I feel like something messed up my mind. Please help me and pray for me. What exactly is this that's happening to me?

[paul75738]

Shortly after the 2016 election, I remember that some strange change immediately happened in my life. I was struggling with some type of addiction and issues with changing. I felt immediately that my ability to change and stop that thing and to change for the best completely left me. At the time, I didn't think much of it because it didn't impact my whole life at the time. It felt like some power immediately left from me but I don't know exactly what happened. I was unable to completely stop this issue that I had been struggling with for some time now. Fast forward to the election in 2024, shortly after the election, I suddenly felt something weird happen in my mind.






All throughout my life, I was a person who was curious about everything and anything. I had high ambitions and I had a rich imagination, vibrant and strong inner world, strong curiosity, deeper sense of self-reflection/self-introspection, constantly obsessed and thinking about deeper things than material things such as spirituality, religion, heaven, hell, consciousness, philosophy, psychology, purpose, etc. I was interested in learning new things as well and fascinated by new skills. However, a couple of days after the 2024 presidential election, I felt like some strange change happened to me all of a sudden. Something very weird and strange happened suddenly. I really feel different, in the worst way possible. PLEASE READ THIS VERY, VERY, VERY CAREFULLY! I literally don't care about the president's polices and politics at all. I am not attached to it whatsoever at all. It literally has nothing to do with politics and the agenda of the president. I don't even hate or like the president. I am neutral and don't care about his policies at all. This is not related to politics at all. PLEASE UNDERSTAND THIS!










I was listening to an audiobook and suddenly, I felt some tingling and some change going on in my mind. I felt some tingling in the left side of my mind and something slowly started to disappear from my head immediately. When this happened, I felt like my intellectual side, my creative abilities, my imagination, my inner self, being and everything that makes up with me as a person slowly disappeared or vanished overnight somehow. I feel like there's some kind of random change or something deeper than this that affected me. The vibe around my world felt different. I am not the same person anymore and it's like everything that I described about myself as a human being slowly disappeared immediately. I feel like my discernment and logical/intellectual guard to discern when people have dark and malicious intentions against me has been diminished or severely weakened. I feel like something inside of me has been weakened or died down or disappeared somehow. It's like my actual inner being/soul/spirit or whatever it is that is the real me has been beaten down and limited and restricted to a certain level. This is hard to explain and describe as well.











This is extremely painful with what I am dealing with because I don't feel like I have the capacity to change my life like I always wanted to. The biggest issue that is affecting me so badly now is my personality, identity and way of reasoning has been slowly erasing day by day and I am literally starting to see that I don't reason or think or behave the same way that I always used to. This is all for the worst. I can't imagine, brainstorm, think, be creative, etc at all. I am completely confused and stuck all the time. I have something wrong with me and I am looking for some type of explanation. I used to be into improving myself overall but then it all vanished completely. I will not accept that this is mental illness because this just happened immediately out of nowhere just like that and it's not good. It's no way that this is mental health related. What kind of experience can this be? Can someone please help me?

 

[Blain DeCastro]

Shortly after the 2016 election, I remember that some strange change immediately happened in my life. I was struggling with some type of addiction and issues with changing. I felt immediately that my ability to change and stop that thing and to change for the best completely left me. At the time, I didn't think much of it because it didn't impact my whole life at the time. It felt like some power immediately left from me but I don't know exactly what happened. I was unable to completely stop this issue that I had been struggling with for some time now. Fast forward to the election in 2024, shortly after the election, I suddenly felt something weird happen in my mind.






All throughout my life, I was a person who was curious about everything and anything. I had high ambitions and I had a rich imagination, vibrant and strong inner world, strong curiosity, deeper sense of self-reflection/self-introspection, constantly obsessed and thinking about deeper things than material things such as spirituality, religion, heaven, hell, consciousness, philosophy, psychology, purpose, etc. I was interested in learning new things as well and fascinated by new skills. However, a couple of days after the 2024 presidential election, I felt like some strange change happened to me all of a sudden. Something very weird and strange happened suddenly. I really feel different, in the worst way possible. PLEASE READ THIS VERY, VERY, VERY CAREFULLY! I literally don't care about the president's polices and politics at all. I am not attached to it whatsoever at all. It literally has nothing to do with politics and the agenda of the president. I don't even hate or like the president. I am neutral and don't care about his policies at all. This is not related to politics at all. PLEASE UNDERSTAND THIS!










I was listening to an audiobook and suddenly, I felt some tingling and some change going on in my mind. I felt some tingling in the left side of my mind and something slowly started to disappear from my head immediately. When this happened, I felt like my intellectual side, my creative abilities, my imagination, my inner self, being and everything that makes up with me as a person slowly disappeared or vanished overnight somehow. I feel like there's some kind of random change or something deeper than this that affected me. The vibe around my world felt different. I am not the same person anymore and it's like everything that I described about myself as a human being slowly disappeared immediately. I feel like my discernment and logical/intellectual guard to discern when people have dark and malicious intentions against me has been diminished or severely weakened. I feel like something inside of me has been weakened or died down or disappeared somehow. It's like my actual inner being/soul/spirit or whatever it is that is the real me has been beaten down and limited and restricted to a certain level. This is hard to explain and describe as well.











This is extremely painful with what I am dealing with because I don't feel like I have the capacity to change my life like I always wanted to. The biggest issue that is affecting me so badly now is my personality, identity and way of reasoning has been slowly erasing day by day and I am literally starting to see that I don't reason or think or behave the same way that I always used to. This is all for the worst. I can't imagine, brainstorm, think, be creative, etc at all. I am completely confused and stuck all the time. I have something wrong with me and I am looking for some type of explanation. I used to be into improving myself overall but then it all vanished completely. I will not accept that this is mental illness because this just happened immediately out of nowhere just like that and it's not good. It's no way that this is mental health related. What kind of experience can this be? Can someone please help me?

Have you considered that this is spiritual warfare? or perhaps God is actually making the old you die out so he can create a new you, I have never heard of this happening to someone but really it could be God doing something in you making you rely less on your intellect

Or perhaps it really is spiritual warfare if this is the case then prayer is the best weapon in fact prayer in general would help you in this situation

 

[hawkman]

However, a couple of days after the 2024 presidential election, I felt like some strange change happened to me all of a sudden. Something very weird and strange happened suddenly. I really feel different, in the worst way possible.

When exactly was the "sudden " event , hour and day please ? What were you doing when the sudden change happened ?

 

[for_his_glory]

Hi paul75738 and welcome to CF

I'm not sure if you have ever been Spiritually born again accepting Jesus as your Lord and Savior, John 3:5-7; Romans 10:9-10, as you mention nothing about this. I hear a lot of "self" in what you have said, and I could be wrong, but it sounds like God is trying to get your attention. I ask that you seek God for all of this that you are dealing with as He will make whatever changes that need to be made for your life so you can walk in joy, peace and happiness. We are here for you as you can ask us anything.

 

[JLB]

because I don't feel like I have the capacity to change my life like I always wanted to.

What in your life did you always want to change before this happened?

 

[paul75738]

Have you considered that this is spiritual warfare? or perhaps God is actually making the old you die out so he can create a new you, I have never heard of this happening to someone but really it could be God doing something in you making you rely less on your intellect

Or perhaps it really is spiritual warfare if this is the case then prayer is the best weapon in fact prayer in general would help you in this situation

This is definitely spiritual warfare. I don't feel normal at all. This is messing me up. I literally can't think ahead, function well, reason well,etc. It feels like something is literally controlling my mind and personality. I can't even explain it in words very well.

 

[paul75738]

What in your life did you always want to change before this happened?

I just wanted to improve all areas of my life and build some discipline.

 

[paul75738]

When exactly was the "sudden " event , hour and day please ? What were you doing when the sudden change happened ?

One day, I was thinking some horrible thoughts about who I was as a person due to the horrible past of me making mistakes and failing a lot in life. I felt so overwhelmed, I then felt some type of mental breakdown inside of my spirit/mind that I suddenly started to feel like I was crying inside but not physically at all. I tried to brush this off by opening up an audiobook on my phone and listening to it. Suddenly, I felt some radical change for the worst. I felt some weird tingling sensation on the left side of my forehead (approximately above the left eye) and I felt like something there was taken or messed with. I felt exactly as if my intellectual side and personality or something immediately shifted for the worst. I lost everything. Over the days, I suddenly felt a new radical person shift in me for the worst. I felt like my personality and sense of self slowly disappeared. The way how I viewed the world and reasoned about things slowly started to decay and I felt like I was being more vulnerable and weaker. I have issues with using my full brain's capabilities. I can't think well, problem solve well, self-reflect well, etc. I feel like a dummy drone or something. My sex drive and libido is completely gone and I feel less mentally competent. My reasoning and logical guard is off as well as my discernment when people try to do me wrong. I also feel a lost of sense of purpose/security and my calling in life seemed to have vanished. I feel like a broken shell of my former self. I am definitely not the same person anymore.

 

[Blain DeCastro]

This is definitely spiritual warfare. I don't feel normal at all. This is messing me up. I literally can't think ahead, function well, reason well,etc. It feels like something is literally controlling my mind and personality. I can't even explain it in words very well.

Prayer is your best weapon and the name of Jesus Christ I have dealt with this kind of thing before and trust me if you spend a lot of time in prayer it weakens the hold of the spirits that are plaguing you

 

[RandyK]

One day, I was thinking some horrible thoughts about who I was as a person due to the horrible past of me making mistakes and failing a lot in life. I felt so overwhelmed, I then felt some type of mental breakdown inside of my spirit/mind that I suddenly started to feel like I was crying inside but not physically at all. I tried to brush this off by opening up an audiobook on my phone and listening to it. Suddenly, I felt some radical change for the worst. I felt some weird tingling sensation on the left side of my forehead (approximately above the left eye) and I felt like something there was taken or messed with. I felt exactly as if my intellectual side and personality or something immediately shifted for the worst. I lost everything. Over the days, I suddenly felt a new radical person shift in me for the worst. I felt like my personality and sense of self slowly disappeared. The way how I viewed the world and reasoned about things slowly started to decay and I felt like I was being more vulnerable and weaker. I have issues with using my full brain's capabilities. I can't think well, problem solve well, self-reflect well, etc. I feel like a dummy drone or something. My sex drive and libido is completely gone and I feel less mentally competent. My reasoning and logical guard is off as well as my discernment when people try to do me wrong. I also feel a lost of sense of purpose/security and my calling in life seemed to have vanished. I feel like a broken shell of my former self. I am definitely not the same person anymore.

It sounds very much like a nervous breakdown. I know you reject the idea of mental illness, but it sure sounds like it. It can come on young people 20-25 whether out of the blue or due to something that sets it off.

You may have to bear some of this. God can use it to bring you to a place of dependence on Him, and compassion for others who go through similar things. You will probably learn how to pray long and often.

Just thank God that you can still think pretty well. People with more serious symptoms cannot work, think, or enjoy life at all. Do whatever you can to stay out of depression and focused on what you *can* do. Stay busy with things that give you fulfillment and make you happy, and try to ignore the negativity, if possible.

I agree with those who say this is spiritual warfare. Satan would love you to give up. God would have you to weather every storm, and yes, there will be storms for all of us.

 

[tdidymas]

This is definitely spiritual warfare. I don't feel normal at all. This is messing me up. I literally can't think ahead, function well, reason well,etc. It feels like something is literally controlling my mind and personality. I can't even explain it in words very well.

There is not enough information here to even poke guesses at. Have you seen a doctor? How do you know you haven't had a microstroke? Are you taking any medication or food supplements? What was the name of the audiobook? Have you been doing anything related to the occult or pagansim? Have you seen a professional Christian counsellor? What have you done to get yourself right with God? An uncommon symptom as you are describing could have any cause, or a combination of triggers. A professional counsellor, Christian psychiatrist, or doctor might be able to give some direction.

 

[RandyK]

I just wanted to improve all areas of my life and build some discipline.

I will reiterate, Paul. It sounds very much like you're having a nervous breakdown. It could be something inherited. I was trained by the military to assist psychiatrists in diagnosing these kinds of problems, even though I worked in a different field. My heart goes out to you. If there's any advice I can offer you, ask.

 

[KV-44-v1]

This sounds like you had a stroke of some kind. Or mabye you weren't eating healthy, and were chronically dehydrated. Or mabye your head got injured in your sleep at some point that set off a chain of events in your body that has been going on ever since, and finally it led to this.
Mabye something in your body happened at those 2 times? Two strokes??
What was your diet and hydration schedule like? Do you look at ingredient labels? What chemicals do you surround yourself with?
Do you wear anything on your head often? What surfaces do you typically sleep on, hard ones or soft ones? When's the last time an object hit your head?

Mabye you touched or consumed something toxic at some point. Mabye certain unhealthy chemicals in your food built up and your brain just gave up due to too much of those chemicals.

What vaccines have you taken in your life?
Did you ever get any of the Covid 19 shots?

There is a bunch of context missing, so I have plenty of questions. And I doubt we can diagnose it without further context.

Did you see a doctor?