Brokenhearted
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I am having trouble breathing today, I lost a pet, that I had a special bond with. I found a baby squirrel and had raised it for a month and we just formed a bond of love I can't explain, she knew what I was thinking on many occassions, I could tell. I can't believe how hurt I am by her passing, I feel like I'm going crazy. You may have no idea how lovable squirrels can be when they are young, but they are very intelligent little creatures, and her eyes would always light up with love when she looked into mine. I miss her so much. Saturday she was so full of joy, then she just got sick and died. I feel so guilty, for not bringing her in to sleep in my room, I left her out because she prefers to stay outside, but I feel so bad that I didn't recognize how sick she was.
there was alot about caring for baby squirrels I didn't know, I'm still not sure what made her sick, but I miss her so much I can't believe it.
Please say Prayer for me, I asked God to help me through it and instantly the passage from scripture came to my mind, 'Whatever you bind on earth, you shall bind in heaven". I noticed it does not say 'WHOever you bind on earth, but WHAT ever you bind on earth. I know the holy spirit is always very brilliant that way, I know in my heart, that this passage means animals you share with a bond with.
I was calling for her, and I would hear her scampering across the roof, but I knew it wasn't her, I would hear her little squeak sometimes, but I know she is gone.
When I picked her up I had no idea such a bond could exist between a wild animal and a person. She just sat still in my hand when I picked her up, totally trusting in me. As I drove home with her she got up on the seat, looking out the window, watching where we were going. They are the most curious little animals you've ever seen, they will inspect every single object in the room, trying to figure out what it is.
She loves to have her tummy rubbed, she loved to play with my fingers, or I'd swing a sock around and she would have such fun, grabbing it, holding onto it. She completely trusted me, and I feel like maybe I let her down. She would fall asleep in my lap, on her back, she would always sit on my arm and eat her pecans, or a piece of apple, or a grape. She loved to leap onto me, from the trees, then back into the trees, she loved to jump for joy.
When I saw that climbing trees was pretty much their reason for living, I let her go in the yard and built her some houses, and put some warm cloth in there and she seemed to do just fine, she seemed acutely aware of things like hawks and cats and red squirrels are faster than lighting so I thought she would be ok, but baby squirrels are NOT ok, to be left alone, they stay with their mothers til they are 6 months, they sleep in the nest with their brothers and sisters to keep eachother warm.
I let her live in the yard because I was afraid of her peeing and pooping all over, but their urine is very mild smelling and their feces are not really a big problem, they dry up quickly and are just like little specks of dirt. I just didn't know how to cope with having her in the house, or how to build her a cage, I had a dog that was a danger I felt to her inside the house.
the last few days, she just slept all day so I knew something was wrong, and she came in a few times, as if she wanted to stay inside, but I left the door open and she went out I think because she was afraid of the dog.
When they get really sick, they look for a place to hide from predators, so she hid and I couldn't find her to help her.
When i used to feed her her milk, she would always lick my hand, to say thank you, she would wink at me when I gave her something she really liked. When I built her her houses, she would run all over me, thanking me, watching every move I made, with gratitude. After I put her house up, she just sat and looked lovingly at me for such a long time. I can't tell you how bad it hurt, I woke up in the middle of the night, and just felt a horrible sadness, I knew something had happened to her that night.
The first day she ran up to me, I had no idea what to do, I would never have dreamed I could love a wild squirrel so much, or feel such a bond, or be hurt so badly by her passing.
there was alot about caring for baby squirrels I didn't know, I'm still not sure what made her sick, but I miss her so much I can't believe it.
Please say Prayer for me, I asked God to help me through it and instantly the passage from scripture came to my mind, 'Whatever you bind on earth, you shall bind in heaven". I noticed it does not say 'WHOever you bind on earth, but WHAT ever you bind on earth. I know the holy spirit is always very brilliant that way, I know in my heart, that this passage means animals you share with a bond with.
I was calling for her, and I would hear her scampering across the roof, but I knew it wasn't her, I would hear her little squeak sometimes, but I know she is gone.
When I picked her up I had no idea such a bond could exist between a wild animal and a person. She just sat still in my hand when I picked her up, totally trusting in me. As I drove home with her she got up on the seat, looking out the window, watching where we were going. They are the most curious little animals you've ever seen, they will inspect every single object in the room, trying to figure out what it is.
She loves to have her tummy rubbed, she loved to play with my fingers, or I'd swing a sock around and she would have such fun, grabbing it, holding onto it. She completely trusted me, and I feel like maybe I let her down. She would fall asleep in my lap, on her back, she would always sit on my arm and eat her pecans, or a piece of apple, or a grape. She loved to leap onto me, from the trees, then back into the trees, she loved to jump for joy.
When I saw that climbing trees was pretty much their reason for living, I let her go in the yard and built her some houses, and put some warm cloth in there and she seemed to do just fine, she seemed acutely aware of things like hawks and cats and red squirrels are faster than lighting so I thought she would be ok, but baby squirrels are NOT ok, to be left alone, they stay with their mothers til they are 6 months, they sleep in the nest with their brothers and sisters to keep eachother warm.
I let her live in the yard because I was afraid of her peeing and pooping all over, but their urine is very mild smelling and their feces are not really a big problem, they dry up quickly and are just like little specks of dirt. I just didn't know how to cope with having her in the house, or how to build her a cage, I had a dog that was a danger I felt to her inside the house.
the last few days, she just slept all day so I knew something was wrong, and she came in a few times, as if she wanted to stay inside, but I left the door open and she went out I think because she was afraid of the dog.
When they get really sick, they look for a place to hide from predators, so she hid and I couldn't find her to help her.
When i used to feed her her milk, she would always lick my hand, to say thank you, she would wink at me when I gave her something she really liked. When I built her her houses, she would run all over me, thanking me, watching every move I made, with gratitude. After I put her house up, she just sat and looked lovingly at me for such a long time. I can't tell you how bad it hurt, I woke up in the middle of the night, and just felt a horrible sadness, I knew something had happened to her that night.
The first day she ran up to me, I had no idea what to do, I would never have dreamed I could love a wild squirrel so much, or feel such a bond, or be hurt so badly by her passing.
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