[__ Prayer __] Persecution?

[Christ_empowered]

I had a dark past, before Jesus. I'm now healthy, law abiding and surprisingly intelligent. God is good.

Yesterday , some lady yelled out about me getting beat up. This is a decent neighborhood. I am a permanent outcast. I...dunno, lol.

Darned if you do, darned if you don't. Sin satan, self and the world can combine to make that happen. I was not sinless, just...sickly, young and naive. And...labelled. now?

Washed and made clean. 36, healthy, loved by God and my parents. And..

Ugh. Is my permanent status society's reject? I think it might be. If it is persecution, it is more about Gods work in my life than about my faith, per se.

I often ask for prayers. Sorry. Taunts, bullying and intimidation are in the mix. Not fun. Lol.

Thanks.

 

[Truthfrees]

I had a dark past, before Jesus. I'm now healthy, law abiding and surprisingly intelligent. God is good.

Yesterday , some lady yelled out about me getting beat up. This is a decent neighborhood. I am a permanent outcast. I...dunno, lol.

Darned if you do, darned if you don't. Sin satan, self and the world can combine to make that happen. I was not sinless, just...sickly, young and naive. And...labelled. now?

Washed and made clean. 36, healthy, loved by God and my parents. And..

Ugh. Is my permanent status society's reject? I think it might be. If it is persecution, it is more about Gods work in my life than about my faith, per se.

I often ask for prayers. Sorry. Taunts, bullying and intimidation are in the mix. Not fun. Lol.

Thanks.

supporting you in prayer

 

[Tessa]

Don't stop asking CE. It's good to know people are praying for you.
Will be praying .

 

[Christ_empowered]

Thanks . Both of you. God has willed so much good in my life. I am thankful. Its...not sitting well with the locals, it seems. Ugh.

 

[Susannah]

I had a dark past, before Jesus. I'm now healthy, law abiding and surprisingly intelligent. God is good.

Yesterday , some lady yelled out about me getting beat up. This is a decent neighborhood. I am a permanent outcast. I...dunno, lol.

Ugh. Is my permanent status society's reject? I think it might be. If it is persecution, it is more about Gods work in my life than about my faith, per se. I often ask for prayers. Sorry. Taunts, bullying and intimidation are in the mix. Not fun. Lol.
Thanks.

I have added you to my permanent prayer list. Bullies are unhappy people who can ruin your life if you let them. I was bullied as a child and at first I cried. Then I got angry and went after the bullies. Then I became a bully myself. So as an adult, I had to ask God to help me stop being so rude to people and forgive the ones that started this whole mess. If you can rise above this you are a saint. People say "don't take it personally." But that is ridiculous. Of course it is personal. It is a personal attack on your self-esteem. Most bullies are young and do not yet know Christ. When they grow up they sometimes change. Just yesterday one of my old bullies, who is now my friend of 60 years, called in tears to apologize for bullying me in the fifth grade. Now that is a God thing. You are not who you think you are. You are not what others thing you are. You are a child of God and he loves you with all his heart. Nothing else matters . . . P.S. Adult bullies are Satan's diciples.

The Armor of God​

Finally, be strong in the Lord and in His mighty power. Put on the full armor of God, so that you can make your stand against the devil’s schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this world’s darkness, and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms . . . [and the bullies].

 

[Christ_empowered]

Thanks ?

 

[Christ_empowered]

What to do when the mental health inc people are bullying me? Ugh.

 

[Christ_empowered]

Ugh. Me. Again.

The bullying continues, sometimes better...often rough. I am obviously blessed, beyond measure. I am increasingly thankful.

I dunno. A bit over 7 years into my walk with The Lord, I have been made...real. ever read the great divorce? Not that I am perfect or anything, just...real.

I would often post here about a high iq, blah blah blah. I have a number, now. 150. At 17, the pros estimated a 120. I dipped to 95, back when I was sick and....yeah. i am thankful, of course....not because of some good numbers, but because I need not be ashamed, now. Nothing is wasted in The Lord.

People have apparently tried to have me committed. No dice. Arrested...no dice. No felonies, that helps. God is merciful...that's the big factor.

People will yell out that lunatics are running the asylum. That's when I realize, more and more...

Jesus has worked miracles for me, and I am an exception that proves the rule, about the way the world works. Blah.

Thanks for your support and prayers.

 

[Susannah]

My son also has a high IQ. It's about 170. When they tested him in high school he went off the scale. I asked the counselor what that meant. I said what can he do with that? He laughed and said anything he wants. So you are blessed to be intelligent. God gave you this for a reason so put it to good use. Instead of glorifying yourself always glorify him. He is a source of your intelligence. But I also understand that it can be a burden because other people don't understand you or they envy you or they're jealous of you. And then they bully you. I was bullied as a child because I was the most intelligent one in the class. But hold your head up high. You are a child of God. I think it'll help to find other people with a high IQ. You might try to join Mensa or some organization for intelligent people. There's a lot of intelligent people on this board. Meanwhile share with us some of your intelligence. I look forward to hearing from you. O

 

[Tessa]

Love when you said 'Nothing is wasted in The Lord."
Sendimg prayers.

 

[Susannah]

Love when you said 'Nothing is wasted in The Lord."

Sendimg prayers.

Me too! ❤

 

[Christ_empowered]

Yeah, my point is that I have been made intelligent...

After a wretched existence, in which my sins and the world combined to destroy what I had to start with, the 120.

 

[Christ_empowered]

Oh, and...its not that I am amazing, its that the world is wicked and God is good. ?

 

[Christ_empowered]

Ugh. Me, yet again. Almost got hit on the road today...looks like I was in the middle of a police chase. God showed mercy. He is good.

Old enemies from back in my 95 iq burn out days are apparently not happy about The Lords work in my life. I only know this because some bullies mention them by name. Awesome.

Part venting...part another prayer request. Even with my now, fairly recently somewhat affluent parents solidly behind me...

I am a vulnerable person, with the labels and stigma and no friends here. Eek.

Thanks.

 

[Tessa]

CE your strength is in the Lotd. Praying.

 

[Christ_empowered]

me, yet again. I see it, now...I've been spared, saved, washed and made clean...now my parents and I are being blessed, and...wow. just...wow.

my parents are --not-- rich, but they're...i dunno, upper middle class, well to do, somewhere in there. they're honestly surprised by the promotions, etc., too...things looked --very-- dark there, for years. i see that, now. i didn't, before.

i'm...healthy. smart enough. in a good relationship with my parents (its...an ongoing thing, forgiveness...), and...that doesn't sit well with a lot of people. i see that, now. i didn't before.

i am kind of...fearful, at times. i try to remember: 'perfect love casteth out all fear,' and...Truth helps, just as surely as it helps anyone. OK. its more like...

i tested + for hiv+ over 15 years ago, now. no treatment offered, none received. i was apparently dying of cancer (no, really...'suspend your disbelief,' my life was rough...) 12 years ago, and...

know what can trigger a + on an hiv test? lots of things...cancer and the physical probs that go with it being a big one. anyway...

so, no treatment except for psych pills, im healthy, my parents are good to me, and...

what is going on, around me? I think that's part of what drives my fear...when people i don't know pick on me, in stores and at the complex....am i notorious/infamous, at the ripe old age of 36, because of my sins? the shrinks? whaaaa? I just don't...understand. i do know that there plots to ruin my parents' careers, send me to prison, etc. sounds...dramatic. thing is...psychiatry can be -wicked -. i mean, i take my tranquilizer, whatever, but...whoa. they really do victimize some people, some times...don't really know why, honestly.

ok. just...me, typing it out. please keep my parents and me up in prayer. thanks

 

[Tessa]

Prayers for you and family. CE

 

[Marianne333]

Sending you prayers and good vibes