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Ryu Wilder
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I'm worried that in some way I might have committed blasphemy of the Holy Spirit due to some past experience in the Church Of God, where I was constantly being slain in the Spirit, speaking in tongues, and other things, and right now they're all starting to catch up with me, along with the fact that my stepdad who was a Christian at one point in his life had to question this, since it was happening almost every Church Service and when he would, I'd get on the defensive and yell at him over it. I really hope I've not blasphemed the Lord in any way at all, I'm just 23 and I want to turn my life around so I can make it to Heaven someday, not suffer in Hell! God is a good God, don't get me wrong, but I just don't take Christianity as "seriously" as others do, where they say "Well, thats a sin, or this is a sin" but I let God direct me. I just hope I've not screwed my chances of going to Heaven up at all.
Then I'm always asking myself: What if those moves of the Spirit weren't persuaded by the Spirit? What if it was just me, and I didn't know any better? Does that still count? I never want to make God angry with me. Then an incident where me and a friend got into a debate on homosexuality, and I lost it for a moment and blurted out "Well, the Bible says its ok to be gay!", not thinking or anything, not meaning to slander God's word. At the time I didn't know my Bible all that well, and I still don't, but I want to know it, and be passionate with it, and this time around make it real, not try and be condemned to Hell. I don't ever look to offend God because I fear Him and I know His name alone is powerful.
Then I'm always asking myself: What if those moves of the Spirit weren't persuaded by the Spirit? What if it was just me, and I didn't know any better? Does that still count? I never want to make God angry with me. Then an incident where me and a friend got into a debate on homosexuality, and I lost it for a moment and blurted out "Well, the Bible says its ok to be gay!", not thinking or anything, not meaning to slander God's word. At the time I didn't know my Bible all that well, and I still don't, but I want to know it, and be passionate with it, and this time around make it real, not try and be condemned to Hell. I don't ever look to offend God because I fear Him and I know His name alone is powerful.