[__ Praise __] learning to be grateful

[Christ_empowered]

got saved 8 years ago.

God has seen fit to make my life...live-able. long, long story that I tend to rehash, all the time. moving on...

semi-neighbor (in the same building, not next to me) glared at me. heckled, yesterday. upstairs stompers...keep on stomping. it happens. and yet...

? so, what, really? "life isn't fair sometimes" maddeningly cliche, but...true, sadly.

parents are good to me. they're doing well, also...thank you all for your prayers for the whole 'family unit' (dorky humor).

i don't have aids/late stage HIV+. i have nearly 0 resources of my own, don't live in real poverty. im waiting for the dryer to finish and the last stage of the dishwasher to come to an end, then i'll jet on over to the parents' place, for yet another quality meal and good convo with people who love me and care for and about me. and...

odds are good I'll be heckled, taunted, etc. on the way to my vehicle, on the way in and out of my parents' house. ok. on a scale of 1 to Matters, that's maybe .5 , I think.

big, big miracle of my life: Jesus moved on my heart, and I got genuinely saved. leaving aside all the specifics of my situation, everyone needs that, right? Right. so, 8 years in...

what is 'spiritual warfare,' what is 'just the way the world works,' and...as a Christian, is there really a difference? I am 36. unemployed, labeled as 'severely mentally ill,' etc. etc. etc. so...what? most people -have- to work. work or die. or...prison, I guess. am I "Schizophrenic" ? is there any such thing? is this the 70s? LOL. 'play the hand you're dealt'

'...spirit of -power- spirit of -love- spirit of a --sound mind-- ...' clearly, God is Love. '..in the world, but not of it...,' amen.

blah. socially, im a non-entity on a good day. maybe its better that way? at any rate...praying for His perfect will, praying for mercy and forgiveness, praising Him for His work in my life, as it continues...

Lord Jesus, have mercy on me, a sinner...yet again.

 

[daninthelionsden]

If it were me, I'd wear ear buds and listen to music/whatever as I walked outside. If you can't hear them then one less stress. Praying for you .

 

[Truthfrees]

praying for your safety and increasingly better things for you

Psalms 23:1-6 - Isaiah 54:17 - Psalms 5:12

 

[Tessa]

You are much more than any label. You are a child of God. Praying for you.

 

[Christ_empowered]

me, yet again. more on this whole 'gratitude' thing...

a semi-neighbor (in the building, not right next to me) waved and said 'hey.' small deal, right? not...really. not for me, anyway. without going too emo on it, its kind of...a big deal. i smiled and said hey, how are you?

parents are kind to me. got an oil change today, no snark or anything from the oil change dudes (it was one of those stay in your vehicle ones). did some discount grocery shopping....no, im not well liked 'round here. some of the under the breath junk i overheard pretty much reinforces that, lol. on the other hand, i did it OK, in and out. kinda over did it, cuz i was hungry (typical, right? i think everyone does that...). and...and...

i dunno. life goes on, life -is- going on...my new life, in Christ. my old life, thankfully, ended a tad over 8 years ago, when I was moved to come to genuine saving faith in and knowledge of Jesus Christ...

and that's the thing, isn't it? for all my left wing inclinations, I'm the -1st- person to tell you that Christ, and Christ alone, can truly save and transform -anyone- , including me.

an unbeliever, long term friend/friendly acquaintance called, and...yeah. she's brilliant and all, and its crazy...we connect more, now, on intellectual things/capacity (I started with 120 IQ...after a long time with obvious brain damage and 95 IQ, I now apparently have a 145-150 IQ, no obvious brain damage), but...

-sigh- not to sound holier than thou or anything, but we're -miles- apart on how we approach life, itself. true story.

grateful...gratitude...yes, please. i have a whole lot to be grateful for, not just -stuff- , but...health, freedom, safety, my parents, not being in bondage to the harsh end of the mental health industry....

on and on and on. and all of these good things come from Christ Jesus.

 

[Christ_empowered]

i have a serious misdemeanor on my record, apparently. i say 'apparently' because....??? i was finally able to do an online check thru the state agency that does the background checks, and...

well, i actually -got- their record for me, which is a big step forward. before, it said my record wasn't in the computer, which...OK, ridiculous.

downside? it was updated -before- i finished probation, before more legal stuff to get things taken off, and...blah blah blah. its not just me; apparently, everyone is complaining about how inaccurate the state agency records checks are, it seems. blah. on the plus side...

---still not a felony--- which leads me to my next point...

'he has a FELONY" "he can't live here with a FELONY" "he thinks he has some big shot lawyer" and...blah blah blah. self, meet world. lol.

what's the difference between a serious misdemeanor and a felony? in my case...it means being dinged, obviously, but not really losing any rights, etc. if i could actually -work- , it'd be a different story...then it'd be rough, all over. scratch that. if it wasn't for The Lord and His work in blessing my parents and me, the misdemeanor would be another knock down, down, down...

but whatever. my concern is my safety. hiv-stigma + mental junk stigma+ rumors of a felony = oh man. i hope I never get beat up again, amen.

 

[Truthfrees]

i have a serious misdemeanor on my record, apparently. i say 'apparently' because....??? i was finally able to do an online check thru the state agency that does the background checks, and...

well, i actually -got- their record for me, which is a big step forward. before, it said my record wasn't in the computer, which...OK, ridiculous.

downside? it was updated -before- i finished probation, before more legal stuff to get things taken off, and...blah blah blah. its not just me; apparently, everyone is complaining about how inaccurate the state agency records checks are, it seems. blah. on the plus side...

---still not a felony--- which leads me to my next point...

'he has a FELONY" "he can't live here with a FELONY" "he thinks he has some big shot lawyer" and...blah blah blah. self, meet world. lol.

what's the difference between a serious misdemeanor and a felony? in my case...it means being dinged, obviously, but not really losing any rights, etc. if i could actually -work- , it'd be a different story...then it'd be rough, all over. scratch that. if it wasn't for The Lord and His work in blessing my parents and me, the misdemeanor would be another knock down, down, down...

but whatever. my concern is my safety. hiv-stigma + mental junk stigma+ rumors of a felony = oh man. i hope I never get beat up again, amen.

praying all of this is corrected and you go free from all backlash on any issue

Isaiah 54:17 vindication from God
Psalm 75:6-7 promotion from the Lord

 

[Christ_empowered]

thank you all. trying to focus on Him, His Goodness, etc....

less on the (relatively minor, all things considered) junk that comes my way. one set of neighbors were yelling out about me, yesterday...getting out of their suv (parked next to my vehicle...ugh...), and I was out, locking my door on my way to get about the day...

before that, the husband (male+female couple) was talking about me, loudly, psych jibber jabber, to the -1- neighbor who ever says anything to me. ugh. :-(

The Lord provides what I need to bear up under it, as He does for all His children. I"m not even all that tormented, compared to what came before in my own life and what happens to many other Christians, all over...

-sigh- I think its just the very creepy nature of some of this nonsense that gets to me, even now. that's the point, isn't it? ugh. -shrug-

on the plus side...mama and dad got shot 1 of the 2 jab vaccine today! their treatment provider had some extra in the vials. I praise God for His mercy and love, amen.