Kelli said:
Ginger,
You are beautiful!!! You shouldn't be self conscious! And I love your hair cut.
Kelli
Thank you. (I am trying just to take a compliment but whether it's because I am British can't do it. then someone said to me once, it sounds like you are fishing for compliments if you keep denying a compliment, whatever it may be for. Although that was far from the truth I wouldn't want to get the wrong idea so am now just trying to say thank you when someone likes a meal I cooked etc - it's so hard though!)
I feel I have to explain my comment to lovely. Recently I was convicted of sin re covetousness. I didn't realise it was, as I wasn't obsessed with anything or gave it much thought but it was still there, however small it may be (there are no small sins).
I used to hear beautiful singing in the church and it moved me so much, I said 'I wish I had that voice'. I was happy for the person(s), I wasn't jealous but would have loved the gift of music myself.
Also I used to see Angelina Jolie and thought how beautiful she is (but I sadly didn't stop there) and then wished I looked like her - 20 pounds heavier as she is too thin but still the wish was there.
As I said before I didn't dwell on it, was happy for them so didn't even enter my mind it was sin, actually I think I was proud of not being catty!
Then I realised wishing/wanting something you don't have is by the nature of it being covetousness however you dress it up. God didn't grant me that gift or make me look like that and it's like a smack in His face as He created me, gave me other gifts and I was telling Him it wasn't good enough!! And maybe the reason God didn't grant me those things was because I could have been so big-headed and so full of pride because of it!
Anyway long story nearly over (
), when the thought comes to my mind, how beautiful someone/thing is I am now aware of my previous sin and don't go there, reject the temptation of going further to 'I wish" and call it out and just stay with being able to appreciate someone/thing. That's what I was doing in case anyone was wondering.