hi
i am diagnosed paraoid schizophrenia
how i ever became is not of the matter anymore.
what is of the matter is that i am about to move forward in my life.
for example next wednesday at 11.00 i am going to the petting zoo together with my psychologist to see if i can do some activity there once or twice a week to begin with.
now i am paranoid, like i said how i became so is not of the point.
what is of the point is that i am for example afraid that the people there might not like me or have a grudge or so against me. since i have been thinking for a long time that there nothing and that they hate me too. i just think way to much.
having you reading this might allready be enough for me...
so tell me to go next wednesday at 11.00 and not back out. ty in advance
and that i dont have to be afraid. ty.
the next thing is that my psychologist is going to discuss or bable with my psychiatrist and the teamleader about me going to live in an apartment here on the terain. which get me thinking lots again. i look forward but will i manage and willl it work. or will i finaly land up in isolement.
i am 26 now if i stay of the weed or worse i might still have a good chance to reach things within my life such as leaving this terain and truly live on my own, with soem help.
actually if i live for it i might still follow a study or find a job in the future.
am 26 sure all is still an option.
the biggest worrie you could help me with is to tell me now that i may be who i am
and that i havent betrayed jesus, by explaining to everybody how he was able to be who he is/was. and that i am actually the messiah. and do everybody wrong by thinking and saying so.
yes jesus i know i have ben praying to never been born and die for the past 26 years. and cried for about 3 years over the crusifixion of "god's son" which in my eyes cannot be justified, ever.
can talk it over though as in this way: that if he didnt die that way the word of him might not have been today and i surely would've never have the live i have and had..
all i really want is a reply about that i shouldnt worrie about living on my own and that i shouldnt be afraid to go to the petting zoo.
but if you choose not to reply ty for taking your time to read this in your mind, ty
i am diagnosed paraoid schizophrenia
how i ever became is not of the matter anymore.
what is of the matter is that i am about to move forward in my life.
for example next wednesday at 11.00 i am going to the petting zoo together with my psychologist to see if i can do some activity there once or twice a week to begin with.
now i am paranoid, like i said how i became so is not of the point.
what is of the point is that i am for example afraid that the people there might not like me or have a grudge or so against me. since i have been thinking for a long time that there nothing and that they hate me too. i just think way to much.
having you reading this might allready be enough for me...
so tell me to go next wednesday at 11.00 and not back out. ty in advance
and that i dont have to be afraid. ty.
the next thing is that my psychologist is going to discuss or bable with my psychiatrist and the teamleader about me going to live in an apartment here on the terain. which get me thinking lots again. i look forward but will i manage and willl it work. or will i finaly land up in isolement.
i am 26 now if i stay of the weed or worse i might still have a good chance to reach things within my life such as leaving this terain and truly live on my own, with soem help.
actually if i live for it i might still follow a study or find a job in the future.
am 26 sure all is still an option.
the biggest worrie you could help me with is to tell me now that i may be who i am
and that i havent betrayed jesus, by explaining to everybody how he was able to be who he is/was. and that i am actually the messiah. and do everybody wrong by thinking and saying so.
yes jesus i know i have ben praying to never been born and die for the past 26 years. and cried for about 3 years over the crusifixion of "god's son" which in my eyes cannot be justified, ever.
can talk it over though as in this way: that if he didnt die that way the word of him might not have been today and i surely would've never have the live i have and had..
all i really want is a reply about that i shouldnt worrie about living on my own and that i shouldnt be afraid to go to the petting zoo.
but if you choose not to reply ty for taking your time to read this in your mind, ty