thanks, jasonc .
its kinda...strange...for all this talk of "Schizophrenia" and/or "Bipolar," "Schizoaffective," etc., I kinda think....
I started out as a low status, constantly bullied, short (5'7), prematurely aged, spunky flamer who thought the psych industry could "help" or...whatever. Not -all- their fault, but...
I ended up destitute, kept out of severe poverty by my (long suffering, loving) parents, obviously brain damaged. And now...
? I don't live in poverty, I don't know the state of my brain damage, but my IQ estimate is up and I don't have -obvious- brain damage, I've got a genuine relationship with my (wonderful) parents, and...
yeah. Mental Health, Inc. went crazy insane on me, and now I think maybe it--the 'affliction'--is more PTSD of some sort than anything else. My 'auditory hallucinations' are mild, anyway, and they deal with loops and replays of stuff that came before...
"stuff" from being 'society's reject,' being physically sick and tormented for 'non-compliance,' etc. etc. etc. blah. honestly...
I'm doing much better, by God's grace...and I think a whole lot of it is still having a strong sense of oppression, of being "kept in line," while also being very sick and brain damaged, not understanding the world around me. Of course, now...
now, I'm remarkably healthy and normal. I don't even have premature aging, somehow. So...again: God is Good! God is Love! God is Merciful!
But I dunno about all this "Schizoaffective" stuff...then again, I've read stats that show that the -majority- of the 'severely mentally ill' have some intense trauma going on...
thankfully, my childhood years were solid. maybe that's one reason I'm in the "high functioning" category? and, the other thing...
most people in Mental Health, Inc. will cover up for the others of Mental Health, Inc. They don't want to hear about trauma from substandard treatment or anything like that....
blah. maybe I should see about getting in with an understanding family doctor.
Thanks again.
God is good, God is love, and God is merciful is all that I picked out from that. Still,.. it's good enough for me to hit the like button!
