Christ_empowered
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put aside what is behind and press forward...
OK. so, I over-analyze. am i mentally ill? is there such a thing? if I am, why? when did it start? blah blah blah. thing is...
have no worry for the morrow, for each day brings troubles enough of its own. something like that, anyway (paraphrase, clearly).
I lead a fairly easy breezy, low stress lifestyle. to be fair to me, its a) about all I can handle and b) had God not spared me and then saved and transformed me, I'd be dead or deformed, no end in sight. :-(
I'm blessed beyond measure, that's for sure. And..."Schizophrenia" is usually a 1 way ticket to poverty and isolation, but...in my case, with other factors involved, its actually....I dunno, a way back to at least the very edges of mainstream society, with lots of support. Of course...they say "You can never go home again," and there's something to that, isn't there?
I"m 34 now. I've only been saved 6 years, kind of..."delayed," in terms of growth and social development. Anyway...so, now I'm healthy, now I"m smart, now I have a work-able personality, social skills...and (apparently) "schizophrenia." beats having cancer, most days.
the town is another little old town on a southern highway. people are people, except for Christians....maybe its my perception, as a Christian, but...Christians stand out, in my life. To them, I"m another reject who "got religion," hahaha....to me, they're mockers and scorners, trapped in darkness...maybe one day they'll repent? each passing day makes it less likely, I imagine....
the middle school and high school have new teachers, and they're churning out new winners, losers, mediocre Joes, future criminals...no big thing, its 'the way the world works,' here and in every other little southern town along the highway.
God is Good! I Mean that, more than usual. God saved me in the general area of my hometown...then I had to move back to my hometown...now I"m out...
and I'll never become a member of this community, ever. Ever. Tolerated? sure, ok. I'm blessed I'm not in prison or a hospital, abject poverty, etc. and...
yeah. I just need to deal with life, now, as it is now..."issues" (ugh) and all.
Thanks.
OK. so, I over-analyze. am i mentally ill? is there such a thing? if I am, why? when did it start? blah blah blah. thing is...
have no worry for the morrow, for each day brings troubles enough of its own. something like that, anyway (paraphrase, clearly).
I lead a fairly easy breezy, low stress lifestyle. to be fair to me, its a) about all I can handle and b) had God not spared me and then saved and transformed me, I'd be dead or deformed, no end in sight. :-(
I'm blessed beyond measure, that's for sure. And..."Schizophrenia" is usually a 1 way ticket to poverty and isolation, but...in my case, with other factors involved, its actually....I dunno, a way back to at least the very edges of mainstream society, with lots of support. Of course...they say "You can never go home again," and there's something to that, isn't there?
I"m 34 now. I've only been saved 6 years, kind of..."delayed," in terms of growth and social development. Anyway...so, now I'm healthy, now I"m smart, now I have a work-able personality, social skills...and (apparently) "schizophrenia." beats having cancer, most days.
the town is another little old town on a southern highway. people are people, except for Christians....maybe its my perception, as a Christian, but...Christians stand out, in my life. To them, I"m another reject who "got religion," hahaha....to me, they're mockers and scorners, trapped in darkness...maybe one day they'll repent? each passing day makes it less likely, I imagine....
the middle school and high school have new teachers, and they're churning out new winners, losers, mediocre Joes, future criminals...no big thing, its 'the way the world works,' here and in every other little southern town along the highway.
God is Good! I Mean that, more than usual. God saved me in the general area of my hometown...then I had to move back to my hometown...now I"m out...
and I'll never become a member of this community, ever. Ever. Tolerated? sure, ok. I'm blessed I'm not in prison or a hospital, abject poverty, etc. and...
yeah. I just need to deal with life, now, as it is now..."issues" (ugh) and all.
Thanks.