Well, well, well my little duckling ;)
- Dec 29, 2017
I think I learned just about one of the most important lessons that I could ever learn. First of all, I wasn't even on planning to go to church today. I started feeling really guilty about all of the negative things in my life. How my temper and attitude can just explode like an atom bomb at times, when I start losing my faith and doubting God and His love for me, how I can turn into quite a drama queen sometimes, and overall the sins I have committed in my day to day life. I started thinking how is it even possible for God to love and accept somebody like me? Why on earth would He want me in a place that is supposed to be His house? So forgetting the fact that we are all sinners and the whole entire reason that we go to church in the first place is that we are remorseful for our sins and we want to confess them before the Lord, and the whole entire reason that Jesus died is because He wants a better relationship with us, I started panicking. So, after the service I spoke to my pastor about this and I told him how I felt. He reassured me that all my feelings were normal but I had to remember what the message today was all about and it was basically this; we all have things in our life that we feel remorseful about because we all are sinners. However, when that keeps us from having a relationship with God, that becomes a problem. So he is going to talk to me about how I can better my relationship with Him, and let all those feelings and the pain from my past go.