Hi,
I've come to the conclusion, after carefully studying my behavior during the time I thought I was a Christian, that I really am not one. I've been hypocritical, wearing a mask, but all with the intentions to seek Jesus out. I may be wrong. I may be hard on myself and really a Christian. But it's so hard to know. I have doubts and fears, I've never had a time where I just knew I was Christian for more than a day or so. I want to give my life to the LORD. But I'm trapped in sin. Does he take you "just as I am" like the songs goes? Because that's the only way I know how to reach him. I'm desperate.
I've come to the conclusion, after carefully studying my behavior during the time I thought I was a Christian, that I really am not one. I've been hypocritical, wearing a mask, but all with the intentions to seek Jesus out. I may be wrong. I may be hard on myself and really a Christian. But it's so hard to know. I have doubts and fears, I've never had a time where I just knew I was Christian for more than a day or so. I want to give my life to the LORD. But I'm trapped in sin. Does he take you "just as I am" like the songs goes? Because that's the only way I know how to reach him. I'm desperate.