Hi, my name is Joe. I know this is long, but could really use some opinions. I need some help in figuring out what Jesus has been showing me. Im not listing things chronologically, its getting hard to remember what came when. Let me start with this, when i was 18 my friend was into tarot cards, I dont believe you are supposed to dabble in such things but i was young. So he was reading my cards and the last card he pulled was the hanging man card, this is the card showing a dark haired man hanging by a noose. My friend told me that meant i would lose my job i had. He must have read it wrong because my father hung himself three weeks later. One day i was thinking of him and lifted the mini blinds up for no good reason and a hummingbird was hovering there staring right at me (more on that later). After that my life just spiraled down into deep depression, partying, and alcohol, of which im just now starting to come out of 13 years later. Anyway after that I met a girl who eventually broke up with me, which i was crushed. One night after she broke up with me i was crying and deeply sad, while i was sitting there crying my dads picture fell off the mirror right in front of me and the mini blinds on my window fell. Just two years i was having a conversation about my dad with a friend at about 3 in the morning. Before that i hadnt really talked about it in awhile, i had accepted it and moved on by then. When i got home the next day i checked my email and out of the blue, a woman who ive never met emailed me at about 3 that same night telling me i had a brother from my dad that i never knew about. Ive seen the pictures of him, he looks like its true. Then i began seeing my birthday everywhere (11-12). Now I know people see numbers everywhere and usually are just them looking for it. But then i saw my birthday with a time attached to it on a tv show I used to watch. Ive seen every episode and this is the only episode that shows a date and time. So i wrote the time down 11-12 at 8:01 p.m. So when that day came i went outside and when 8:01 came, a line of clouds past over my head at that exact time. Then I continued to see 11-12. Keep in mind me seeing these are over span of years. The next big thing with my birthday was on a new show called Flashforward, in the scene two of the characters are discussing seeing numbers and patterns and how people make them into something bigger than they are, when they are just coincedences and no more. They have the conversation, and then the camera cuts to a clock thats counting down and its at 11:12! The next thing that happened was seeing Jesus and seeing the picture of the last supper. I always used to swim at this same pool, id go there at least 4 times a week during the summer. One day i found a pendant that goes on a necklace, it was of the last supper. Then one day i found the book the davinci code which has the last supper in it. Weird huh. Then one day i was swimming and i asked so god what do u have for me this time, so i swam to that spot and there was a cell phone sitting there. Yes i get it, he was calling for me. Then i just started seeing pictures of the last supper everywhere, just odd places. Once i saw a movie where a guy was writing on a blackboard and on it was 11-12 and behind him the picture of the last supper. (more on jesus later) Let me tell you another thing that happened. My grandpa has gotten sick and passed away. Well one night i had a dream that i stepped out of my door, took a right, took a couple steps, then turned right into a door and there standing in a room was a dark figure. It was dressed in a robe and a hood and looking down, and I instantly knew it was evil. In my dream i screamed and yelled for it to show me its face, i was yelling this in a argumenative way like i wasnt afraid. Well i woke up from my dream and had to go to the bathroom. I walked out my door, turned right, took a couple steps and turned right to go the bathroom. As you can see these are the same steps and directions as in my dream, and when i got to the toilet there was blood on the wall. My grandpa said he had cut hit elbow on the window sill. That same day i took a nap, and had a dream that i was kissing a girl on my bed, she had black hair. She pulled away and her eyes were black and i cant remember if she was sucking black smoke from me or blowing it into me. Now back to the hummingbird, i would see one and it would always remind me of my dad, then i started seeing eagles and hawks everywhere. And when i good friend of mine died, i started seeing more butterflys. Even in the movie walk the line, which reminds alot of my life and struggles, there was a scene of J. Cash laying in a hammock watching a eagle( i guess it was an eagle) flying above him, i watched that about the same time i was seeing these. One day i was outside and was thinking about god, and was being funny and asked if i unlock this door( the door goes to a small shed), please show me something. I kid you not I unlocked the door and a butterlfy came and flew around me, a hummingbird came and hovered right in front of me and an eagle flew in the sky above me. All at the same time, im my field of vision. Now more about Jesus and god, for the most part ive quit drinking like a did, until recently i was very depressed and sad. One night about 3 weeks ago i was drinking and on the way home i got into some sort of rage and mad at god for my life being in such chaos and basically just crappy, i asked Why? Why? Why? all the way home. I got home still mad. I went to my room took a picture of a cross down and stomped on it, took a wooden cross of jesus and broke it, and cut myself. Then I took the bible still asking why and randomly opened it and started tearing out pages. I laid my hand down and smeared blood on the page. Then i looked what i had done and started to read where the blood was. I had opened it to the book of Job. The summary reads "Job is perhaps the earliest book of the Bible. Set in the period of the patriarchs, it tells the story of man who loses everything-his wealth, his family, his health-and wrestles with the question, Why?". That was quite amazing. I read that book and its about satan making a bet with god that he could get job to curse him by taking everything away, even his health. My life hasnt been to the extent what job went thru, but its mirrored it in its own way. Everything about the book i can relate to, money, health, some family, even the debates between job and his friends i can relate to. Im not sure if i passed or failed that test, because i did end up cursing him that night. But that night i found god and jesus again. I always believed, but not truly. Ive been seeing Jesus's picture everywhere since then. Even last night on yahoo i saw where some photographers took a photo of a pink hippo. I was amused so i used google images to look at it, i googled pink hippo. And the page filled up with images of pink hippos and in the middle of all the pictures was a picture cartoon of jesus with words "the messenger" under him. I laughed God must have a sense of humour. Google it, its probably still there (use google images)....idk. Now for the part i need help with. Ill start with this, for the past 4 years ive read and seen alot about the end of world. The mayans, i-ching, the hope indians, aliens coming whatever, there are alot of ideas that are joining and pointing to 2012. Along with our world in chaos. Well back to seeing Jesus's picture, one day i was cleaning out my grandpas attic, and there was a a big picture of jesus (which now hangs in my room) and next to it was a mayan-indian looking disc. Now why would that be in my grandpas attic next to jesus? And that same night i tore the bible up to job and read it, i randomly flipped the bible to a page, and the page number was 1221, thats the day alot of people think something will happen, idk what this means. Not to mention the random pictures of white horses i would see, which i saw one just the other night, and finally looked up if the white horse had any meaning in the bible. Which it does, in Revelations! I know the bible says no one will now the day of his coming, but why i am seeing all this? To me it all fits like a puzzle. Is he just showing me this as way to get my attention thats he's there and to live a good life, or is it more. Was he showing me my birthday to show there are no coincedences, so id believe what he would show me later, Idk.
p.s. I just went outside after writing this, came in, and guess what was on the tv screen. A picture of the last supper.....hahahaha!!!!!
p.s. I just went outside after writing this, came in, and guess what was on the tv screen. A picture of the last supper.....hahahaha!!!!!
) has to determine if it is from God or Satan. The way to do this is with a very good working knowledge of the scriptures from a Christian's perspective. With only three weeks as a Christian under your belt, that is going to be next to impossible for you to do right now.