I'm a lukewarm Christian who struges with judgment towards others, trust, Self conscious issues and a whole heap of pride. In other words I'm a mess. I'm thankful to be aware of these issues but they are deeply ingrained in me. I don't like being around people and am afraid of committment which has hurt me. I don't attend church regularly and am somewhat antisocial. Easily annoyed as well . I'm sure I know that most of these things would be resolved for the most part if I was doing my due diligence by studying the word and daily prayer and regular church sttendance. Also making more of an attempt to just be kind without fear of getting taken advantage of. Also when I don't respect someone or feel like I can't stand there behavior I tend to show it in my body language which makes it even harder for me to act kind . Sorry for the story but lately it's been eating at me more and more.. Just going to leave this here and if you have insights ease share. Thank you.
The greatest Christian who ever lived, wrote most of the New Testament.
This is the apostle Paul.
Prior to being turned into that person by God's Grace and Love and patience and time, his name was Saul and he was a famous Pharisee who was was helping to round up Christians so that they could be murdered.
He hated the very idea of Jesus, and spit on the idea that Christ was the Messiah.
I have no idea how many Christians Saul helped to round up, but, he stated that he considered himself the "chief of sinners" for being that person before he met the Love of God as the Risen Christ and was transformed into PAUL the apostle.
Why did God choose such a person? Because God loves to show you His mercy, and its always the worst sinners who make the best Christians.
That is the power of God's Grace, that is God's unconditional love, which causes this to happen.
God's Grace is able to take the darkest heart and transform it into the brightest Light for His Glory.
Its quite possible that the worst type of natural sinner, who was a whore, demon possessed, shows the most love for Jesus, out of the entire New Testament. Why? Because when you are forgiven so much, you love so much in return.
Its the goodness of God that leads us to love Him more and more.
Paul was the same. He was forgiven so very much, that this empowered His love for Jesus to cause Him to become the Greatest Christian.
Let me ask you some questions......, that i am not wanting you to reply to in public, here.
Ive a pm box if you ever want to talk about whatever. Feel free.
So, This is just for yourself.....
Do you believe in forgiveness?
Do you believe that forgiveness is real love being shown?
Do you believe that when Jesus looked down from the Cross into the hate filled eyes of those who were enjoying watching Him suffer and slowly choke and die.... and yet Jesus LOVED THEM ALL, and prayed for them from the Cross, that this is God's amazing love??
Do you think that forgiveness is important for healing inner pain and silent mental wounds??
Do you believe that when you forgive someone, you are releasing them from bondage and condemnation and misery?
Do you believe that forgiving someone is freeing them?
Do you believe that its God's will for you to forgive? ?
If you do, then forgive yourself, as this is God's will for you to do it.
Forgive yourself, for everything you hold against yourself, ..... as God has already forgiven you all of it.
How to do this best? = ASAP,.......... and say it out loud.
Forgiving yourself is mental health , and its God's will for you and for us all.