Thank you so much for your prayers. While it seems like the situation seems to be going from bad to worse, especially with recent bad news about financial issues (losing my EI and I still have not yet to find a job)... my hope in God seems to be getting stronger.
I've never been much of a spiritual person and usually accepted whatever God gave me, however I'm starting to realize that He still cares for me.
God knows I suffer from severe depression, have a ton of bills and have 6 people in the household to feed (not all can work due to age and disability)... I keep telling myself that he is not going to leave me to deal with all that alone. Also, I've given up former things in life to follow Him... I think He still knows the desires of my heart (perhaps one day I will be able to fall in love with a godly man get married and have children of my own).