Christ_empowered
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truth: God is Good (!!!), and He's seen fit to be Good to me. Lies...surround me. It happens when one is stigmatized ("Schizophrenia"), low status, and "doesn't know HIS PLACE in society!" (forgive the obnoxious caps).
I was...a wretched human being, dead in my sins, when Jesus saved (is saving, will save) me 6 years ago. Truth: so is every person, until and unless Jesus enters their heart. "For all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God..."
I have -so- much to be thankful for, I really do. And...God's mercy and love have seen me thru some incredibly dark places, already. Now...its more like...it just gets rough, when people try to pick on me, tell me what to do, etc., because I'm really -not- a member of this (or any) community. "...in the world, but not of it..."
Truth: I'm better off focusing on Jesus, my parents, my own needs and goals. Setting Jesus 1st (a process, in and of itself...more His work than mine, undoubtedly...) is giving "good results," I guess is the best phrase I can come up with. I don't like being picked on, but it happens. It happened when I was a wretched "flamer," it happens now as a surprisingly normal "Schizophrenic." If anything...
now, I sometimes get picked on because I said, a long time ago, that Jesus had healed me. Truth? I shouldn't really have been alive then, either. Now...I"m healthy, I"m smart, I'm remarkably, miraculously...normal, almost to the point of being boring (good!), and...
"God's work in this world is -always- met with opposition." Pushushback. Enter the pushback phase, LOL.
I know a lot of you pray for my parents and me, anyway (and thank you...I sense God moving in their hearts and lives, too), so...this is part genuine prayer request, because it gets a bit rough sometimes...
and part yet another vent and/or reflect post, LOL. God is incredibly kind and merciful. I just...get tired of being picked on, tired of stigma, and there is no real escape, this side of heaven. Am I 'really Schizophrenic' ? I don't know, honestly. Is there even such a thing as "Schizophrenia," as a valid entity, one that responds to treatments and such? Again; I don't really know, honestly. I do know...
I was sick, at all levels, and the combo of my own sins and the world, especially the part of the world known as "mental health treatment," were a big part of what brought on the utter destruction of me, who I was, before i was even 21 years old. Now...
that me...patched up as I was at the time I got saved...is no longer with us, Praise God. As who I really am, now, and who I am becoming, in Christ...
I'm remarkably healthy, smart, normal, and "of sound mind." And yet..."Schizophrenia." That's my label, that's my role, that's...what the world says about me. could be bad, this isn't bad...as "trouble makers" go (another label), I Have an easy go of things. As "uppity mental patients" and/or "people who don't know their place" go, I have an -especially- easy go of things. That's thanks 1st off to Christ, 2ndly (and this a big thanks, btw) to my loving, kind, long suffering parents. They may never get their son back in the sense of getting back who I was before my own sins, satan, self, death, and the world did that dude in, but...
they do have -a son- who loves them and loves Christ and is no longer a wretch ("...washed and made clean...").
OK. so, yeah. Yeah. As always...thanks for the prayers, replies, support, etc.
I was...a wretched human being, dead in my sins, when Jesus saved (is saving, will save) me 6 years ago. Truth: so is every person, until and unless Jesus enters their heart. "For all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God..."
I have -so- much to be thankful for, I really do. And...God's mercy and love have seen me thru some incredibly dark places, already. Now...its more like...it just gets rough, when people try to pick on me, tell me what to do, etc., because I'm really -not- a member of this (or any) community. "...in the world, but not of it..."
Truth: I'm better off focusing on Jesus, my parents, my own needs and goals. Setting Jesus 1st (a process, in and of itself...more His work than mine, undoubtedly...) is giving "good results," I guess is the best phrase I can come up with. I don't like being picked on, but it happens. It happened when I was a wretched "flamer," it happens now as a surprisingly normal "Schizophrenic." If anything...
now, I sometimes get picked on because I said, a long time ago, that Jesus had healed me. Truth? I shouldn't really have been alive then, either. Now...I"m healthy, I"m smart, I'm remarkably, miraculously...normal, almost to the point of being boring (good!), and...
"God's work in this world is -always- met with opposition." Pushushback. Enter the pushback phase, LOL.
I know a lot of you pray for my parents and me, anyway (and thank you...I sense God moving in their hearts and lives, too), so...this is part genuine prayer request, because it gets a bit rough sometimes...
and part yet another vent and/or reflect post, LOL. God is incredibly kind and merciful. I just...get tired of being picked on, tired of stigma, and there is no real escape, this side of heaven. Am I 'really Schizophrenic' ? I don't know, honestly. Is there even such a thing as "Schizophrenia," as a valid entity, one that responds to treatments and such? Again; I don't really know, honestly. I do know...
I was sick, at all levels, and the combo of my own sins and the world, especially the part of the world known as "mental health treatment," were a big part of what brought on the utter destruction of me, who I was, before i was even 21 years old. Now...
that me...patched up as I was at the time I got saved...is no longer with us, Praise God. As who I really am, now, and who I am becoming, in Christ...
I'm remarkably healthy, smart, normal, and "of sound mind." And yet..."Schizophrenia." That's my label, that's my role, that's...what the world says about me. could be bad, this isn't bad...as "trouble makers" go (another label), I Have an easy go of things. As "uppity mental patients" and/or "people who don't know their place" go, I have an -especially- easy go of things. That's thanks 1st off to Christ, 2ndly (and this a big thanks, btw) to my loving, kind, long suffering parents. They may never get their son back in the sense of getting back who I was before my own sins, satan, self, death, and the world did that dude in, but...
they do have -a son- who loves them and loves Christ and is no longer a wretch ("...washed and made clean...").
OK. so, yeah. Yeah. As always...thanks for the prayers, replies, support, etc.