Christ_empowered
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I was sickly to the core for a couple years in my early 20s. I think maybe I had cancer. I know, you're thinking "well, wouldn't someone *know* if you had cancer?"...let me explain...
..in my late teens, I was a wretched, unrepentant sinner. Too much sodomy, too many pills of all flavors. I came home at 19, was involuntarily ECT'd at 20. I used to blame the ECT for everything, but...
...when I was in a mental hospital at 23, one doc said I had lung cancer. Not playing. I was pale, gaunt, my hair was falling out, I had fevers and chills and agitation. They didn't say anything to my parents, though. I thought he might just be messing with me. Shrinks do that stuff to "trouble makers," especially when we're poor and/or unwanted.
I'm kissing close to 30 now, and healthier than ever! This doesn't sit well with people around here. They want me punished for everything I've ever done, basically. People talk about what I was like in high school (!) and stuff that happened 9, 10 years ago.
Now that my mind is clearing, I realize that this whole community watched me die and tormented me while it happened. It wasn't until after I came to repentance 19 months ago that my health returned full force. My mind is still clearing.
I'm no psychologist, but I think that if a community laughs at someone who is clearly dying of something, and then God heals them, which appears to be the case, then that community isn't going to be very happy. At all.
So, this is perfectly frightening, for me. I was a pariah while dying. I'm straight up hated and "not a member of this community" now that I've been made well. My parents...well, my parents, to their credit, kept me alive all these years. I can see why they didn't get me medical care back then--what would they *do* if I had cancer, you know? Treat it and lose more money? Send me to a hospice program?
My neighbor is now talking about me so loud that I can hear him in my bedroom. People are still talking about "federal prison," and I don't know what's going on...
please pray.
..in my late teens, I was a wretched, unrepentant sinner. Too much sodomy, too many pills of all flavors. I came home at 19, was involuntarily ECT'd at 20. I used to blame the ECT for everything, but...
...when I was in a mental hospital at 23, one doc said I had lung cancer. Not playing. I was pale, gaunt, my hair was falling out, I had fevers and chills and agitation. They didn't say anything to my parents, though. I thought he might just be messing with me. Shrinks do that stuff to "trouble makers," especially when we're poor and/or unwanted.
I'm kissing close to 30 now, and healthier than ever! This doesn't sit well with people around here. They want me punished for everything I've ever done, basically. People talk about what I was like in high school (!) and stuff that happened 9, 10 years ago.
Now that my mind is clearing, I realize that this whole community watched me die and tormented me while it happened. It wasn't until after I came to repentance 19 months ago that my health returned full force. My mind is still clearing.
I'm no psychologist, but I think that if a community laughs at someone who is clearly dying of something, and then God heals them, which appears to be the case, then that community isn't going to be very happy. At all.
So, this is perfectly frightening, for me. I was a pariah while dying. I'm straight up hated and "not a member of this community" now that I've been made well. My parents...well, my parents, to their credit, kept me alive all these years. I can see why they didn't get me medical care back then--what would they *do* if I had cancer, you know? Treat it and lose more money? Send me to a hospice program?
My neighbor is now talking about me so loud that I can hear him in my bedroom. People are still talking about "federal prison," and I don't know what's going on...
please pray.