Struggeling
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When I was a child I became ill which is something that really frustrated my parents and brought on some physical and emotional abuse. I was sick for a very long time I only recovered last year.. failed out of college and high school. Most people assumed on was on drugs, others assumed I was having relations and caught std's, my relatives and family fought bitterly and I got stuck in hospital beds. Finally things cleared up and some people actually believe that I was ill. I'm getting into shape, exercising, saving money for college.
I've always been good with kids, I work at a summer camp, due to my illness some of the staff members at the camp assumed that I was doing drugs at the camp and wrote a letter to the board members who control that camp, which got me fired with a promise that I would never work there again, however somehow the camp director pulled strings to get me working there again, even when I was sick fighting to work the kids would still mob around me a pale socially awkward guy..., however he was then asked to step down at the end of the summer, the new director is very strict and conservative "my way or the highway" headstrong, I fear that I may not work there next summer...
I've now noticed that I am beginning to quickly lose my hair, balding, It seems like I'm losing a lot.. Ive never had a g/f or even kissed a girl, I know that God has the right woman for me but my hair was the one thing that women loved about me and now Im losing all of it, Im not angry at God, I really love Him and see his peace and works in me quite often but I just don't understand His plans..
Ive lost my youth, health, perhaps my favorite job, lost any chances with certain women, and now I'm going bald... So I'm suffering greatly from the depression from that.. its causing me to look 20 years older and drawing laughter and discomfort from others... I just need some prayer and wish I could understand why.
I've always been good with kids, I work at a summer camp, due to my illness some of the staff members at the camp assumed that I was doing drugs at the camp and wrote a letter to the board members who control that camp, which got me fired with a promise that I would never work there again, however somehow the camp director pulled strings to get me working there again, even when I was sick fighting to work the kids would still mob around me a pale socially awkward guy..., however he was then asked to step down at the end of the summer, the new director is very strict and conservative "my way or the highway" headstrong, I fear that I may not work there next summer...
I've now noticed that I am beginning to quickly lose my hair, balding, It seems like I'm losing a lot.. Ive never had a g/f or even kissed a girl, I know that God has the right woman for me but my hair was the one thing that women loved about me and now Im losing all of it, Im not angry at God, I really love Him and see his peace and works in me quite often but I just don't understand His plans..
Ive lost my youth, health, perhaps my favorite job, lost any chances with certain women, and now I'm going bald... So I'm suffering greatly from the depression from that.. its causing me to look 20 years older and drawing laughter and discomfort from others... I just need some prayer and wish I could understand why.
