cyberjosh
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- Oct 19, 2005
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I have a personal prayer request for myself that I would appreciate it if you would pray for me over it.
I guess I'm sort of confiding in you guys and gals for accountability but I'm definately undergoing a battle right now. For about 6 years now I've gone through a "roller coaster ride" type battle with lust trying to overtake me. The Lord delivered me from looking at pornography years ago but that is to say nothing of what pops in the mind when you are just walking around and see a beautiful woman or when your mind begins to wander when you are by yourself, but thanks to much prayer and coming closer to God I have been able to stave it off more successfully and for longer, but nonetheless it will still come back and take me unexpectedly off balance by thoughts that run rampant through my mind when I least expect to be hit by it.
I've learned to reject these thoughts as they begin to take hold in my mind by bringing every thought into subjection to our Lord Jesus. But now Satan had found a new and quite frankly scarry avenue of tempting me.
I fully acknowledge that this lust is due to the evil desires of my flesh and that it is not ultimately Satan's fault, though he it the tempter that prompts you to give into such desires. James 1:14 says, "But each one is tempted when, by his own evil desire, he is dragged away and enticed." The "enticed" part is where Satan comes in. So I hope that would pray for me for God to help me to bring all of those desires (conscious and unconcious) under the cross to crucify it.
But here is my situation in which Satan has recently been elevating the battle: he is now attacking me in my sleep & dreams, constantly and deliberately, so that I commit lustful thoughts in either my sleep or half-sleep and I seem helpless to stop it. Satan is hitting me at a time when I'm not fully conscious in order to bypass my defenses and its starting to get to me. Once I actually woke up because if it, but only after I was battling mentally with it for what seemed like forever, convincing myself that what I was seeing (in my dream) was not real and that it was deceiving me into thinking it was alright to indulge in, then eventually my reason kicked in and I woke up seeing that it was just a dream. This has been an on-going pattern lately. Satan obviously gets frustrated with me so he waits till an opportune time to test me in the only way he knows how to get through my defenses: when I'm asleep. It's a very awkward position to be in but please pray for me.
God Bless,
~Josh
I guess I'm sort of confiding in you guys and gals for accountability but I'm definately undergoing a battle right now. For about 6 years now I've gone through a "roller coaster ride" type battle with lust trying to overtake me. The Lord delivered me from looking at pornography years ago but that is to say nothing of what pops in the mind when you are just walking around and see a beautiful woman or when your mind begins to wander when you are by yourself, but thanks to much prayer and coming closer to God I have been able to stave it off more successfully and for longer, but nonetheless it will still come back and take me unexpectedly off balance by thoughts that run rampant through my mind when I least expect to be hit by it.
I've learned to reject these thoughts as they begin to take hold in my mind by bringing every thought into subjection to our Lord Jesus. But now Satan had found a new and quite frankly scarry avenue of tempting me.
I fully acknowledge that this lust is due to the evil desires of my flesh and that it is not ultimately Satan's fault, though he it the tempter that prompts you to give into such desires. James 1:14 says, "But each one is tempted when, by his own evil desire, he is dragged away and enticed." The "enticed" part is where Satan comes in. So I hope that would pray for me for God to help me to bring all of those desires (conscious and unconcious) under the cross to crucify it.
But here is my situation in which Satan has recently been elevating the battle: he is now attacking me in my sleep & dreams, constantly and deliberately, so that I commit lustful thoughts in either my sleep or half-sleep and I seem helpless to stop it. Satan is hitting me at a time when I'm not fully conscious in order to bypass my defenses and its starting to get to me. Once I actually woke up because if it, but only after I was battling mentally with it for what seemed like forever, convincing myself that what I was seeing (in my dream) was not real and that it was deceiving me into thinking it was alright to indulge in, then eventually my reason kicked in and I woke up seeing that it was just a dream. This has been an on-going pattern lately. Satan obviously gets frustrated with me so he waits till an opportune time to test me in the only way he knows how to get through my defenses: when I'm asleep. It's a very awkward position to be in but please pray for me.
God Bless,
~Josh