hi there how is everyone?
I've posted on here before but just thought I'd come back and say I have read Lee Strobel's book The Case For Christ and I can now say I believe the New Testament. I am ready to be saved but due to demonic attacks which are apart of my childhood history involving satanic parents, the demons keep reminding me of judgement and I keep calling God and the Holy Spirit cuss words. I keep believing God is angry at me though I feel his presence and its one of unconditional love. I cried a bit when I read in that book about how Jesus endured the beatings before the cross and the cross itself and it was pretty gruesome. I haven't yet repented but I believe in my heart that Jesus is God and the resurrection and cross but I still need to take just a little leap of faith to believe he died for me. I believe but I need help with my unbelief. I am concerned its the end times and I just wondered what advice what you give me? First of all I'm anxious and worried for most of the day which means I don't have trust in God to have faith in my prayers because I believe his judgement may fall upon me at any moment. I'm ready to give my heart to Jesus but I yet don't feel repentant and I keep thinking about sin and getting angry which I'm sure is demonic because I feel like God is just in some ways but not in others. I've been battling with night paralyzation and demonic attacks for months now but thankfully by the grace of God I haven't experienced it in a while. I am thankful for Jesus holding onto me and the Holy Spirit opening my eyes in that book. But I can't strive towards salvation which makes me wonder. Do I still read my Bible and what do I do from here and further study? Can you give advice to someone who's panicking about the end times?
I've posted on here before but just thought I'd come back and say I have read Lee Strobel's book The Case For Christ and I can now say I believe the New Testament. I am ready to be saved but due to demonic attacks which are apart of my childhood history involving satanic parents, the demons keep reminding me of judgement and I keep calling God and the Holy Spirit cuss words. I keep believing God is angry at me though I feel his presence and its one of unconditional love. I cried a bit when I read in that book about how Jesus endured the beatings before the cross and the cross itself and it was pretty gruesome. I haven't yet repented but I believe in my heart that Jesus is God and the resurrection and cross but I still need to take just a little leap of faith to believe he died for me. I believe but I need help with my unbelief. I am concerned its the end times and I just wondered what advice what you give me? First of all I'm anxious and worried for most of the day which means I don't have trust in God to have faith in my prayers because I believe his judgement may fall upon me at any moment. I'm ready to give my heart to Jesus but I yet don't feel repentant and I keep thinking about sin and getting angry which I'm sure is demonic because I feel like God is just in some ways but not in others. I've been battling with night paralyzation and demonic attacks for months now but thankfully by the grace of God I haven't experienced it in a while. I am thankful for Jesus holding onto me and the Holy Spirit opening my eyes in that book. But I can't strive towards salvation which makes me wonder. Do I still read my Bible and what do I do from here and further study? Can you give advice to someone who's panicking about the end times?