1Day NoTilt
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here goes my story. i lost my mom to cancer 7 years ago. i hated god for that, everyone at church was telling me if i have faith god will heal my mom. reading me scriptures about if i had faith the size of mustard seed, that i can move mountains. well i had faith even untill the end , when she drew her last breath. even tho its been 7 years, it still brings me to tears to think about my mom who fought so hard. ok, well my brother and my mom was my love. I never was close to my dad , as he was physically and mentally abusive to me, my brother and my mom. now i found my brother a job online out of state, he left in april and was suppose to return in november. I called his place of work, but his boss always give me lies how he tells my brother to call home but he refuses. Which is complete lie b/c my brother would call. He called two times the first week he arrive there to let us know he was safe. After that i have never heard from him again. I call his boss several times, only to get more lies about how he refuses to call home. Well about a month ago, his boss quit answering my phone calls and doesnt call me back even tho i leave messages. So i called his boss brother, i think its his brother not sure and he tells me he left on Tuesday, today is Thursday and he is nowhere to be seen or heard. This is unlike my brother. Also his boss, sounds very shady, even my friend who called says he think hes lying and that something is very wrong. I dont know if my brother is dead or alive. But i fear he is proably dead. if my brother is dead, i dont know how i can ever have any type of relationship with god. As my brother couldnt find a job anywhere after looking for severals months and was pretty much forced to take a job out of the state. And if god knew that he was going to be killed there, why in the hell would he allow that place to hire him and nobody else. Also i am the one who found that job for him, so i feel guilty. to be honest i dont even know why im posting here, im just scared i guess. Tommorow i am filing a police report. please pray for me and my brother. thank you