SPIRITUAL SUICIDE

[23Psalm]

This words of rhyme is an expression on how I truly felt without Christ in my life. When I decided to leave Jesus and live Cee's way, this is how I felt on a daily basis. It was an emotional roller coaster, but I am so glad for grace and mercy. I'm so glad that Jesus never stopped loving me and welcomed me back to the winning team with open arms. I tear up every time I think about his goodness.

When I left you, I knew my life would change;
No longer felt your love, my heart felt strange;
I felt abanoned, and my soul felt weak;
No longer speak the Word, my life took a sharp curve;
From the narrow, I used to walk straight like an arrow;
Now my heart is hard like Pharoah's;
I would listen, dismissed the possibilities;
It was too hard, I could no longer serve you see . . .
I had to do it on my own like Pattie (LaBelle),
I'm going insane, could somebody please smack me,
Back to reality and wake me up from this dream;
Fell for the devil's scheme, which made me leave the winning team;
And now I feel lost like a child, wandering in the mall;
My thoughts done went wild.
Never thought I be without you, no I didn't;
You knew I loved you, and that word was never hidden.
But tell me, where did I stumble?
You fed me when my stomach rumbled;
Kept me calm and humbled.
My life done turned into a mess;
Now I'm stressed, no longer blessed, I feel depressed.
Now I'm smoking marijuana regular,
I used to live holy, now I'm living secular.
My flesh got me having sex then what's next?
I keep stretching the truth, like spandex.
I'm too ashamed to show my face, in God's place;
Cause the Saints, will see that I'm laced . . .
With sin and I can't pretend that I'm committin';
The unlawful, feeling awful without the Gospel.
And I know I can come back to ya,
I've been away so long, I feel like I never knew ya;
It's a war going on in my head;
Better off dead, squeeze, my shirt stained red.
Just end all this misery cause spiritually . . .
I'm deceased. I just want peace.
And I can't feel your power;
My soul's been devoured by the lion
That's why I keep crying.
I keep trying to reach you, but oh Lord;
I prayed so much, my vocal cords done went sore.
I can't take it, the stress is building up inside;
The devil lied, that's why I committed suicide.

 

[God's_gift]

heya there 23Psalm, it's touching but tragic ending....

 

[23Psalm]

Not literal suicide. I wouldn't be here now. Praise God! Spiritually, I killed myself when I decided to turn away from God. I was dead! During my time away from the Lord, I actually contemplated suicide, and it was by the grace of God that I didn't go through with it. Without Christ, I felt helpless and weak. So all that read this, this is not about the physical form of suicide. Not at all, but metaphorically in a spiritual sense. Sorry for the confusion.