hallowbonnie
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Theres this song that has sorta followed me through my life.Its "You were meant for me" by Jewel.I sang it on my first date with my ex in a karaoke contest at a bowling alley and got third place.It quickly became mine and my exs song.Fast forward 10 years when I left my ex and began grieving my marriage I could not get away from this song for a solid year and a half.Everywhere I went there is was playing .Everytime I got in the car to go to work or come home from work.The person pulling up next to me at a red light having it blaring in their speakers.Getting in the elevator at the mall there it was playing softly overheard.And even on almost every single date I went on that first year and a half they had it playing in their car or they were playing it in the coffee shop I met them at.It was insane.It was extremely painful to hear and I didnt know why I was being tortured with it.Fast forward again to today ...I hadnt heard it in years really hadnt thought about it either but today on my way home from the gym it came on .I became aware of God with me I filled with joy and began to tear up as he began to speak with me through this song.He said the truth was this had always been OUR song.I heard the words to the song in a different way today than ever before "You were meant for me and I was meant for you".It was so awesome.Its strange because the past two weeks I had been feeling guilty because I had gotten asked out alot ..the new guy at work..the guy at the gas station that I frequent..etc etc....and I told them all no because I dont date dont want to date.They are all perfectly nice guys ..and christian but I said no because honestly it feels right for me.So these feelings of guilt and some confusion were sort of all over me the past two weeks because logically it makes sense to date nice guys that are christian but in my spirit I know I dont want to date because God has already said he will let me know when its the right person .I felt like today he was clearing all that away with this song.I had been praying for wisdom,clarity and peace and he delivered.
