Dear brother in Christ, the closeness you are missing is as the prodigal son of Luke 15:11-32. We can get so tied up in making a living we become isolated from the very fellowship that sustains us in our walk. Our Father has not forgotten you, nor has He failed you, but He does desire your closeness again. He is just waiting to give you the kiss, the robe, the ring, and the meal that will provide you assurance of your standing and status with Him.
You miss the experience of your relationship, and knowing His ever nearness in your time of need. We need Him in every part of our lives to be joyful. David put it this way as he knew he retained his salvation, but he was missing the joy of it as we read in Psalms 51:12, Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation; and uphold me with thy free spirit.
I do not know your situation as to whether you are able to attend the gathering together with other saints at this time, but we need the support and love of our brethren; make it a priority. Don't allow our enemy to keep you from God's best for your life. Now Satan cannot steal your position in Christ, but if allowed to he certainly can damage the goals God has for you; I've been there and done that but He can build you back up.
Dear Father, have Your way in this precious saint to be a full overcomer in the things You have set before him, and instill that renewed hope of attaining into Your perfect will for him as he allows You to lead and show the path. Put in him the hunger for Your word, and strengthen him with power from the Holy Spirit to return to becoming a spiritual warrior again. Be with him in all his going, thank You for being here for us, and I ask this in Jesus' name. Amen.
God bless you in Jesus' name.
PS - I grew up in San Diego area (Crest out past El Cajon) though am not there now. Great country.