Christ_empowered
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i get taunted. i was a miserable wretch before Jesus saved (is saving, will save) me, almost 7 years ago. Now...even the naysayers admit "he's not a weakling," and...trust me on this one...that alone is a miracle.
1 Corinthians 10:13 . its the Scripture that popped up in my mind, just now. "temptation" covers a lot of ground. My big things are/were self-pity, psychobabble, blaming others, anger. and now...
? if everything that happens to His followers is Father-filtered, then...
? isn't the taunting, the dog poo outside the door, etc...
part of His work in my life? if i could move...id move. trust me. but here, i have my parents. i never really mattered, much to the community. not a pity party, just...statement of fact. so, really...my big mess ups and sins were (and are) used as ammunition against me, but no one besides my parents really -cared- , which is true of a lot of people in modern cultures, I think...disintegrating social bonds and all that sociological jazz. blah blah blah....
i have my parents, now...thanks to Christ, as who I am in Christ..."schizophrenia" (eek!) and all. of course...
all the good in my life, in me, comes from Him. I'm thinking He must have had His hand on me, even when I was in darkness, because...
I really should not be alive, on a number of levels. true story. im not the only one, of course....He spares people before they come to Him, and I'm thankful. moving on...
the bullying gets rough. i never was well liked, and now...ha! people are always saying 'he's nothing special' and 'he wants people to feel sorry for him,' etc. truth?
the shrinks, in particular, punished me and destroyed me...and shut me up, big time. God has given me a voice, and part of my initial voice-usage involved...
way too much focus on myself, the past, etc. but now, I can move on out and outward, thanks to Christ.
but yeah...is this 'junk' possibly Father-filtered, as in the Scripture I posted above and also James 1:2-4, which -just- popped in my mind.
i guess this is in prayer because...I pray I will be provided what I need to show Christ better, thru this, and live my life in and for Him, anyway. based on what i've read about at various news sites, -if- there's an element of persecution, this is mild persecution. as for testing of my faith....
??? i cannot pretend to know the mind of God. I may get hostility as long as I live in anything -but- poverty, etc., because...this community, and really this world, never had much for me, but condemnation, poverty, and pain. Jesus has changed all that!
1 Corinthians 10:13 . its the Scripture that popped up in my mind, just now. "temptation" covers a lot of ground. My big things are/were self-pity, psychobabble, blaming others, anger. and now...
? if everything that happens to His followers is Father-filtered, then...
? isn't the taunting, the dog poo outside the door, etc...
part of His work in my life? if i could move...id move. trust me. but here, i have my parents. i never really mattered, much to the community. not a pity party, just...statement of fact. so, really...my big mess ups and sins were (and are) used as ammunition against me, but no one besides my parents really -cared- , which is true of a lot of people in modern cultures, I think...disintegrating social bonds and all that sociological jazz. blah blah blah....
i have my parents, now...thanks to Christ, as who I am in Christ..."schizophrenia" (eek!) and all. of course...
all the good in my life, in me, comes from Him. I'm thinking He must have had His hand on me, even when I was in darkness, because...
I really should not be alive, on a number of levels. true story. im not the only one, of course....He spares people before they come to Him, and I'm thankful. moving on...
the bullying gets rough. i never was well liked, and now...ha! people are always saying 'he's nothing special' and 'he wants people to feel sorry for him,' etc. truth?
the shrinks, in particular, punished me and destroyed me...and shut me up, big time. God has given me a voice, and part of my initial voice-usage involved...
way too much focus on myself, the past, etc. but now, I can move on out and outward, thanks to Christ.
but yeah...is this 'junk' possibly Father-filtered, as in the Scripture I posted above and also James 1:2-4, which -just- popped in my mind.
i guess this is in prayer because...I pray I will be provided what I need to show Christ better, thru this, and live my life in and for Him, anyway. based on what i've read about at various news sites, -if- there's an element of persecution, this is mild persecution. as for testing of my faith....
??? i cannot pretend to know the mind of God. I may get hostility as long as I live in anything -but- poverty, etc., because...this community, and really this world, never had much for me, but condemnation, poverty, and pain. Jesus has changed all that!