I_love_Springtime
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I have had a great experience recently where my hopelessness has been turned into hope. I have spent many years in spiritual despair and hopelessness, causing mental torment and a troubled spirit and mind through it all. And my problem was that I was troubled by the thought or idea that God could be a trickster, and I would never be able to prove He wasn't - that when you finally believe and have faith, He would crush you with the devil's laughing blow. I never came to the conclusion this is how I wanted to believe God was, or spoke against him to leave me alone....... if I had, all of this would have been grounds to having been guilty of blasphemy of his Holy Spirit, because I would have concluded God's Spirit is unclean. But I never concluded this, rather I suffered through the troubling feelings and torment of not knowing how to find innocence and true belief in God's goodness.
It's taken years to identify the source of my troubled mind. I finally confessed to Jesus that yes, those ideas and thoughts are beyond me and they trouble me, and I am unable to know any different, except that I do trust Jesus. And Jesus must have suffered in much the same way when God forsook Him on the cross and Jesus cried, "My God, My God, why have You forsaken Me?" But an interesting set of verses in Psalm 22:1-3 says that Christ recognized, even in the mental torment of God's wrath, that God was holy:
verse 1: My God, My God, why have You forsaken Me? Why are You so far from helping me? And from the words of my groaning?
verse 2: O my God, I cry in the daytime, but you do not hear. And in the night season, and am not silent.
verse 3: But You are holy, enthroned in the praises of Israel.
Christ lived the perfect life and died as the perfect sacrifice, having declared God's holiness during God's wrath, and then committing His spirit to the Father as He breathed His last.
It's taken years to identify the source of my troubled mind. I finally confessed to Jesus that yes, those ideas and thoughts are beyond me and they trouble me, and I am unable to know any different, except that I do trust Jesus. And Jesus must have suffered in much the same way when God forsook Him on the cross and Jesus cried, "My God, My God, why have You forsaken Me?" But an interesting set of verses in Psalm 22:1-3 says that Christ recognized, even in the mental torment of God's wrath, that God was holy:
verse 1: My God, My God, why have You forsaken Me? Why are You so far from helping me? And from the words of my groaning?
verse 2: O my God, I cry in the daytime, but you do not hear. And in the night season, and am not silent.
verse 3: But You are holy, enthroned in the praises of Israel.
Christ lived the perfect life and died as the perfect sacrifice, having declared God's holiness during God's wrath, and then committing His spirit to the Father as He breathed His last.