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Mordecai
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Do you ever get it? I'm talking about the urge to live. The urge to be more than you have ever been before. I was coming back from a trip today and I was hit with it. I was riding in a bus going through the country side and I was suddenly struck with the thought that I am not doing all that I can. And you know what frustrates me the most about when God tells me these things. He always tells me in places that I can't do squat about it. I'm sure you all have been there, on a retreat or driving down the road and you get hit with the Spirit. And if your're anything like me then you want to do something about it right then, but when you look around to do something you realize you're alone, or there is no one that doesn't' already know what you are feeling. I hate it, I don't have the patience to wait to do something, but I have to, or I forget about it until the next time there is nothing I can do about it. Sometimes I get frustrated so much because of it, but other times, it seems like He is telling me just what I need to know when I need it. When I got the urge today, I was staring out the window looking at the country side and I heard "A shepherd must tend his flock and at times, keep the wolves away." (as some of you may have guessed the movie The Patriot was playing on the bus). When I heard that I was convicted. It was like God was speaking directly to me. I don't know what He meant by it, but I know he meant something.