I have been pondeing a simple yet profound question- what if I just gave everything up to God? Not for the moment but permanently. i asked God lord say I just let go, say I just gave you to keep never to be returned my faith my desires my need to have some sort of control or authority, Say I gave up the need to know why in all things i never question you again even when it makes zero sense.
Say that I never be strong i never become the christ like person i want to be say none of my prayers get answered but I dont care because I gve you complete control and authority of all things of my life. I end this conversation with him with another question- What would you do with that request?
Giving God the absolute control and authority of my life my faith and all other things sounds simple but its not. If we did this we risk losing eerything we risk suffering greatly and never achieving anything in even faith if that was his will if that what was neccisary for his plan.
In order for his glory for his will to be done if we just handed everything over theres a chance we would be given a crappy hand of cards in return. This is not something just anyone can do it take a fantastic leap of faith that is on a level even the most mature and strong christians would have trouble with.
So with all this in mind knowing that in return for this deal my entire life could be crap and my faith could be very damaged because God is planning something much bigger knowing that when my life ends i could just barely be crawling into eternity because I held on to that 1% of faith in him before I lost all hope and lost my faith entiely Remembering his words I may let you bend but I wont let you break.
I just feel like this is one of the most important moves i can make in this chess game that is faith.
I am not quite ready to do this but I feel I would be so relieved if I did like a giant burden that keeps me hunched over and makes my bones creak would be lifted gone forever. I hope that soon I will do this
Say that I never be strong i never become the christ like person i want to be say none of my prayers get answered but I dont care because I gve you complete control and authority of all things of my life. I end this conversation with him with another question- What would you do with that request?
Giving God the absolute control and authority of my life my faith and all other things sounds simple but its not. If we did this we risk losing eerything we risk suffering greatly and never achieving anything in even faith if that was his will if that what was neccisary for his plan.
In order for his glory for his will to be done if we just handed everything over theres a chance we would be given a crappy hand of cards in return. This is not something just anyone can do it take a fantastic leap of faith that is on a level even the most mature and strong christians would have trouble with.
So with all this in mind knowing that in return for this deal my entire life could be crap and my faith could be very damaged because God is planning something much bigger knowing that when my life ends i could just barely be crawling into eternity because I held on to that 1% of faith in him before I lost all hope and lost my faith entiely Remembering his words I may let you bend but I wont let you break.
I just feel like this is one of the most important moves i can make in this chess game that is faith.
I am not quite ready to do this but I feel I would be so relieved if I did like a giant burden that keeps me hunched over and makes my bones creak would be lifted gone forever. I hope that soon I will do this
