with my (long-suffering, loving, kind, generous) parents. There's a growing warmth in our relationship, and I'm thankful. I went thru hell, they went thru hell...now, The Lord has blessed all 3 of us, and He spared all 3 of us throughout the whole ordeal. God is good!
OK. That's about it from me, for now. Thanks.
This time, its a pure, unadulterated...Praise Report! A --long-- overdue one, at that.
OK. It dawned on me today, while I was driving around, running some errands, etc., that I'm not at all the same person now, thanks to Christ...inside or out. God is good!
Its...interesting, I guess. Now, my IQ estimate is "high" or whatever, but I see now that IQ is, at best, a very flawed guess-timate of what someone is working with. Having said that, I'd rather have a "high" IQ estimate than what I had after intensive shock "treatment" (read: low normal IQ estimate, plus obvious brain damage...not fun...).
I have more memories now, which is...unexpected, to say the least. A lot of who I was, before Jesus saved me, was predictable. "Working class loser," not wanted in 8th grade Honors classes, etc. etc. etc..yeah, you're not gonna get to have much a life, kiddo. Happens.
But...a bit over 4 1/2 years ago, The Lord moved on my heart, and I got genuinely, truly, saved+forgiven, washed+made clean! --big-- deal, for me and for my family, too.
So...now...the Mental Health, Inc. people call this "recovery," as if...you know...people with low normal IQs following heavy shock "treatment" and everything else often end up with "high IQ" estimates. Yeah...OK. Miracles clearly --do-- happen. Guess what? "In the world, but not of it." Low status, despised, pathetic, wretched human being gets a miracle from Christ? Great for me, great for my family...don't expect a ticker tape parade, especially 'round here.
At this point, I'm blessed beyond measure, and I --am-- increasingly thankful. I'm also remarkably healthy now, to the point that instead of having all kindsa premature aging (some of mine may have been beyond my control...long story...), I now look a bit younger than many dudes in their 30s. I also now know how to eat properly, take proper care of myself, etc...basic stuff that everyone needs to know, and if you don't know by a certain age...good luck, basically.
We live in a fallen, cruel, often harsh+unforgiving world. I see that now. I don't need to retreat into a fairyland or whatever...thanks to Christ, as who I am now and who I am becoming in Christ, I can increasingly...gasp...understand and face --reality--, Praise God!
The whole "Schizophrenia" label...ugh...I dunno. My tranquilizer dose has been reduced, thank goodness. Maybe I won't need it in a few years, maybe I'll always need it...I really do not know at this point. Right now, with the "alternative" stuff on board (yes, Orthomolecular), I find that I tolerate the tranquilizer well and I don't have major problems from it, plus whatever one chooses to call this..."affliction...", it seems that I do well w/ relatively little medication on board. God is good!
I Praise God for His love, mercy, compassion, goodness...in all likelihood, straight up pity. Right now, I'm getting along well with my (long-suffering, loving, kind, generous) parents. There's a growing warmth in our relationship, and I'm thankful. I went thru hell, they went thru hell...now, The Lord has blessed all 3 of us, and He spared all 3 of us throughout the whole ordeal. God is good!
OK. That's about it from me, for now. Thanks.