FreedomInChrist
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I would like to request prayer for my husband's addiction to porn, but also materialism and just the overall spirit of addiction that is upon him. I learned that my husband has been hiding purchases he's made to buy things for other women on Amazon. We share the same account, but apparently you can hide purchases. I wasn't looking for anything, rather it just popped up on my Amazon icon.
We've been married for 4 1/2 yrs. This is my 3rd marriage and his second. He doesn't feel porn is wrong as he has no emotional ties to the women. I'm not going to go into the nitty gritty details, but he blatantly does this. He said he didn't tell me because of how I'd react. Ummm, how am I supposed to react.
He sees no issues with paying women online to make sexual videos for him, as well as buying stuff for them. We are deeply in debt, but he's in denial that he is the major cause for this because of his excessive spending on his stuff for all his hobbies.
He says I am oversensitive and he doesn't see the world as I see it and he sees it as okay. He says he loves me and that he is all the time with me when he's not at work. However, I do go to bed between 9-10 am and on the weekends, he may come to bed at 4:30 am, or 3:30 am. I'm sure he's on the internet engaging in porn. He says he's not conversing with other women, but I don't trust his word.
He's gone back on his word a number of times and this purchase of thongs for this other women does not show up on the Amazon Order History, which means he's found a way to hide that order. Deep, deep down, he knows it's wrong. And, the stress of it is killing me. The diabetes that plagues me is getting worse.
I love my husband. He is not saved. He thinks that whatever you believe is fine, as long as he doesn't think it hurts anyone. This hurts me so much. I've submitted to my husband and though he's made a number of bad decisions financially for our family, and I provide input, he has rage and anger issues. I have my own issues, too.
He doesn't think the porn and his spending are issues, but they are huge. We're unable to allow our daughter to drive because we can't afford for her to get her license, though my husband makes enough. He just spends more than he makes. And, we have no retirement, though, for what he makes, we should be able to save for retirement or save in general.
He truly doesn't realize how much he disrespects me and how much it's hurting me. He says it's because I take it personally. He says it's not about me. He justifies what he does as okay. It's not.
We've been married for 4 1/2 yrs. This is my 3rd marriage and his second. He doesn't feel porn is wrong as he has no emotional ties to the women. I'm not going to go into the nitty gritty details, but he blatantly does this. He said he didn't tell me because of how I'd react. Ummm, how am I supposed to react.
He sees no issues with paying women online to make sexual videos for him, as well as buying stuff for them. We are deeply in debt, but he's in denial that he is the major cause for this because of his excessive spending on his stuff for all his hobbies.
He says I am oversensitive and he doesn't see the world as I see it and he sees it as okay. He says he loves me and that he is all the time with me when he's not at work. However, I do go to bed between 9-10 am and on the weekends, he may come to bed at 4:30 am, or 3:30 am. I'm sure he's on the internet engaging in porn. He says he's not conversing with other women, but I don't trust his word.
He's gone back on his word a number of times and this purchase of thongs for this other women does not show up on the Amazon Order History, which means he's found a way to hide that order. Deep, deep down, he knows it's wrong. And, the stress of it is killing me. The diabetes that plagues me is getting worse.
I love my husband. He is not saved. He thinks that whatever you believe is fine, as long as he doesn't think it hurts anyone. This hurts me so much. I've submitted to my husband and though he's made a number of bad decisions financially for our family, and I provide input, he has rage and anger issues. I have my own issues, too.
He doesn't think the porn and his spending are issues, but they are huge. We're unable to allow our daughter to drive because we can't afford for her to get her license, though my husband makes enough. He just spends more than he makes. And, we have no retirement, though, for what he makes, we should be able to save for retirement or save in general.
He truly doesn't realize how much he disrespects me and how much it's hurting me. He says it's because I take it personally. He says it's not about me. He justifies what he does as okay. It's not.