Hello Thomas 44~
Every Christian is discouraged from time to time, and our Lord Jesus Christ understands best how you feel, because He was in all points (including discouargement) tested as we are, yet without sin. Your Savior is able to put courage back into you also, the pslams are like healing balms for our weary souls... go to those words of men like yourself who struggled as you do.
King David wrote; oh soul, why are you discouraged within me? Hope in God, for I will yet praise Him. (my condensed version)
I pray our Father in heaven will give you hope and encourage your heart as you turn toward Him and His word. May He strengthen you in the inner man, to know His constant care for you, and to know His powerful love most of all! :heart
The Lord is very present in times of trouble dear brother, draw even nearer to Him now. bonnie