- Mar 13, 2023
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There have been a lot of times in my walk of faith that I wonder, if I was somehow convinced beyond a shadow of a doubt that Christianity was a hoax, and there is no God (while doing so is in all ways considered impossible, due to my personal experience/relationship with God and impenetrable reality and truth of Christianity which can't be fallible). But I wonder that if that impossibility hypothetically became true, by some grandiose means, would I feel sad? Happy? Free? Chained? A burden lifted? A joy taken? Would I still keep the moral principles or will I go on a flesh-indulging spree?
The times I have gotten close to becoming an atheist were not because of logical/evidence based reasoning. Like the facts were too stacked against God. As even in my sinful and unrenewed mind, I was too intellectually prideful to logically accept atheism or anything outside of Christianity. The thing that drew me away was the perceived "freedom" to do whatever I wanted to do without the fear of hell (which admittedly, was the last line of defense in times where I 'considered my options' faith-wise). I could finally chase all my desires, sinful and non-sinful, without worrying about filtering it through the unchanging will of a Divine force that I was powerless against.
Vs my mom for example, she's in the place with her faith that if that impossibility were to happen, she would still faithfully follow Christianity, because a follower of Christ is the person she wants to be regardless.
While to Gods glory, I'm here to stay with Jesus in spite of my struggles, doubts, etc. Every now and then I do daydream, (and I daydream about a LOT of different hypotheticals in life, from video games, to existential crisis, to my own anime show lol).
So my question is, and all are welcomed to answer but I'm a little more curious to see what the seasoned saints have to say about this, if the impossible was done and you were hypothetically convinced beyond a shadow of a doubt that Jesus didn't exist and Christianity is a hoax and atheists are right, what would your response and lifestyle be after that?
The times I have gotten close to becoming an atheist were not because of logical/evidence based reasoning. Like the facts were too stacked against God. As even in my sinful and unrenewed mind, I was too intellectually prideful to logically accept atheism or anything outside of Christianity. The thing that drew me away was the perceived "freedom" to do whatever I wanted to do without the fear of hell (which admittedly, was the last line of defense in times where I 'considered my options' faith-wise). I could finally chase all my desires, sinful and non-sinful, without worrying about filtering it through the unchanging will of a Divine force that I was powerless against.
Vs my mom for example, she's in the place with her faith that if that impossibility were to happen, she would still faithfully follow Christianity, because a follower of Christ is the person she wants to be regardless.
While to Gods glory, I'm here to stay with Jesus in spite of my struggles, doubts, etc. Every now and then I do daydream, (and I daydream about a LOT of different hypotheticals in life, from video games, to existential crisis, to my own anime show lol).
So my question is, and all are welcomed to answer but I'm a little more curious to see what the seasoned saints have to say about this, if the impossible was done and you were hypothetically convinced beyond a shadow of a doubt that Jesus didn't exist and Christianity is a hoax and atheists are right, what would your response and lifestyle be after that?