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Guest
Spiritual phantom; long lost love
stumbling on words of a forgotten language
that never existed, stumbling on myself
as I venture into a black hole, but I feel at home
stuck within the cycle of my personality
rain pitter patters on the driveway of my success
and I struggle, as I define my own individuality
my own vision becomes blurred
as I dive into the sublime of thinking about tomorrow while living today
mystery shrouds over an open glass of recollection
as I smell the aroma gently grace the wind
I want to come in, but subconscious says no
and I introduce a new way of thinking
no one knows or understands, but that isn't the way I see it
everytime I see a glance, it's like they peer into my being
they say they don't understand, but I understand them
but I don't know their reasonings, while I know what they say or do
simple ramblings that don't make sense
are the foundations of complexity
stepping on the stones of a mystery
I quest for the answers
looking and searching my soul for those photographs and memories
as I look and finally find you, my spiritual phantom
many times I find myself asking questions
in that simple state of mind
that I try to dish away, put away, into an attic to never be opened again
but I find myself slipping back into the graveyard of time
but living emotions fill me and flash me back
as you take me away
with your lovely smile and your empty reflections
but you never turned me away
you always saw my best side and met me commonplace
you always said the right things even when I was wrong
didn't have to compliment me, just said the truth
we had a common page, everything I and you
but it never was, only in my dreams
since we left all that time ago
and so I'm left only to think of what we'd be
in a dream land, the whispers of our laughs heard, of all things untold
maybe it's best that way, that I can dream up the way
we'd be, dancing in the sands for eternity
laughs swept away into the wind, smiles tasting the clouds
maybe that's the way it would have been, or maybe reality
picking up and doing the daily chores
picking up the bible everyday
living within their rules, their way of doing things
living life by the same message, living it the "right" way
living by the code of the righteous, but the rules of thought
living by the common day rules of what's right and what's not
living within the realm of the current day while forgeting about the lost
memorizing the christian code, but forgetting the matter of the heart
but that's not you, that's not who i remember
that's not who i understood
who picked me up when i felt down, who kissed my pains away
the one that was the one for who I stood
alas things change, i've changed, but this I know true
you are the everlasting one
the one who loves beyond faults and commonplace thoughts
please don't say flee from me sinner, I know you not
for I am a new creature, born again from the ashes
because of you I have life
around the world in 2000 years, I live not because of the lashes,
but because of everlasting truth, and the blood that runs through us all, your righteous fight
ah the memories come running back, and so does the anxiety
of waiting for new ones to begin, leave the past behind me
as i've found you, long lost love, my spiritual phantom, only you didn't have to be found
since you were here all along, now we are reunited,
you was with me, now again I with you
one chapter written, the next, eternity
stumbling on words of a forgotten language
that never existed, stumbling on myself
as I venture into a black hole, but I feel at home
stuck within the cycle of my personality
rain pitter patters on the driveway of my success
and I struggle, as I define my own individuality
my own vision becomes blurred
as I dive into the sublime of thinking about tomorrow while living today
mystery shrouds over an open glass of recollection
as I smell the aroma gently grace the wind
I want to come in, but subconscious says no
and I introduce a new way of thinking
no one knows or understands, but that isn't the way I see it
everytime I see a glance, it's like they peer into my being
they say they don't understand, but I understand them
but I don't know their reasonings, while I know what they say or do
simple ramblings that don't make sense
are the foundations of complexity
stepping on the stones of a mystery
I quest for the answers
looking and searching my soul for those photographs and memories
as I look and finally find you, my spiritual phantom
many times I find myself asking questions
in that simple state of mind
that I try to dish away, put away, into an attic to never be opened again
but I find myself slipping back into the graveyard of time
but living emotions fill me and flash me back
as you take me away
with your lovely smile and your empty reflections
but you never turned me away
you always saw my best side and met me commonplace
you always said the right things even when I was wrong
didn't have to compliment me, just said the truth
we had a common page, everything I and you
but it never was, only in my dreams
since we left all that time ago
and so I'm left only to think of what we'd be
in a dream land, the whispers of our laughs heard, of all things untold
maybe it's best that way, that I can dream up the way
we'd be, dancing in the sands for eternity
laughs swept away into the wind, smiles tasting the clouds
maybe that's the way it would have been, or maybe reality
picking up and doing the daily chores
picking up the bible everyday
living within their rules, their way of doing things
living life by the same message, living it the "right" way
living by the code of the righteous, but the rules of thought
living by the common day rules of what's right and what's not
living within the realm of the current day while forgeting about the lost
memorizing the christian code, but forgetting the matter of the heart
but that's not you, that's not who i remember
that's not who i understood
who picked me up when i felt down, who kissed my pains away
the one that was the one for who I stood
alas things change, i've changed, but this I know true
you are the everlasting one
the one who loves beyond faults and commonplace thoughts
please don't say flee from me sinner, I know you not
for I am a new creature, born again from the ashes
because of you I have life
around the world in 2000 years, I live not because of the lashes,
but because of everlasting truth, and the blood that runs through us all, your righteous fight
ah the memories come running back, and so does the anxiety
of waiting for new ones to begin, leave the past behind me
as i've found you, long lost love, my spiritual phantom, only you didn't have to be found
since you were here all along, now we are reunited,
you was with me, now again I with you
one chapter written, the next, eternity