Christ_empowered
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I know, I kinda take over these forums. LOL. Thanks for your patience+prayers.
Worked with dad today. Did OK, thank goodness. Made an excuse to exit...he had suggested I do stuff in another part of the yard, but...that part was close to the neighbors, and a) they forever taunt me and b) I hear voices anyway. I didn't want to talk psych stuff with him (I take the 'atypical', that's not the issue), so I just decided to jet. He took it well, but...
I'm genuinely, truly disabled...for right now. I guess if this was a more "progressive" area, there might be some kind of sheltered employment available, but...nah, not around here. Plus, not to sound too antipsychiatry, but...even if the clinic offered sheltered employment, I'm not sure I"d do it. There's a lot of bullies in mental health. "Give an inch, they'll take a mile," that sort of thing.
Other thing...
even though I'm not yet employable/able to maintain competitive employment, The Lord -has- moved and I believe -is- moving, mightily, in my life. Apparently, years ago, while I was all sorts of out of it (too much electroshock, obvious brain damage, I may have been incapacitated), dudes did sexual stuff to me and took and distributed stuff...I think photos and/or a video. True story. Now, people are using that incident to blame me more my mental problems, as in "he consented! now he has SCHIZOPHRENIA!," and its...horrible, sometimes. I'm not talking just about how I feel, I mean...the sheer cruelty and hatefulness and mean-spirited bullying...just on principle, its decidedly NOT ok.
Like a lot of Christians, I can kind of relate to Job. Before I got genuinely saved, I had a horrible existence. not even a life, just an existence. Now, I"ve been saved 5 1/2 years and The Lord has blessed me mightily, but I -still- get blamed for stuff. "They hit him cuz he hit a girl." I've even been accussed (falsely...) of raping a former female friend. Keep in mind; I'm gay, and back then, I was flaming. Younger women love having flamer best friends, till we hit about 25 or so. Anyway...
that's what's going on in my corner of the world. I think I"m handling it well, by God's grace. Left to my own devices, I'd be freaking out non-stop.
OK. Thanks.
Worked with dad today. Did OK, thank goodness. Made an excuse to exit...he had suggested I do stuff in another part of the yard, but...that part was close to the neighbors, and a) they forever taunt me and b) I hear voices anyway. I didn't want to talk psych stuff with him (I take the 'atypical', that's not the issue), so I just decided to jet. He took it well, but...
I'm genuinely, truly disabled...for right now. I guess if this was a more "progressive" area, there might be some kind of sheltered employment available, but...nah, not around here. Plus, not to sound too antipsychiatry, but...even if the clinic offered sheltered employment, I'm not sure I"d do it. There's a lot of bullies in mental health. "Give an inch, they'll take a mile," that sort of thing.
Other thing...
even though I'm not yet employable/able to maintain competitive employment, The Lord -has- moved and I believe -is- moving, mightily, in my life. Apparently, years ago, while I was all sorts of out of it (too much electroshock, obvious brain damage, I may have been incapacitated), dudes did sexual stuff to me and took and distributed stuff...I think photos and/or a video. True story. Now, people are using that incident to blame me more my mental problems, as in "he consented! now he has SCHIZOPHRENIA!," and its...horrible, sometimes. I'm not talking just about how I feel, I mean...the sheer cruelty and hatefulness and mean-spirited bullying...just on principle, its decidedly NOT ok.
Like a lot of Christians, I can kind of relate to Job. Before I got genuinely saved, I had a horrible existence. not even a life, just an existence. Now, I"ve been saved 5 1/2 years and The Lord has blessed me mightily, but I -still- get blamed for stuff. "They hit him cuz he hit a girl." I've even been accussed (falsely...) of raping a former female friend. Keep in mind; I'm gay, and back then, I was flaming. Younger women love having flamer best friends, till we hit about 25 or so. Anyway...
that's what's going on in my corner of the world. I think I"m handling it well, by God's grace. Left to my own devices, I'd be freaking out non-stop.
OK. Thanks.