Trying to get over anger, sadness, suicide thoughts and darkness

[LadyLoves]

First one....(sorry it's such a long read, but it's killing me inside)

Recently it seems as if I've had an explosion of all of the above. I think one of my reasons is taking the internet too seriously. But the internet has also allowed to see what kind of people exist in the world without having to bump into them on a daily basis. Recently I've had a horrible thing happen to me regarding another forum I've been apart of for 4 years almost. I had a social network site that I've now gotten rid of because of this, as well as the e-mail attached to it. Sometimes on alot of these social sites you have individuals that post pics and videos that can be offensive to others on your page by default if they're apart of your friend's list. I've been blessed up until now to not have seen anything of that nature until recently. I only created a SN page to keep in contact with family mainly, and that's it. If I'm on there I'm talking to them or posting inspiring quotes. Last Sunday I did experience this, and the person who posted it, posted for the same reason out of shock and to prove how horrible people can be, I said "Omg to him, I hope it's fake" because sometimes the shocking things you see online no matter if it's a cartoon or something from a t.v. or something involving real human beings can be photoshopped for entertainment not taking into considration if it can be offensive or not, people actual take time out of their lives to go that far.

So the forum I "WAS" apart of in which I probably won't be anymore after this, it's just too emotionally scarring to still go there after this, but the forum I was apart of I went and posted it there trying to see if it was fake or not because sometimes they are often on a lot of stories, articles and everything else before you can address it and talk about it, they're very good at getting to things first. I just wanted to ask out of shock, and I also made it clear how upset it made me and why humans can be this way. Sometimes you have to realize (lesson learned for me as well) you don't have to post and address every shocking, heart breaking thing you see online, no matter the source it's coming from. There are a lot of people, including my self who are very sensitive to certain subjects and sometimes you're so in awe you're ready to address and discuss with others how society can be, especially if you think they'll understand.
I made it clear with numerous apologies that I wasn't trying to offend anyone and make anyone upset so I deleted it and got rid of it as fast I could. I keep apologizing and even offered sites to certain things to make sure several SN monitor things like this so people won't have to experience seeing shocking things like that on their feeds/(or forums in general), whatever SN they're apart of.
But no one was trying to hear it, it was a mistake on my part, I'm just a very passionate person when it comes to certain subjects and things which is why I wanted to know was it real, because it was just terrible, and have never come across it ever, and wish to never come across anything even remotely close to it again. I took it upon myself to send an e-mail with my new e-mail to the SN I "was" apart of to make sure they step up the moniroting of things that are posted on their site.

I was so torn by this because I didn't mean it, at all I always made it a mission while I was there to inform people how much of an advocate I was about certain topics and serious subjects and how I support the individuals who are apart of those subjects to try and help as much as I can. But then I saw a thread with my screename in the title saying saying what happened and how people were bashing me, and I can't post and give a final explanation and try to let people know that was not my intention I was trying to help. I just feel like sometimes people never take time to listen or try to understand, they immediately make the assumption, jump to conclusions, and that's that. I've always been a advocate in trying to help others, but that absolutely sucked all the life out of me the way it happened, I should have thought before posting no matter how shocked I was. You just can't post everything all the time to address it with others no matter how serious it is, and how bad you want to help by addressing it.

I'm like in the deepest darkest place over that pic incident and feel like just jumping off the deep end of the Earth. I know it's just a forum with face-less people but the subject rangs near and dear to my heart and it's just not something (no matter if you're a stranger to everyone, and they're complete strangers who don't know you from a can of paint), you want to have connected to you when you're a great person who'd bend over backwards to help people of all ages and all species. It's easy for me to feel bad, ashamed, and even more depressed if I feel I've hurt or done something wrong, even if it "unintentional" they made me feel like the worst person in the world. I just can't wait to get back on when I'm able so I can apologize again and express my support and love for anyone involving serious topics. Not being able to get back on I feel helpless. I haven't ate or drank well since...

 

[LadyLoves]

Second one...

I've been the one who has never held back about being bullied like I'm a open book about being bullied and it normally takes a person to have to open me up like a rusty locked treasure chest without a key to get something out of me. But when it comes to bullying I make sure to be as expressive about it as possible because I want people to know how horribly it can affect individuals for a long, long time.
Over the years, the experiences with bullying has replayed in my mind repeatedly. People say just focusing on something happy and positive to get you past tough times, but sometimes it's not that easy especially if it's left a long lasting affect on you for eternity.
I was picked on by every person you can possibly be attached to throughout your life. Strangers, schoolmates from child to adult going into college, family immediate and relatives the list goes on and on. I was bullied not made fun of just by words but bullied with physical contact. In HS was one of the worst, and I expected going into HS where there are young adults that they'd be a little more mature and tolerable than the average teenager or kid. But no, no, no. It was bad, far worse than when I was a child. And it felt good knowing you can come home to family after being tortured by the outsiders but I had to remind myself it didn't feel so good knowing you could possibly experience the same sooner or later by relatives.
Coming home from HS I've had a bottle thrown at me, I've had spit fall into my mouth coming up the steps while someone spit down at me, I've had a group of girls torture and bully me in front of a full class and threaten to ask one of their friends to come and hit me because they got mad I ignored them and continued to do my work. Can you believe something like that?
I've got it from teachers as well, it was almost like being in a school full of just people of the same kind. It was horrible.
It's made me a little angry towards human beings overall, like my trust level with human beings are at an all time low.
That's not the person I want to be, and that's not how I am by nature. I'm loving, caring, accepting and nurturing no matter what. I signed here because as a spiritual woman I've wanted to continue to seek God and get better. I hope I can and I hope I can find that with you all here

 

[for_his_glory]

LadyLoves you know you will have these type of people when you come into any forum as well you already know this. You were trying to do a good thing, but people threw it back in your face without any understanding and that is their problem they will answer to and not yours. Satan will always try to discourage us by using those we know and may even love dearly to come against us as all he wants is to steal your faith. You should not be concerned about what a nameless faceless people think of you because only God knows the intents of our heart and rewards those who diligently seek Him. I've seen more devastation done to Christians by other Christians especially in forums and chat rooms and it hurts to see Gods children come against each other this way, but when one gets in the flesh this grieves the Holy Spirit and only Gods Spirit can convict their hearts if they had a heart for Christ to begin with. Moderators don't always catch everything, but I give them credit for what they do monitor as I am sure it is not an easy job to do. Just chalk this one up to Satan causing havoc as being the source of trying to make you feel bad, steal your joy and maybe even some faith and move on to the more important things of God and allow the Holy Spirit give you comfort in this as you know you are more than a conqueror through that of Christ Jesus and you know who you are in Christ. God bless.

 

[LadyLoves]

I wanted to say I am AA (African American), ust so there won't be any misunderstanding ;)

Third and last one...
Speaking of those two confessions above, I developed the mentality that when dealing with my community, we're not very understanding or accepting. I use to write that off completely when it was said by many others and said "Nope my people are just head strong in a lot of things we've traditionally grown up on as a community, we stand by". Recently "in general" I've realized that's not the case all the time. From experience, throughout my regular life and inside cyber world reflecting back on the things I've been through that involve people of my community, it can be very true sometimes. By Reflecting on these things, it has caused me to develope an unwanted resentment towards my own which I don't want to have. We approach everything with profanity, and just flat out "wolf" mentality without even trying to sit listen and understand the other person at all. Sometimes we do it for validation by others, others meaning having some type of loyalty and credibility thinking it'll keep us in good terms with one another if we express the same behavior. I'm the one who doesn't feel happy if I feel like no one cares, no one wants to listen or no one even considers my feelings, it hurts and puts me in the deepest darkest place. I don't want to resent my own because of the experiences I've had with them be they strangers or family,that's why it's best for me to just find people whom I connect with and overcome these obstacles.

 

[LadyLoves]

Omg, thank you so much FOR_HIS_GLORY that made me feel so better about that situation. They even went so far as into saying reporting me making it a legal thing, and I thought how is that possible when it's not my pic, I don't even agree with posting pics online period if they aren't of family or just you taking a normal pic for a avatar. The only pics I have are my family and I and makeup and hair lol. But it was definitely a ploy by satan, I keep telling my mom someone or something wants me dead because I keep mentoning death regardng myself and it's scaring me.

 

[for_his_glory]

Hi it's me again. I posted before your second post so here are some scriptures for you to stand on in times of your trials and tribulations and wanted you to know I grew up in the school of hard knocks and by the grace of God the past is the past and just needs to be forgotten like God who forgives our sins and remembers them no more.

John 16:33 These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.

Acts 14:
21 And when they had preached the gospel to that city, and had taught many, they returned again to Lystra, and to Iconium, and Antioch,

22 Confirming the souls of the disciples, and exhorting them to continue in the faith, and that we must through much tribulation enter into the kingdom of God.

Romans 5:
1 Therefore being justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ:

2 By whom also we have access by faith into this grace wherein we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God.

3 And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience;

4 And patience, experience; and experience, hope:

5 And hope maketh not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us.

Romans 12:12 Rejoicing in hope; patient in tribulation; continuing instant in prayer;

 

[for_his_glory]

Most of my childhood was very abusive physically and mentally at home and in school and then later on with my first and second marriage, praise the Lord he gave me a wonderful husband in the third and will say my last. I just give God all the glory for accepting me for who I was and for all the changes He made in me to love first myself and then to love others. It's not so much a persons ethnic background or community and for even the family they were born to, but what is so much is knowing who you are, where your heart is and what the intents of your heart is for the way you want to live your life as an individual. It's a hard thing to do, but you have to forsake all in order to pick up your cross and follow Jesus even if it means leaving those of your own family or friends to allow your walk with Christ to be that of a straight and narrow path that many do not find. Now I'm not saying to leave your family or friends as what I am saying you have to put Christ first in all things above this world. If you ever want to talk privately you can always message me and all things will be held in the stickiness of confidence. I'm 58 year old women and have certainly been around the block and have pretty much seen it all and done more than I ever would want to admit to so there is nothing in this life that could ever surprise me anymore.

 

[By Grace]

First one....(sorry it's such a long read, but it's killing me inside) SHORTENED FOR SPACE

Recently it seems as if I've had an explosion of all of the above. I think one of my reasons is taking the internet too seriously. But the internet has also allowed to see what kind of people exist in the world without having to bump into them on a daily basis. Recently I've had a horrible thing happen to me regarding another forum I've been apart of for 4 years almost. I had a social network site that I've now gotten rid of because of this, as well as the e-mail attached to it.<snip>

So the forum I "WAS" apart of in which I probably won't be anymore after this, it's just too emotionally scarring to still go there after this, but the forum I was apart of I went and posted it there trying to see if it was fake or not because sometimes they are often on a lot of stories, articles and everything else before you can address it and talk about it, they're very good at getting to things first. I just wanted to ask out of shock, and I also made it clear how upset it made me and why humans can be this way.<snip>

I made it clear with numerous apologies that I wasn't trying to offend anyone and make anyone upset so I deleted it and got rid of it as fast I could. I keep apologizing and even offered sites to certain things to make sure several SN monitor things like this so people won't have to experience seeing shocking things like that on their feeds/(or forums in general), whatever SN they're apart of.
But no one was trying to hear it, it was a mistake on my part, <snip>

I was so torn by this because I didn't mean it, at all I always made it a mission while I was there to inform people how much of an advocate I was about certain topics and serious subjects and how I support the individuals who are apart of those subjects to try and help as much as I can. But then I saw a thread with my screename in the title saying saying what happened and how people were bashing me, and I can't post and give a final explanation and try to let people know that was not my intention<snip>

I'm like in the deepest darkest place over that pic incident and feel like just jumping off the deep end of the Earth. I know it's just a forum with face-less people but the subject rangs near and dear to my heart and it's just not something (no matter if you're a stranger to everyone, and they're complete strangers who don't know you from a can of paint), you want to have connected to you when you're a great person who'd bend over backwards to help people of all ages and all species. It's easy for me to feel bad, ashamed, and even more depressed if I feel I've hurt or done something wrong, even if it "unintentional" they made me feel like the worst person in the world. I just can't wait to get back on when I'm able so I can apologize again and express my support and love for anyone involving serious topics. Not being able to get back on I feel helpless. I haven't ate or drank well since...

Let's sort some things out:

First you are a teen in school. My guess is that you are either a sophomore or freshman because some girls bullied you in front of the class. Being a teen provides you some degree of protection in some situations.

Second, someone sent a picture that was offensive. But you did not explain the nature of the picture, so it is necessary to delve deeper without making you uncomfortable. My guess was that it was pornography, and perhaps kiddie porn. Among the pornography photos, there are degrees of "acceptability" that are not crimes, so while someone may exhibit poor choice in posting a nude of herself (as an example) it is noot a crime. Surely there are consequences, but that is another story.

However when it comes to kiddie porn, there is no leeway. It is a big time crime, and there ways of catching the person who originally posted it. Sometimes it is unavoidable, especially if someone posts something on your Social Network. You are NOT responsible for the actions of another, and the authorities know that. Nevertheless, you need to have adults help you in this situation, because as a teen you do not have the insight and knowledge that the authorities have. If you refuse to get help in this, your cover up will ONLY make matters worse, even if it does NOT involve kiddie porn.

Third, you need to enlist the aid of your best friends, mom and dad. They know you best, and know how to protect you--even if it means reporting the evil photo from your website. You are their child, still, and will always be so. If you are smart, you will enlist their help immediately after you read this. Show them how you reached out to get help, but now you are in over your head, and experience thoughts of suicide and other things due to this photo. IF YOU ARE WISE YOU WILL CALL THEM IMMEDIATELY TO BEGIN THE PROCESS TO RID YOURSELF FROM THE EFFECTS OF THE PICTURE, YOUR SHUNNING BY YOUR CLASSMATES AND OTHER THINGS.

As to your reputation there is no doubt that for the moment it is tarnished, but that does not mean that it can't be redeemed and restored later... AFTER the main issue is taken care of, and it is off your Social Network

FOURTH STAY OFF THE INTERNET FOR A WEEK INCLUDING YOUR EMAIL ACCOUNT It will not kill you, but more important, you will not see anyone who may try to cyber bully you. That also is a crime, and by enlisting the help from your parents and the authorities you will no longer have this hanging over your head like the mythological Sword of Damocles.

Fifth Do you have a youth Pastor to whom you can call? Every adult knows that EVERY teen screws up, some more than others, but that is part of the learning process, and having God turn you into the woman He wants you to become. You REALLY can not handle this alone, so stop trying. Since you are an advocate for some downtrodden group, this experience can help you to become more effective because you will know first hand what it is like to be ostracized.

LAST Pray about this situation, but not for yourself. What happened happened, and there is no "do-over". Pray instead that whatever the outcome, that Jesus Christ is glorified, and that the sender of the evil picture is caught. Lean on Jesus Christ and your parents. You are NOT bad because someone posted something on your network. But do not trust your friends in school. They do not have the interest and love for you that your parents and youth pastor have for you. Before turning off the lights tonight, have them pray for and with you in this matter, then rest soundly knowing thatthey took the burden off your young shoulders.

If you like this reply, print it, then show it to mom and dad FIRST

In the love of Jesus I pray about this situation for you

By Grace</snip></snip></snip></snip>

 

[LadyLoves]

The HS story is from 6 years ago about being bullied. The story about the pic is recent and it was pic that been online, like most online memes and pics overall. Other people on other sites have complained about it as well. I asked was it real or fake on a forum which was a gossip forum because I didn't know I never had anything like that happen, but I deleted it immediately from anything, because I broke the rules and also offended people which was unintentional, I was just so shocked . I also deleted my page and e-mail because I wanted no reminder of that, I'm already besides myself. I don't know who put offensive stuff online like that to begin with but the admins need to be more cautious to protect their sites.

All I can do is love, maybe loving too much can sometimes harm

 

[LadyLoves]

I feel even worse now, may I ask for this thread to be deleted?

 

[Gordon]

Sorry to hear about how you were bullied. I went through a little bullying and know it can stay with you for years. I also know that feeling when you make a mistake you can't take back and the shame with that. Finding a new forum like this one may be best. You don't really want to be somewhere that people make you feel horrible about yourself for some mistake.

I really think you should deal with your past if you feel it is holding you back and will affect you forever. That is only true if you let it. You don't want to sabotage your relationships or give people the message it is ok to mistreat you. You should make it your goal to grow past all this and rely on God to help you. God can heal you. You can also get some counseling to help you. I hope you will feel more accepted here. Suicide thoughts are serious and you need to talk to a professional as well.

 

[iLOVE]

God said, “I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out — plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.†(Jeremiah 29:11 MSG)

In fact, God knows your feelings and frustrations, and he sees your hurt more than anyone else can. God knows your future, so he can tell what you need to know. God knows your fears, and he wants you to hand your worries over to him. God knows your faithfulness, because he sees every good thing you do.

You cannot help what people say. There is going to be always critics around your life. There are always going to be people of unbelief and doubt. There is going to be people that will allow the devil to use them to disincourage others. The good news is "if God is for you, who can be against you". God is on your side. I will pray for you. The Holy Spirit will comfort you!
​

 

[iLOVE]

Just pray to God and ask in Jesus name to restore what you want. Anything through self-effort will fail (the flesh). Make Jesus your identity not your flesh. It is a difference between a good idea and a God idea.

for He [God] Himself has said, I will not in any way fail you nor give you up nor leave you without support. [I will] not, [I will] not, [I will] not in any degree leave you helpless nor forsake nor let [you] down (relax My hold on you)! [Assuredly not!]

All of God promises of God are yes and amen. 2Corinthians1:2

 

[Gordon]

Not sure if you mean she should rely on God over seeking mental health iLove. I'm schizo-affective and know without doctors and meds I'd be in bad shape. I actually think getting treatment was part of God's plan for me. If you are suicidal I don't think seeing a doctor is not trusting God. Same as cancer mental health is the same.

 

[By Grace]

First one....(sorry it's such a long read, but it's killing me inside)

Recently it seems as if I've had an explosion of all of the above. I think one of my reasons is taking the internet too seriously. But the internet has also allowed to see what kind of people exist in the world without having to bump into them on a daily basis. Recently I've had a horrible thing happen to me regarding another forum I've been apart of for 4 years almost. I had a social network site that I've now gotten rid of because of this, as well as the e-mail attached to it. Sometimes on alot of these social sites you have individuals that post pics and videos that can be offensive to others on your page by default if they're apart of your friend's list. I've been blessed up until now to not have seen anything of that nature until recently. I only created a SN page to keep in contact with family mainly, and that's it. If I'm on there I'm talking to them or posting inspiring quotes. Last Sunday I did experience this, and the person who posted it, posted for the same reason out of shock and to prove how horrible people can be, I said "Omg to him, I hope it's fake" because sometimes the shocking things you see online no matter if it's a cartoon or something from a t.v. or something involving real human beings can be photoshopped for entertainment not taking into considration if it can be offensive or not, people actual take time out of their lives to go that far.

But no one was trying to hear it, it was a mistake on my part, I'm just a very passionate person when it comes to certain subjects and things which is why I wanted to know was it real, because it was just terrible, and have never come across it ever, and wish to never come across anything even remotely close to it again. I took it upon myself to send an e-mail with my new e-mail to the SN I "was" apart of to make sure they step up the moniroting of things that are posted on their site.

I was so torn by this because I didn't mean it, at all I always made it a mission while I was there to inform people how much of an advocate I was about certain topics and serious subjects and how I support the individuals who are apart of those subjects to try and help as much as I can. But then I saw a thread with my screename in the title saying saying what happened and how people were bashing me, and I can't post and give a final explanation and try to let people know that was not my intention I was trying to help. I just feel like sometimes people never take time to listen or try to understand, they immediately make the assumption, jump to conclusions, and that's that. I've always been a advocate in trying to help others, but that absolutely sucked all the life out of me the way it happened, I should have thought before posting no matter how shocked I was. You just can't post everything all the time to address it with others no matter how serious it is, and how bad you want to help by addressing it.

I'm like in the deepest darkest place over that pic incident and feel like just jumping off the deep end of the Earth. I know it's just a forum with face-less people but the subject rangs near and dear to my heart and it's just not something (no matter if you're a stranger to everyone, and they're complete strangers who don't know you from a can of paint), you want to have connected to you when you're a great person who'd bend over backwards to help people of all ages and all species. It's easy for me to feel bad, ashamed, and even more depressed if I feel I've hurt or done something wrong, even if it "unintentional" they made me feel like the worst person in the world. I just can't wait to get back on when I'm able so I can apologize again and express my support and love for anyone involving serious topics. Not being able to get back on I feel helpless. I haven't ate or drank well since...

Sorry that I messed up the first reply. let me address the other issue that I think is very important: suicide. In reality, it is a permanent solution for a temporary problem

You begin and end with suicide, so I wonder how much you think of suicide. Please reply and answer these questions

1. Have you considered what time of the day or night when you would commit the act?
2. Have considered exactly how you would do it?
3. Do you have access to the things necessary to commit suicide. have you given away any significant belongings? Have you picked a place where you would do it?
4. Have you rehearsed the action?
5. Have you written a farewell letter?

What is your motivation for thinking of suicide?

Is it revenge, or personal embarrassment?
Do you have an underlying illness or disability?
Do you have a recent major set back?
How frequently do you think of suicide?


EACH of the questions are significant, so I request that you answer them so that we can proceed with helping .



For sure, it is a good thing that you opened up here.

That is because any thought of suicide is significant, and that no one will condemn you here. Please keep in touch

 

[LadyLoves]

Sorry that I messed up the first reply. let me address the other issue that I think is very important: suicide. In reality, it is a permanent solution for a temporary problem

You begin and end with suicide, so I wonder how much you think of suicide. Please reply and answer these questions

1. Have you considered what time of the day or night when you would commit the act? I haven't I just sometimes want to do it, and there's no real date or time, the thought and wanting to act on it just comes out of emotions
2. Have considered exactly how you would do it? Yes two ways cutting an artery or jumping off a high building or platform into deep water.
   
3. Do you have access to the things necessary to commit suicide. have you given away any significant belongings? Have you picked a place where you would do it? I have a variety of knives at home, and I know can use my legs to walk somewhere and jump.
   
4. Have you rehearsed the action? Yes I've went to the kitchen and gotten the knife, have gotten out paper and pen to see what I wanted to write so that my family can see what I went through that lead me up to it, or at least know, my mom I wouldn't want her to read it but eventually she'd discover them. I would have posted one of my notes from when I was in HS, but they're gone and I remember throwing a lot of them away, all of them I think.
   
5. Have you written a farewell letter? Yes many times, but I've thrown them all away so my mom wouldn't see it. I don't care about anyone else seeing but my mom is my pride and joy and if it wasn't for her I'd probably not be here typing right now. One person who's kept me alive is my mother, I almost lost her back in 2004. It was horrible time for me. Thank goodness her best friend, our pastor was there to help us, but she passed in 2009. She helped us through some trying times. Wish she were still here.
   

What is your motivation for thinking of suicide?

Is it revenge, or personal embarrassment? Yes from a lot of things.
Do you have an underlying illness or disability? Yes I have auto-immune skin disease psoriasis on my face, you can't tell due to make-up and on and off flare ups but when it happens it's painful and it's been pretty much a pain, had since I was in the 5th grade.
Do you have a recent major set back? Yes legal issues with my family I posted about it in the prayer request forum. And my becoming very ill, she had to have surgery.
How frequently do you think of suicide? Every single day, I don't want to die I want to enjoy life but sometimes even physically I can feel the affects that depression and the up and down range of emotions can have on the human body. I developed bulimia as a teenager my mom and my sister who was all a kid at the time had to literally beg me to stop, and I'm aware what that could do you internally and combine that with the constant worrying, crying, and emotional dispair it's really making me sick internally. Then it becomes a matter of since you've been so close to death many times, what else can you feel about death, the thought of death becomes less scary and you develop a nonchalant attitude about dying. That's not something I want to have I want to be here for my family, but it's gotten so hard for me.

Then you realize you're alone in the end no matter what, people just don't care. There's human beings dying 24/7, 365 days a year and we go on with our lives like we know nothing. That just adds to the hurt.

EACH of the questions are significant, so I request that you answer them so that we can proceed with helping .



For sure, it is a good thing that you opened up here.

Thank you all so much for the embrace, I think I found this forum for a reason, maybe God knew something I didn't know

That is because any thought of suicide is significant, and that no one will condemn you here. Please keep in touch

I hope that helped, I can't thank you all enough for your kind words and extending hands.

 

[By Grace]

THANK YOU FOR RESPONDING

We need to talk, but no longer here

Here is my "screener email" address revjohn1@yahoo.com

Until we are able to pursue this matter further I want you to promise me IN WRITING that you WILL NOT take any suicidal actions, not think about them. Use the Reply function and write your written promise to me, OK?

 

[evenifigoalone]

I honestly have no idea what to say, but I at least want to tell you that I'll be praying for you. <3
There are people who care, remember that. Even if this weren't true, God cares and doesn't want you to throw your life away.

 

[By Grace]

I hope that helped, I can't thank you all enough for your kind words and extending hands.

Unless you want to refinance my house for 2.65% you have not responded, LadyLoves

 

[By Grace]

Originally Posted by LadyLoves
I hope that helped, I can't thank you all enough for your kind words and extending hands.

Thirty-six hours of silence from my last post from you ladyLove.

I an very concerned about the situation.................................................