Christ_empowered
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ok, this relates to the 'rumor mill' post, but...here goes, anyway...
every now and then, people say (loudly enough for me to hear, but at a distance) "he's going to prison" and...yeah. for whatever reason, that's started, again. i don't...get it, honestly. i mean, as best i can tell...
there's lots of lies floating around about me, around here. it happens to people who live in an area, but are not 'members of the community.' so, there's that. and there's also this very -vocal- group of people who have a problem with me and also my family...as evidenced by the attempts (failed, thank goodness) to have my parents' fired from their jobs. that's happened, here and there, for a long time, but...
things intensified when 'mental health professionals' got involved, my parents became more 'upwardly mobile,' and...yeah. yeah.
just so we're clear...im a law abiding, clean living individual, now...that's thanks to Christ. no drugs, no booze, no chaotic, sinful living. its also clear that my parents have their own set of enemies...and i have mine, now, too. now that we've reconciled, things are going well for them and for me, too...
and I'm wondering if maybe that's why the 'he's going to prison!' talk has made a come back?
i -am- thankful for the prayers+support here, at CFnet. and I think I'm handling this better than I Have in years past, largely because of His work in my heart+life. Its just...well, one of the realities of life w/ 'severe mental illness' is that one becomes something of a non-entity. I cannot complain, personally; God has graced me, blessed me, I don't suffer the things many w/ 'severe mental illness' suffer thru, daily....
which, btw, seems to 'rub people the wrong way' LOL. so, there's also that. ok. basically...
I'm somewhat uneasy, but not having panic attacks or anything. just...knowing how -very little- i matter to people in the community, and really to society, in general...
is unnerving. humbling, yes..and unnerving. thanks for the prayers.
every now and then, people say (loudly enough for me to hear, but at a distance) "he's going to prison" and...yeah. for whatever reason, that's started, again. i don't...get it, honestly. i mean, as best i can tell...
there's lots of lies floating around about me, around here. it happens to people who live in an area, but are not 'members of the community.' so, there's that. and there's also this very -vocal- group of people who have a problem with me and also my family...as evidenced by the attempts (failed, thank goodness) to have my parents' fired from their jobs. that's happened, here and there, for a long time, but...
things intensified when 'mental health professionals' got involved, my parents became more 'upwardly mobile,' and...yeah. yeah.
just so we're clear...im a law abiding, clean living individual, now...that's thanks to Christ. no drugs, no booze, no chaotic, sinful living. its also clear that my parents have their own set of enemies...and i have mine, now, too. now that we've reconciled, things are going well for them and for me, too...
and I'm wondering if maybe that's why the 'he's going to prison!' talk has made a come back?
i -am- thankful for the prayers+support here, at CFnet. and I think I'm handling this better than I Have in years past, largely because of His work in my heart+life. Its just...well, one of the realities of life w/ 'severe mental illness' is that one becomes something of a non-entity. I cannot complain, personally; God has graced me, blessed me, I don't suffer the things many w/ 'severe mental illness' suffer thru, daily....
which, btw, seems to 'rub people the wrong way' LOL. so, there's also that. ok. basically...
I'm somewhat uneasy, but not having panic attacks or anything. just...knowing how -very little- i matter to people in the community, and really to society, in general...
is unnerving. humbling, yes..and unnerving. thanks for the prayers.
